Life in the mind of Mayeshah

Who am I?

2012-02-08T08:08:00.000-08:00

I have come across some videos that showed the inside of people's lives after Youtube fame.
This one had touched my heart because he does bring out really good videos and as a viewer you never think that this is what really going on in his life.

Then this one which is a girl that I followed religiously when I was in Uni.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Taio Cruz - Higher ft. Travie McCoy

2012-02-05T17:01:00.000-08:00

Where was I when this came out??????

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Mayeshah!!!

Official 2012 Honda CR-V Game Day Commercial - "Matthew's Day Off" Exten...

2012-01-31T19:46:00.000-08:00

I loved Ferris Bueller's Day Off and I am loving this!!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Trailers

2012-01-31T19:39:00.000-08:00

I dont really share much movie trailers but these were so bad ass and cool that I had to share!!!

This reminded me of Animatrix, so I would watch it just to get a mindfuck for real.This movie looks bad ass to the max and damn right it got in Bruce Willis!!!Finally, it is about time they bring out a movie as bad ass as this. I dont even think I will wait to watch this with my sister or anyone. I would go and watch this movie over and over again. OXXOMayeshah!!!

Why I am single #4

2012-01-28T08:28:00.000-08:00

Unfortunately the fourth reason my sister put up is pretty much the same as mine. So please check it out here and then come back to me.

So she says she is an idiot but I would rather say that I dont see myself worthy of someone who is really nice or really cute. I know that I can be very confident and everything when I want to be but as with alot of things in my life I am very very scared. I let fear of this stop me or I would make excuses not to do it.

I haven't gotten over it or started to get over it because my excuses are very easy to pull out without me even thinking about them.
This is what I will have to get made into a poster and frame it so that I will know to STOP!!!

Some of the excuses I do make is to get me out of things I know are morally out of the way and fun to experience.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

So far

2012-01-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

As you know I was working on my skills for this year. Well I am off to a good start so far. I am doing a Spanish course at the Venezuelan Institute for free which is really really good. It teaches you conversational Spanish instead of Spanish that they teach you in schools.

So far I know:
How to greet people
How to introduce myself
Tell people my name and ask people their names
Tell people where I am from and ask them where they are from
Tell people where I live and ask them where they live
Tell people what I do and ask them what they do
Tell people about my personality
Tell people the day, today, tomorrow and the days after that
The months
Numbers up to 20
Birthdays

And that is all in 2 weeks ->4 classes -> 8 hours. :D

Plus through work I have done a training course. That is a course on how to train people.

It was a 4 day course but we will have to practice training our co-workers and sub-ordinates (if I w as a supervisor) for 6 months before getting my certificate.

Because I am in no specific department at the moment I am doing two departments. 3 months in housekeeping and 3 months in the dining room. Fun times!!!

Well I most definitely dont want it to be an excuse on why I havent blogged in so long but I have been busy as you can see.

I will try and keep you up to date with my situations :D

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Mayeshah!!!

My False Ideals for a Black Man

2012-01-16T15:56:00.000-08:00

Well I was watching the trailer for the new Miley Cyrus movie: LOL

Well, if you actually watch it on youtube you will see the amount of people who actually dislikes this movie. However, on the other hand, if I was still between the ages of 7-15 my brain would still be informing me on that is how finding someone you like is suppose to happen. Ok now screw that, since i am not a MCyrus fan.

The main thing that has messed me up, right up until now is these two chicks:

So here is a video with a few trailers of the movies that has really messed me up:

Then there is these chicks:

Yea them staring in movies that make me think love was so fun to find and stuff. However, in real life it isnt that easy. That you would find this cute hunky dude who is around your age and he is interested in you and you are interested in him. That you are going to get into adventures and all kinda crap.

Now that I am interested in actually going out (and can go without asking permission) the dudes who approach are either very hard to talk to because they just wanna have sex with you or they are just not your type and still just wanna have sex with you.

"Why can't we just talk and get to know each other so that I will feel comfortable around you?" is the question I ask (in my mind) every guy that approaches me about sex.

But then looking at all these movies you never saw a black couple (well there was Dion in Clueless but they were heavy snoggers). So it now makes me wonder if it is a cultural thing.

I ever listened to some of my American friends when it came to dating and most of them dudes know better than to approach them with sexual advances (if they were sober).

It then makes me wonder if because black women have such pronounced bodies that the male mind just automatically goes to sex.

I most likely have to get over major fears to reach anywhere but I know that I also need to go out more. When this happens I hope I get a relationship like in some of them movies where we can talk about anything and still have fun together.

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Mayeshah!!!

P.S. The Olsen Twins movies were when I was really young and they were younger and less creepy!!

BANE!!!

2012-01-15T16:28:00.000-08:00

So last night I was on youtube and just going through my subscriptions (as usual since that is my life) and came across this video:So in my mind I am like why can't we understand Bane? So I went back to the trailer for the new Dark Knight (if you havent seen it yet check it here:)and his mouth was obstructed with some metal piece of shit. WTF??? :S First I am going to do a wiki description of the origins of Bane:

Fictional character biography

Bane was born in the fictional Caribbean Republic of Santa Prisca, in a prison called Peña Dura ("Hard Rock"). His father Edmund Dorrance had been a revolutionary and had escaped Santa Prisca's court system. The corrupt government however decreed that his young son would serve out the man's life sentence, and thus Bane's childhood and early adult life are spent in the amoral penitentiary environment.[3][4] Though imprisoned, his natural abilities allow him to develop extraordinary skills within the prison's walls. He reads as many books as he can get his hands on, builds up his body in the prison's gym, and learns to fight in the merciless school of prison life. Despite his circumstances, he finds teachers of various sorts during his incarceration, ranging from hardened convicts to an elderly Jesuit priest, under whose tutelage he apparently receives a classical education. Bane murders this priest upon his return to Santa Prisca years later. However, he commits his first murder at the age of eight, stabbing a criminal who wanted to use him to gain information about the prison.[4] During his years in prison, Bane carries a teddy bear he calls Osito (Spanish for "little bear"), whom he considers his only friend.[5] It is revealed that Osito has a hole in his back to hold a knife that Bane uses against anyone who bullies him.[3][4]Bane ultimately establishes himself as the "king" of Peña Dura prison. The prison's controllers take note and eventually force him to become a test subject for a mysterious drug known as Venom,[4] which had killed all other subjects; the drug is administered by a doctor who bears a passing resemblance to another Batman foe, Dr. Hugo Strange. Later, in Vengeance of Bane II the very same doctor encounters Bane again in Gotham and it can be confirmed that it is not Hugo Strange, who at that point in Batman continuity was a crazed psychologist and not a surgeon.[4] The Peña Dura prison Venom experiment nearly kills Bane at first, but he survives and finds that the drug vastly increases his physical strength, although he needs to take it every 12 hours (via a system of tubes pumped directly into his brain) or he will suffer debilitating side-effects.[3][4]

So now I am curious about the background and origins of Bane. I came across this and this looked quite legit when it came to the Cartoons:So check out these to see if some of what is said sounds legit?

Then as stated in the origins they did bring up Bane in Batman & Robin in '97 I think ( i was young :P )
But I think they kept the theory that he was doing life and he was the only volunteer that survived.But this new Bane seems like a big big disappointment.

So now I am sad that this is gonna be sucky!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Jesus was not Good

2012-01-15T12:45:00.000-08:00

Now this video gives me a better understanding about this individual. I wish that more people would watch this and understand that what they are killing and judging people over is just a story that people in the past forced down peoples throats.

However, Christianity has such a tight hold on a large number of the western world that I might as well keep my mouth shut and move on with my life.

After all this all I can say is Eat Pray Love!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single? #3

2012-01-05T05:39:00.000-08:00

Told you it would be sporadic. Well my sister's third topic was "I settle for the wrong guy".

My issue is I dont settle for any guy. When someone interesting comes into view like 3 or 4 potential guys would come into view. I then get frustrated and just stay far from all of them until they all go away.

I remember a time that this guy that I found quite interesting was talking to me and then it is like all my male friends became available again or just wanted some nookie. So I was like... what do I do now? I am not the player type of chick to be stringing all of them along, so I just back away and stay away from all.

It sounds retarded right but it kept me feeling safe for a long time. No one with hurt feelings. But then again I am still single.

This is the reason I am still single cause this has always been my method of solving this problem. It is one that I am hoping to change this new year. There are a few guys that I see that are interesting but I wanna see who I am comfortable with first and then move on from there. Bearing in mind a few of these guys are just interested in the sexual aspect of it. Which is something I am planning to cut out if not completely, by a huge percent. (not that I do it alot but when I do it is always casual.)

I guess if I start letting my guards I will get this issue resolved. We will see.

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Mayeshah!!!

New Year Plan (NOT RESOLUTION)

2012-01-05T04:55:00.000-08:00

I know I am a whole 5 days late but HAPPY NEW YEARS ALL.

Now I got that out of the way, I shall tell you about this PLAN, notice I didnt say RESOLUTION, because Resolutions tend to be full of crap. I have come across a post that says Learn a New Skill This Weekend. The area I saw it was an entry saying learn a new skill every weekend in 2012.

So far I havent made up my mind on what Skill will be my first. However, next week I will be registering for Spanish Classes. So that is a first step toward my goal.

I have the basic knowledge for Bartendinge maybe I should do the full skill of Bartending.

I do believe to pick a Skill I shall use the website Lifehacker.com to find a skill then I will research as much about it and then do them. Maybe I will do blog posts about them :D

Well wish me good luck since this is gonna be an interesting challenge for me in the year 2012. My ending goal is to know a little about everythign and alot about one thing (I dont remember who says that but it is gonna be my mantra for this year)

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Mayeshah!!!

In Time Review

2012-01-04T20:01:00.000-08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!POSSIBLE SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THIS MOVIE YET DONT READ (UNLESS YOU NEVER GONNA WATCH THE MOVIE)
Here is the trailer so that you dont have to go through this blog entry for nothing :D

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Well if you scrolled pass my lil thingy there that means you have seen the movie or just dont give a shit.
Note well: I am not a certified food critic, I am a girl and have all right to be Bias where necessary.

I went to our local cinema to see this movie for their $5 EC Wednesday special (Big ups to Deluxe Cinemas) The movie started out at a very good pace, you understood what was going on and the jest of what was going on. Then the ultimate moment happened really soon into the movie, he saved that guys life and got the time while the guy gone and commit suicide at the age of 105. Nice right.
The pace of the movie after that was very good as well after this cause it gave you a chance to make your own conclusions and so forth.

Then there was the Romeo & Juliet scene where they met and they danced and they went for a swim. However they didnt die. They actually started to rob banks and shit - Bonnie & Clyde scene, and then give it to all the ppl in the ghetto - Robin Hood.

The story line was sick, the actors(actresses) were really good and the movie was just really phenomenal

TOLD YOU I WASNT A CRITIC BUT BEARING IN MIND I AM SLEEPY I SHALL END WITH THIS:
It is a good movie and I would recommend that you watch it if you havent and hope you enjoyed it as much as I did if you did.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Weekly Address: The President and First Lady Thank our Troops for their ...

2011-12-26T09:39:00.000-08:00

I might be a day late but we in Antigua are celebrating today as Christmas as well!!! I hope all of you have a great Christmas season and enter the new year with Health, Wealth and prosperity.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

A predicament!

2011-12-18T17:04:00.000-08:00

Ok I am in a predicament. I actually like a guy who likes me and I think I am brave enough to check him out. :| But I am also talking to another dude who I know he is interested in me and I find him interesting. Now I am like should I see what happens with this first dude and hope shit goes well.
My fear is that I will give up on it really quickly or I might be tooo clingy (like giving cling wrap a run for its money) But then it runs through my mind what if it isnt even like that, what if he just wants a shag and then move on ?(I know I used shag and that is British and I am not but I am watching Misfits :P) But yeah. Or even worst he is over obsessed or I am over obsessed? Now what if it turns out I marry this dude (ok i know I am jumping the gun here) but what if it happens?
Normally I would just wait for this wave to pass (wave as in a group of guys interested in me at the same time since that is how it turns out to happen all the time) I just dont know :(

Well this was just a random thought that I figured I should put out in the cyberworld for it to be swallowed up and move on with my life.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single? #2

2011-12-11T02:28:00.000-08:00

The second topic my sister had done was "Childhood Issues".

Now I dont want you to think I am just copying off of my sister but we are closer than we think we are. While her childhood issue was around specific events, mine was on my entire growing up from primary school up to now.

Because I was a big girl when I was young, I looked like I(or maybe even had) matured even faster than necessary. So I was getting all this attention from guys who was in their 20s and 30s (even 40s) and I was 8-10. So from that age I noticed that I had some power being a woman and all but because of my age (and the fact that I was always around family and family friends) I pretty much had to ward off any attention that I used to get. So I had always loved wearing baggy clothes (men's jeans and a large or extra large shirt). That did very well for a long time. But then when I was in high school one of my teachers told my mom that I should be wearing proper girly clothes (bearing in mind this teacher was a guy).

So one day my grades was really low (I cant tell if it was end of yr or end of term) but my mom was soo upset with me that she told me not to wear my baggy clothes anymore. :( That made me sad but I knew she was very serious. So since then all the attention came back and I have been turning guys down ever since. It has now become a norm to turn down guys. :( I know this is lame but unless I make a conscious effort to hang out with a male friend (or friends kinda force me to)

It even comes unconsciously because one of my friends was asking me out when I was in Uni and I gave all kinda excuses of why I wasnt gonna go. When my roommates noticed what was going on they basically arranged for me to go.

So guys bear with me I am a hard nut to crack but once opened I can be pretty cool!!

Happiness vs Fulfillment

2011-12-05T16:15:00.000-08:00

It is a little long (ok hella long) but it makes you think about the purpose of life. It is a good watch.

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Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single?

2011-12-04T16:12:00.001-08:00

My sister had done a couple posts on "Why am I single". I dont think I am as dedicated as she is, so these will be very sporadic. Maybe even every time I see one for her.
So, the first one she did was "I look Christian".

I have been addressed with this before as well. To be honest a few weeks ago one of the guys at work asked me if I was a Christian. I answered no, he then asked me if I was married. Again my answer was no, but then I asked why? He then said "Oh, you look and act like a Christian."

I was once again shocked that just because I am not ask loud and obnoxious as most non-christian women in Antigua are.While my sister said she was a non-practicing Pentecostal, I am more on the verge of full on Atheist. I must say that there are a few things that I cant answer as an atheist (like ghost and the power of prayer) but I must say Science and Logic has and can cancel out alot of crap that we are fed.

So I might lose some friends or people might look at me a different way but I am one of the farthest things from Christian. Shoot, the only reason I haven't acted out what runs through my mind is because of my family reputation as a M**** and my personal reputation that I would live with for the rest of my life.

So, please and thank you, stop asking and assuming that I am Christian or Married. I am just a morally adjusted person. And dont label me either cause that wont help either.

Nuvo Lime Sorbet!!!

2011-12-04T15:16:00.001-08:00

OMG!!!

Now that I have found how to get Nuvo in Antigua (a few places have them for around $30-46US), they bring out a new one.

How the hell am I gonna get this one? FUCK ME!!! This is the new Lemon Sorbet (as stated right there ^)
How did I find out about this new one? Because of this beautiful masterpiece of a video from Wale!!And when I saw it I was like :| wtf is that?????!!! and why is it not on my taste buds right now!!!??????

If Anyone has tried it please tell me and if you can send me one post me a comment with your email address so that I can give you my postal address.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Chelsea Settles

2011-11-23T21:37:00.001-08:00

Ok now this is a general thank you to that gal who had went on youtube dissing the show Chelsea Settles.

Now watching that show I actually feel like I am connected to someone in the world when it comes to weight and also mental blocks against things. Every episode makes me wanna go out and do something with my life. I know that here in the Caribbean you are somewhat restricted in some way or another. So I would not be able to achieve as much as she has but that mental blocks are things I need to take a sledge hammer and bulldozer to and flatten them.

I will see if I can find the video that the chick had dissed Chelsea and give you a formal introduction to Chelsea Settles. :D

Well I getting sleepy now and I suppose I will go on to bed now.

Oh and I have gotten back into my heavy metal rock and alt. rock. I never realized how much that makes me feel when I want to blank out the entire world.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Tranquility Bay Hotel

2011-11-22T07:43:00.001-08:00

This Friday I went to a hotel which seems to be a branch off of a well known resort. I had applied to this hotel for a job but never heard any response from there. But I realised why this Friday. The name of this hotel is Tranquility Bay Hotel. It is a branch off of the Jolly Beach Resort (well I think it is since you have to go through the Jolly Beach Security to reach this hotel.

It was me and like 10 other people. When we reached the front desk I notice that the structure of the building is actually a shipping container.

I love that since I had seen a hotel with homes which were shipping containers. However I took points off that the front desk agent didnt inform us where our room was. There was four or five building each of which had different names and so forth. So two of my friends went to find the room while we finished checking in.

When you reach the building that you are in the doors are heavy ass entrance doors with the card locks which I loved sooo much because the hotel I work at has the key locks and they piss me off as hell since right now I am training in Housekeeping and we need a whole bunch of keys for the different rooms/blocks.

When I walked in th room I was highly disappointed because the living room was very tacky. I have always had a problem with floral print on furniture (sofas, chairs, beds, shit even walls). Even though they didnt have florals this is what they had instead.

The saving grace about the room was the fact that the sofa was a flip out sofa bed and I loved that about the sofa. Kinda like this:

The Kitchen was great and very updated. I loved it. ( You can go on the website to see the kitchen). It was a fully stocked kitchen with all the glasses and utensils dishes and even pots and pans.

But when I walked around the entire two bedroom suite I noticed the little things that the hotel I work at was missing. Like the folders that tell you everything about the hotel and their policies. Then I went into the bathroom and they were missing soaps and wash cloths. One of the bathrooms had the toilet paper on the other side of the room, so you had to reach across while on the toilet to get to the tp.

The hotel on a whole was really good and I would still like to work there.

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Mayeshah!!!

P.S.

I would love to get a sofa like that in my living room or if I have a Suite have that as a bed. :D

Remember Remember the 5th of Novembet

2011-11-05T14:09:00.000-07:00

After seeing this I had gotten a great interest in Guy Fawkes and the Gunpowder Treason. Well I hope this is of great entertainment and information to you.The BBC version of the Gunpowder PlotOXXOMayeshah!!!

Ricky Gervais

2011-11-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

I know I am going to get a lot of debate on this and people will not see me in the same light.However I find that Ricky is pretty right in his transfer from Christianity to Atheist. Hope his views are as interesting to you as it was to me.Then there was Steve Harvey who mentions that religion is basically a moral barometer for everyone. However in this video who gives explanations to what Steve said.OXXOMayeshah!!!

SURVIVING HALLOWEEN - Kingsley

2011-11-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

Kingsley is here to help us survive Halloween. Well I know this might be late but Halloween was just a few hrs ago so it could still be helpful.

Hope you survived!!

OXXO

Mayeshah

Joe Rogan - Drugs and Responsibility

2011-10-28T17:22:00.000-07:00

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Mayeshah!!!!

Extra Butter, Please - Halloween Special

2011-10-27T17:27:00.000-07:00

This was just too hilarious!!!! I loved the first one though. It was sooo sweet!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Larry King interview by Asathecomic

2011-10-22T20:05:00.000-07:00

I have always had much respect for Larry King and this is such an eye opening view of him. I especially loved the story about the cop. If I was in the right place when he spoke about it I would have cried.OXXOMayeshah!!!

2011-10-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

I need to watch this movie. Not only was this guy epic cool in Fraiser (the few episodes I have seen) But in this he is just like WOW!!!!
Now just to find it. :(
However with these movise here I would like to watch on HBO or something they seem nice and warm.This I would watch because it gots in Milla Jovovich (known from 5th element, Resident evil and Perfect Getaway)BEAUTIFUL CAST!!! MUST WATCH THIS!!!OXXOMayeshah!!!

How to drink Absinthe

2011-10-12T18:58:00.001-07:00

Ok I have always been a fan of Absinthe but I never really drank it. But A friend of mine said that she had tasted it and had to spit it out. However she didnt do it the right way, she did it as a shot!!!! OOHHH NOOOO!!!!!! Well here is the true way to do it!!! So nxt time (hopefully I am there to coordinate that they do this right) we will do this the right way!!! Hope it is of some great use to you!

The traditional method for drinking absinthe is to mix it with water and sugar. How much you mix in of each is up to the drinker and how they want it to taste. This article will go over several of the common methods and how to mix it in a traditional way.
Order Absinthe OnlineMeasuring out the Absinthe

First get together everything you need. You will need a glass, water, sugar, a spoon, absinthe, and something to measure it all out with. To the left is a picture of a traditional reservour and absinthe spoon.

Next Measure out one to two ounces of absinthe into your glass. The usual ratio of absinthe to water is 1:3 or 1:5. For a traditional glass 2oz at 1:3 will give an 8oz drink and fill most of the glass. If you would like to make it a little weaker you can put in only 1oz for a 6oz drink after adding 5oz of water.

Adding Sugar
If the kiss of the green fairy is too bitter for your tastes you can add sugar. The traditional way is to place an absinthe spoon over the glass and slowly drip cold water through the sugar cube to disolve it into the absinthe.

Burning Absinthe

Burning Absinthe is not traditional, but it will easily amaze your friends. To do it drip some absinthe onto the sugar cube and light it on fire. Hold it over the glass and let the carmalized sugar drip down into the absinthe in the glass.
The Easy Way
If you don't have an absinthe spoon, sugar cubes, or an absinthe glass you can just use granulated sugar, mix it in any suitable glass like a normal drink, and save yourself some time. The green fairy may show up in sweat pants and a janky t-shirt, but its all good.

Time to party like its 1899!
Now just mix it all together with your spoon and your absinthe is ready to drink. Absinthe is best in moderation. The wormwood and thujone effects are strong, but if you drink too much it will be similiar to just drinking too much alcohol since absinthe is usually a very high proof. For that reason its effects will be more noticable if you have not already been drinking when you bust out the absinthe.

Source

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Mayeshah!!!

3 Techniques to Rewrite Your Memory

2011-10-12T17:46:00.000-07:00

6 Laws You've Broken Without Even Realizing It

2011-10-05T15:43:00.000-07:00

Here’s a funny (yet informative) article I ran across this morning on cracked.com, so of course I had to share it with all of you!
None of us can claim with a straight face that we’ve never done anything illegal, be it speeding, drunkenly stealing a shrink-wrapped pickle from a bowling alley or hunting the homeless for sport. But on the whole, we’re upstanding citizens. After all, it’s not like we’re out there breaking the law on a daily basis.
Wanna bet? Because all of the stuff below is illegal in most of, if not all of, the United States. If you live outside the U.S., you need to double check to see if you can get jail time for …

#6. Connecting to Unsecure Wi-Fi Networks

Due to the current popularity of tiny computers and man’s relentless desire to watch nudity absolutely everywhere, Wi-Fi hotspot usage is on the rise. Unfortunately, with that comes the problem of people, knowingly or not, connecting to unsecure wireless networks without permission. It’s not like hacking the freaking Pentagon here — if you’re in public, your computer will automatically look for a signal and, if there’s no security (such as a password) to get online, you can connect to it in seconds. Say you’re on a park bench a block away from Starbucks, but their signal juuust reaches you. So, you log in and check your email.

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And by “email” we mean “hardcore dwarf BDSM porn.”

Hell, if they left it unsecured, they probably WANT people to use it, right? And even if not, it’s not like it can get you thrown in prison.
Oh wait … it totally can.

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“I told you, all but one of those dwarfs consented!”

What Did I Do?!
Say hello to the Computer Fraud and Abuse Act, which makes it a crime to gain “unauthorized access” to a computer or a website. What does “unauthorized access” actually mean? Nobody knows. But the law says it applies to wireless routers. Luckily, law enforcement has lately become more lenient in enforcing “Wi-Fi squatting” in relation to the CFAA. So they probably won’t bust you for the federal crime of stealing wireless Internet (even though they totally could, if they some day feel like it), but it doesn’t matter, because that’s where your state’s laws kick in.

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“Castle Doctrine applies to your home Wi-Fi network, right?”

Almost every state out there has regulations against unlawful access to computers and networks – a third-degree felony that carries with it a prison sentence of at least two years and up to 10 grand in fines. Yes, arrests for stealing Wi-Fi are rare because it’s difficult to catch someone in the act. But don’t go thinking that your Internet habits definitely won’t get you shanked in the prison courtyard someday. We know of at least four cases, from Florida, Illinois, Michigan and Alaska, where people were arrested for using someone else’s wireless Internet.
While ultimately none of them were charged with a felony, one man got slapped with a $400 fine and 40 hours of community service for using the unauthorized Wi-Fi connection … to check his email.

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One of these men is guilty of rape. The other was caught playing WoW behind an Arby’s.

#5. Singing “Happy Birthday to You” in Public

If you ever had a birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese’s, you probably have endless fond memories: the cardboard pizza, the shitty, half-broken arcade games and soda served in the tiniest paper thimbles ever created. OK, maybe it kind of sucked in retrospect. But it could have been worse. For example, your parents could get a subpoena to appear in court for being part of a public performance of “Happy Birthday to You,” which as it turns out is totally illegal.
What Did I Do?!
It’s copyrighted. Usually that would only affect people who are singing it while attempting to make a profit (the lady your dad hired to jump out of your birthday cake, for instance). However, the American Society of Composers, Authors and Publishers (ASCAP) requested that the Girl Scouts pay royalties for “Happy Birthday to You,” and other songs they’d been singing around the campfire without a single stripper, or paying customer in attendance.

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There must be SOME way to get at all that sweet cookie money.

Presumably thinking that this was a prank by the girls from the camp across the lake, the Girl Scouts consulted an attorney who found that the law applied to any “public performance.” Going by the strict letter of the law, you have to pay anytime you sing the song “where a substantial number of persons outside of a normal circle of a family and its social acquaintances is gathered.”

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“Sound familiar, shit bird?”

The first version of the popular birthday song, titled “Good Morning to All,” was composed way back in 1868 by sisters Mildred and Patty Hill, before the Summy Company copyrighted it in 1935, together with the now-famous lyrics. Today, that copyright belongs to Time Warner, meaning that any restaurant or movie that wants to use the song where everyone can hear it must pay the company royalties.

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Artists have a right to be compensated. Or, if they’re dead and have no descendants,

a faceless corporation has the right to profit from their work.

You can still sing it legally in the privacy of your own home, and you will probably get away with singing it out in the open, provided that you’re not on a reality TV show. Of course, if you’re anything like most small business owners, you’ll just pay up because you don’t want to face Time Warner in court. Enough of them pay royalties that the song garners a cool $2 million dollars a year in royalties.
Or if you want to be extra safe, you can do what many restaurant chains do and just invent your own special version of the lyrics, assuming you don’t mind looking and sounding like a stupid asshole.

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“Today you left your mom’s vagina, now why not visit South Carolina?”

As you may imagine, the PR shitstorm that followed the girl scouts fiasco caused ASCAP to back away and deny they were serious about that whole paying royalties thing. And a private birthday party getting ratted out is probably much less likely than a giant organization like the Girl Scouts. Of course, that cuts both ways, since in the case of the Girl Scouts it was public shame, not the law, that stopped any legal action. Don’t count on it to save you.

#4. Using Fake Names on the Internet

Here’s an easy one. Everyone uses fake names online, be it on Facebook, Xbox Live or Gustav’s Pornography Dungeon. And really, why should you give out your real identity to some random site when typing “Michael J Cocks” in the name field is both faster and more secure?

Maybe because using fake names on the Internet can get you arrested and charged with the federal crime of hacking?
What Did I Do?!
Oh, hey, look at that. It’s the Computer Fraud and Abuse Act again, with its vague wording that you’ve probably violated over and over again in the last 24 hours.

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“Sorry, sir, but your DC Universe Online handle technically counts as a false identity.”

Due to the that line that makes any “unauthorized access” illegal, it can be anything from illegally accessing the White House’s website and exploding the president’s toilet (computers can do that, right?) to using a false name during an online registration process. After all, in both cases you’re gaining access to a computer in a way that its owner didn’t authorize, which constitutes “hacking” and is, according to the letter of the law, punishable with five to 20 years in prison.
In 2010, Matthew Lacroix, a Rhode Island prison guard, was arrested for creating a fake profile of his boss on Facebook. Now, to be clear, it wasn’t to proclaim his boss’ love for Stargate fan fiction or to commit some kind of fraud. The profile just … existed, so in the end, Lacroix was convicted simply of using “fraudulent information” (i.e. a fake name) and had to pay $500 to the Victims Indemnity Fund. A similar thing happened with Lori Drew, a 50-year-old woman who harassed a teenage girl over Myspace until she committed suicide (OK, maybe not THAT similar). It was back when cyber-bullying laws weren’t in full effect, so Drew was charged with a misdemeanor under the CFAA regulations for creating a fake Myspace profile.

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If you change your legal name to Bonertron69, they’ve got nothing on you.

The only reason Lacroix and Drew never faced felony charges was because they didn’t know it was illegal to put fake personal information on the Internet. Though we have to say, we can’t remember “I didn’t know it was illegal!” exempting us from any other crimes. That’s actually going to come in pretty damned useful.

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“It’s alright, officer! I just don’t understand your local laws.”

3. Betting With Friends

So, you’re drinking away at the local bar, trying not to think about how your significant other shouted “Ray Romano” during sex last week, when you notice the game playing on the TV. Turning to your buddy, you bet him that the defending team will definitely make the next basket. They don’t. You bet again and again, upping the ante each time. At the end of the night, you’ve bet and lost more than $2,000.
Angry at yourself, you get up to leave, when suddenly a SWAT team storms the place, pushes you to the ground and cuffs you.

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“Is this about the dead hookers? It is, isn’t it?”

What Did I Do?!
You see, all those bets you made violated the Illegal Gambling Act of 1970. According to the IGA, any betting that goes against state or local law, involves five or more people and has a revenue of at least $2,000 in one day constitutes an illegal gambling operation, punishable by up to 10 years in prison.

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By comparison, punching your wife warrants about a tenth of the jail time.

And that SWAT team/bar wager scenario we described above? That really happened. The guy’s name was Sal Culosi, and in 2005 he was overheard in a bar by a Virginia cop betting with his friends on college football to the tune of like $50. The cop befriended Culosi, and over the course of a couple of months led him to raise the stakes until one day Culosi crossed the magical border of $2,000.
A SWAT team arrived at his doorstep to arrest him and shot him through the heart.

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It turns out gambling really does cause violence. Police violence, but still.

#2. Writing “Disturbing” Material

Are you an aspiring writer age 16 to 24? If so, how is your zombie story coming along? Seriously, even if you’re not really into stuff like that, there must be some piece of “dark” writing you left behind somewhere, like a blog or a LiveJournal or a Facebook posting about some weird vampire Nazi dream you had or some moody lyrics you wrote back when you had a beard and a single pair of jeans.
Well, you better hope that no one finds what you’ve written “disturbing,” because your goth phase might be breaking the law.

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Honestly? We’re OK with this one.

What Did I Do?!
Some state laws actually make it illegal to write about things that can freak other people out. Illinois, for example, has regulations against “disorderly conduct,” which usually means stuff like prank calling 911, but can also apply to writing “disturbing fiction.”
No, it doesn’t even matter whether you make it public or not. If someone reads something you wrote and finds it reprehensibly soul-poisoning, you may face 30 days of jail time and a $1,500 fine.

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And yet, Stephenie Meyer walks free.

In Kentucky, writing about a fictional military attack can result in a second-degree FELONY charge of making terrorist threats. And in Oklahoma, a completely made-up story wherein a person gets injured or killed can get you arrested for planning to cause serious bodily harm, the maximum penalty for which is 10 years in prison.
In 2007, a Chicago high school student named Allen Lee was arrested for disorderly conduct over a class writing assignment involving stream of consciousness where the students were supposed to write whatever came to their minds. Instead of page after page filled with “boobs” and “weed,” Lee ended up with an unsurprisingly nonsensical jumble of words and phrases, including “Super Mario,” “ballet” and four instances of “stab.” After reading his assignment, Lee’s teacher turned it in to the school officials, who collectively decided that they must expel the straight-A student and have him arrested. You know, before he goes on a writing spree.

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“Call the police, we have a Code Kafka! Repeat, CODE KAFKA!”

Oklahoma high school student Brian Robertson found himself in an even more baffling situation in 2001, when he discovered an evacuation manual on the school computer and used it as a basis to write a story about a commando attack on his school. When his teacher discovered the story, Robertson was immediately suspended and arrested under the Oklahoma statute preventing “planning acts of violence.” Though in the end the case was thrown out, Robertson missed a year of school and was fired from his job, which you may notice leaves him with both the knowledge and the motive to carry out his fictitious assault.

#1. Owning a Permanent Marker

Let’s say you’re relaxing in the park one day when the cops come up and ask to talk to you. Apparently there was a string of muggings in the area and they’d like to search your bag. You agree because you’ve done no wrong and have nothing to hide, but also because they’re cops and they have guns. Inside your bag, they find all the usual stuff: textbooks, pens, permanent markers, a mini flamethrower, the drug salvia and the insanely explosive compound tannerite. You know, nothing illegal.
Pleased with your law-abidingness, you reach to get your bag back when suddenly the cops grab you by the arm and haul you off to jail.

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What Did I Do?!
Actually, it was about the permanent markers. According to basically every anti-graffiti state law out there, it is illegal simply to possess “broad-tipped indelible markers” or “aerosol cans” in a public place, because they can be used to commit acts of vandalism. You can find such regulations all over the United States, from Florida to New York to California, which also make it a crime to buy permanent markers for anyone under 18. California, remember, is a state where it is legal to buy weed if you have a doctor’s note.
On the one hand, it’s kind of understandable, seeing as in California alone the removal of graffiti costs millions of dollars each year. On the other hand, it also means you theoretically can spend up to a year in prison for holding outdoor arts and crafts classes for homeless orphans, and it technically makes any art school guilty of possessing contraband.

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“Screw busting grow houses. Art class is where the real money is.”

But That Will Never Happen to Me, Right?
Since a 2007 felony arrest for tagging, a reformed ex-graffiti artist from California, Cristian Gheorghiu, was arrested a number of times for breaking parole because the authorities kept finding “vandalism tools” in his apartment. There were stickers, posters, a computer and markers, which, according to the sheriff’s office, clearly pointed to Gheorghiu’s revived criminal activity, and not the fact that he’s making a living nowadays selling legitimate art.

The Art of Smear
Put it on a canvas, and suddenly it’s no longer offensive garbage.

Right now, these parole violations (aka “owning stuff”) can make it illegal for Gheorghiu to possess even a ballpoint pen. But OK, the guy was on parole, so as long as you don’t get arrested for vandalism or graffiti, carrying markers shouldn’t be a problem, right?
Not exactly. Just take a look at the case of the 13-year-old from Oklahoma who was taken into custody by the police for allegedly writing on his desk, which violated an Oklahoma City ordinance against the possession of permanent markers.

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Hope the jail time is worth it, clowndick.

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Mayeshah!!!

Decor and building

2011-10-02T06:47:00.000-07:00

I love the wooden wall that is ohh so nice and I would like to use it just like that going up a stairwell.

I kinda like having the wooden wall as the back wall behind the bed but I would move around me room soo much that it wouldnt stay behind the bedhead.

I love the exterior of this place. It reminds me of Bath but colourful. The wooden banister on upstairs balcony really turns me on. I would use that style for an apartment complex.

I like the dark coloured woods against the clean crisp white walls and bed.

All I have to say is I like.

I hate the whitness but I like the layout!!!

Source: Desire to inspire

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Mayeshah!!!

6 Laws You've Broken Without Even Realizing It!!

2011-10-02T06:07:00.000-07:00

6 Laws You've Broken Without Even Realizing It!!

Pure and utter bullshit and that is why I live in the Caribbean!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Mortal Kombat Legacy - Scorpion vs Sub Zero

2011-10-01T20:11:00.000-07:00

I love this video because you know that Scorpion was a bad ass but this made him look like someone that you could actually come across. The other MK movies make him a guy who is dead and has a snake or long ass worm like creature all up in his hand. But this was bad ass!!!
I also have much respect for Sub Zero in this.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Ms. Dynamite x Amplify Dot x Lady Leshurr x Lioness

2011-09-26T18:17:00.000-07:00

I am not one to go and look for indie artists but when they are introduced to me through a friend or family or even a socialite (Ray W. Johnson, B.Scott) I would look into other stuff that they have done. The above video shows that harmonizing is some of the most epic thing ever. The song was originally done by Ms. Dynamite:Amplify Dot aka A. Dot reminds me soo much of Dizzy Rascal but female. I love this song right now:and Kano is HOOTTT!!!! GOSH!!! Lady Leshurr she is a great asss Rapper. She is a literal mix of Lil Wayne, Busta, and Chris Brown. WOW!!!! This song proves that she can do all of them to her own lyrics and they just sick!!! I love the original but this one is WAYYY BETTER!!!and last but most def not least Lioness is a great lyricist. I like her style. Check this one out not only does it sound sick but it got some dub in the back: So hope you enjoyed them as much as I did ;)OXXOMayeshah!!!

The Greatest Speech Ever Made

2011-09-15T19:09:00.000-07:00

hope this is as inspiring to you as it was to me!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

It's Your Choice to Be Miserable

2011-09-14T19:26:00.000-07:00

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Mayeshah!!

The Negativity Bias

2011-09-14T19:02:00.000-07:00

It is interesting how I can relate alot of what this guy says to my everyday life!!

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Mayeshah!!!

A lil piece of my mind!

2011-09-14T17:32:00.000-07:00

It is interesting that you could be around a dozen or more people and still feel oh soo alone. I have heard people mention it but when that is how I feel everytime I hang out that is when I begin to worry.Unless I am in a very relaxed state and my conscience is on the sidelines chilling I feel very frigid and dont know how to interact around people. (Even worst guys). I know people can sense that i am uncomfortable but I dont know how to over come. Then one of my friends asked me what happened in my past to make me react like this and I truly have no idea. I know there has been some experiences that I have forced out of my mind and do not remember them on purpose. Last night I went to an open mic poetry and I have discovered being alone you think some crazy shit. You could be surrounded by complete strangers and some acquaintances and nothing over the top jumps into mind but as soon as you are alone and have tons of time on your hands you start to think all kinda crap.Ok, I dont know where this is going or where this is gonna finish so I will end now. OXXOMayeshah!!!

The Help!!!

2011-09-12T20:52:00.000-07:00

First I must let you know I am no movie critic or anything. But I must tell you that next to "Easy A" I am going to place "The Help" on my top best movies recently seen. Emma Stone was who attracted me to this movie but when I left I was sooo proud to be a black woman today. The movie made you laugh your head off and cry (literally cry with water coming down your face). It makes you look back at what black people had to put up with in the USA just 50 years ago. It also makes you think of all the ignorant people who was living back then and to believe that a few of them still living in this world today. If there is one thing I must tell anyone who is reading this, it would be make sure you watch this movie. If you try to compare it to anything, you better put it second place to The Colour Purple. It was that good. The characters were really strong and they were introduced well. At the end of the movie all the loose ends were tied up and you didnt leave the cinema wondering WTF?However, I did say this movie made me proud to be a black woman today, but it also makes me feel sorry that there are soo many black women who either dont know what happened in the past or they just dont care. It also makes me think about what people expected when they encounter a maid. They basically want them to do what people do in Restaurants and Hotels but in a degrading manner and with very little if any please and thank you from their masters.I shall not write too much now since I am going to do some searches for some Service articles and maybe even relate it to this movie. OH and if there is one thing I can leave with you is makes sure you watch this Well ttfnOXXOMayeshah!!!

Marilyn Manson - The Beautiful People

2011-09-10T22:46:00.000-07:00

2011-09-10T22:02:00.000-07:00

I feel slightly lost.I cant say that I wanna be like this but people say that as you get older you will mature and act more like an adult. But as I do that I feel like I have lost a major part of my personality and everything. For the past two days I have went back to what makes me quite happy. MUSIC!!! not just any music but Rock, heavy metal, and the sort. They make me feel like i am not in a very bad position but now the different songs make me feel like they were written for me. Please send out positive energy to get me out of this.OXXOMayeshah!!!

Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit (Lyrics)

2011-09-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

This is a great some that I need to take to heart with my own life!!! I have a bunch of habits that I need to break!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Break the Chains

2011-09-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

I have come across many different concepts in life and I truly have no idea which one is the one that suits me best.

In the video above he is basically saying do you. Don't do what others expect of you and don't do what your fears are forcing you to do (which I find is the hardest thing not to do.

However, I have some friends who live by the concept of live to be happy. If you are not happy move on and find happiness. Which is what I have been trying to achieve for the time being.

Then the rest of the world is like buck down and learn from the bad times and reward yourself for the good times. But then if there are more bad times than good times, that is alot of information to retain.

However, I am in a slight dilemma where I am now in a position at work where I am doing something that I was trying to get away from when choosing my career. :(
The reason I have chosen the career field I am in is because I love the interaction with different people from all around the world. When I started the job as a hostess, I had that great experience and after a few months of intense training I have fit in. Now that I am in this new position I have very little interaction with guest (which is the main reason I decided not to go into Business Management), have to construct email which have to be at a level which I might not reach in the next couple of weeks, and other administrative tasks which makes me miserable and makes me wanna die. I have no issues with the idea that I will have to do those tasks while operating a hotel but I at least want to know more about the establishment before being forced to do such tasks.

I miss the guests. I have interacted with some very interesting people some of which I still keep in contact with (ok just one).

Since I started working in my career field I have never been sick and no matter how much I say I am going to call in sick I never do because I truly enjoy the interaction with the guest. Now that I am in the administrative setting I have gotten a severe cold and still trying not to call in sick due to the situation that I am still on probation and don't want to seem like I am sick because of the position I am in now.

But then there are everyone else who believes that the reason I studied hotel management was to be working in a management position. Which is partly true. The main reason was because I wanted to have the theoretical understanding about the industry and then gain the technical experience. From there I would move on and be my own boss and do what I need to do.

I want to follow what Aman is saying and don't do what others expect me to do; as well as do what my friends advise and be happy and aim for that. I believe that on the quest of happiness you will come across some humps and hurdles that is what you learn from but in the end you are happy. But I will try and suck it up (unless I have a mental breakdown and need to be administered into the psych ward) and carry out my duties to the best of my abilities.

Well I need to wake up in the next few ours so I shall try and go back to sleep and hope that I stop dreaming about having to draft up emails. Wish me luck.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

SKRILLEX - Scary Monsters And Nice Sprites

2011-08-27T20:39:00.000-07:00

SKRILLEX TILL I DIE!!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Movies that I would like to see!!

2011-08-24T20:02:00.001-07:00

Now these are some movies that I came across and wouldnt mind to watch!

Ghost Rider : Spirit of Vengence

Trespass
I would watch it if it is as good as Fear and Funny Games.

Underworld: Awakening
I am gonna watch cause I love Underworld and I wanna know where is Michael!!!!

Machine Gun Preacher
Looks good but I just wanna watch it because of Gerard Butler ^_^

Johnny English Reborn
A good comedy!!

Carnage
I wanna see this!!!

The Way
Now this looks like a feel good like Eat, Pray, Love.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

I'm Boring

2011-08-24T20:01:00.000-07:00

I do believe that I conform alot. I am trying to learn about myself as the days go on!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Romance movies

2011-08-19T22:22:00.000-07:00

I am a sucker for romance movies (aka chick flicks). I do enjoy the romantic comedies the most but I have a liking for the romantic drama. However, I have a serious case or situation where I would watch a movie and have the feeling that I can react the way the characters did in the movie!!! So if I watch Step Up, I swear I can dance.

If I watch Fast and the Furious I believe I can drive to escape the cops.

If I watch a romantic movie I will assume that there is a guy out there that will fuck up or we will be immense enemies and then we will fall in love and live happily (or try to) ever after.

So a coworker, my sis and I went to watch a couple movies!!! First we saw "Crazy, Stupid Love"

Which was really cute and funny and just all round fun!!

Then we saw "Friends with Benefits"

Another cute movie but more predictable.

Now I just wanna hang out with guys cause in these movies they make talking and hanging out with guys look soooo easy. Oh well it will wear off soon, maybe after I get some sleep.

OXXO

Maysehah!!!

Remember Zed?

2011-08-17T16:14:00.000-07:00

There is a benefit of growing up around people who are at least 8 years older than you. You learn sooo much and experience even more. One thing that I have seen thanks to my older siblings is the movies "Police Academy". One of the characters that will always be in my mind is Zed!!! Dont remember Zed?? For shame!!! Check him out here:
Well I didnt realize the movie was soo old that the guy who played Zed is actually quite on the OLDER side now. If I just saw him randomly I most def would not have recognize him. Bobcat Goldthwait, not only does he have a crazy ass stage name but he is funny as hell!!!

Well Keep it up man!!!! Rock ON!!!

Now I am tempted to watch some Police Academy!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Ann Hathaway Rapping!!!

2011-08-17T16:10:00.000-07:00

Omg When I saw this I was like .... F*** YYYYAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get it Girl let them Paparazzi know that you stronger than you look.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Just to share

2011-07-30T22:55:00.000-07:00

Tonite was a little eye opening. 3 things that had come to mind.

1. I love the smell of smoke in fabrics and so forth.

2. I am just confused on what i want.

3. I am socially inept.

1. I love the smell of smoke in fabrics because when I was younger some of the places that made me really happy (events that I would think about when creating a partonus if I was in HP) One of those places was a restaurant that my fam and I would go to. The passage to the restaurant had red suede on the walls. Inside of the restaurant itself had chinese lanterns and it had a smell of cigarette and/or cigar smoke in the fabric. Another place that smells alot like smoke was one of the hotels my mom would go to in NYC. The Stanford Hotel had this smell of cigarette and/or cigar smoke in the carpets and arm chairs. However at the hotel it wasnt as strong as it was in the restaurant. Now the sports bar I go to there were ppl smoking cigarettes and cigar and even Hooka brought me really good memories.

2. I dont know what I want. There was a guy at the same sports bar and I know I was sending out the flirtatious vibes but I kept it to a minimum and I thought what happen if he came over to me and started flirting with me and stuff. Then my instincts told me to play hard to get and even push him away. I still gotta figure out why.

3. Some friends and I went to a restaurant and I just felt so out of place. :( I didnt know what to talk about or anything and I just felt kinda like i was experiencing an out of body experience.

Well just wanted to share.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Just a self reflection

2011-07-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

So you dont have to read all of this if you dont wanna. It is just some things that just knocking around in my mind that I need to get out.
I have noticed that I havent spoken to some of my closest friends very often lately. I believe that because I havent been available or something they havent really noticed me missing. One of my girls is actually going away today and I dont even know where and for how long. :(

I always say that if this person was still here I would hang out with them more but knowing my personality I would be all contact, contact, contact and then hardly speak to you ever again. I dont wanna lose my friends but it makes me wonder if they already lost me and moved on. One of my friends who was once my neighbor she went away and now I miss her soo much but now I wonder if we would have gotten separated after awhile like me and everyone else.

I have been close to a few people in my life and they either move on with their lives or we drift apart and lose contact with each other. Then I see a group of people that I know I would enjoy hanging out with

(Not these ppl of course) But they have so much fun together and they have so much experiences to look back on and talk about and when ever they go out they stick together and make sure everyone is safe.

The only time I feel like that is when I am with my sister and my brother. They are the only friends that I have that havent eventually drifted away. (cause they related to me hahahahahah)

I think I do push people away after a while so after I push them away. :(

I know I do that with guys. Even if I am interested I keep a dozen yard sticks (aka 36 feet) between me and them emotionally. Now i am wondering why I am still single and then i noticed that it is because I am always pushing people away. Maybe I should give someone a chance to ... pamper me and keep me company.

I also noticed if I give anyone a chance if there is even one little thing that irritates me about them I will cut them off in my mind from any form of relationship potential. I am not saying that I have a checklist that I rate guys by but all I want is a guy I can talk to without ever feeling uncomfortable. Then I must be able to look at them on a regular basis and you must smell good (even when you sweat)

See that isnt bad. Then again my fears do control my actions. Ok I gonna finish rambling because this make no sense to me much less you guys who chose to read this.

I need a shrink. Is there anyone out there that could be my shrink for free??? send me a message!!!

Ok I am done for now :(

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Next week in time!

2011-07-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

I cant wait till next week. Omg. I am gonna be doing a little bit of what I have wanted to do for the past 6 months. Hope I can do my best and impress so that they can fully incorporate me into that position.

A cool movie trailer to celebrate:

Cool Vids and even cooler songs!! (Load all then play them one after another!! Enjoy)

2011-07-21T20:06:00.000-07:00

I want to experience this partying before I die!!

This is a feel good vid and song:

I think Katy was trying to hide the fact that Rebecca Blackocalypse's Friday song was soo bad by bringing this out and having her in it!!! Plus sooo many Cameos!!! I love it!!!

I have much respect and give props to Selena (not for Beiber but because of this)

Where was I when this came out??

just a feel good and inspirational song

How I felt this morning!!!

All I can say is I like!!

LOve

I cant hate kinda cool but has an undertune that was pissing me off. Made me feel like i was listening to 2 songs at the same time

FUCK YEA LMFAO

Just the name of this joint makes me have to share it!!

All I can say is hell yea

The song got my vote

It grows on you. I take that back - she grows on you/

Danceeeee!!!!

good vid!

hell yea!! rockin vid!!

i end with Britney because she does really good dance songs now. My hate for her has gone away!! Work it girl!!

The Finale (slight spoiler)

2011-07-20T19:35:00.000-07:00

So, just now I saw the final movie for the Harry Potter Sequel. It is gut wrenching that all of them are finally done. Now, I have been following them from the very first book till the very last movie and now I feel that I have been through alot with the characters, Harry, Hermoine, and Ron. I have grown with them. I have watched them battle, love, and even fight amongst themselves. Now in the End. Everything. Is Done.

About the Movie, it was satisfactory (except for them changing how Snape died). It tied up all lose ends and kept you entertained from the beginning till the end. However, the only irritating thing was people going to watch HP7 without watching HP1,HP2,HP3,HP4,HP5,HP6 or even the HP7 part 1. SO every now and then you would here someone mention something that a true HP fan would know (like what is the sorting hat, and what is Avada Kadavra (aka the killing curse)). However, the good thing about the cinema I went to tonight is right in the middle of town. So some people would just go and watch the movie and be very loud and talking crap. So this one guy, obviously never saw any of the HP movies and was talking during the whole movie and making everyone laugh. Near the end of the movie he received a call and started talking just as loud saying "sweety, I am on my way home right now. I am alone right now." and so on and so forth. He was loud enough to be heard by the entire cinema but low enough that you can zone him out if you wanted to.

Well I will enjoy the rest of my night and be happy that I saw the finale of one of the best sequels of my time. (and no Twilight was not one of them.)

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Iyanla Vanzant

2011-07-15T21:24:00.001-07:00

Not only is her messages inspiring and not dripping with religion or God this and Jesus that (I am not sure if she is religious). The first one I heard was basically something half of the world needs to listen to and understand.

Then some more that made me think about myself deeply. Enjoy!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Depressed or just not interested

2011-07-12T20:41:00.000-07:00

This summer I feel is going to be really bad for me because I am not interested in Anything. I wanna go out and so on but i not interesting in going. fml. I cant tell whether I am depressed or just not interested. I kinda wanna go back to the US so that I can get out of this island funk. Well I gone sleep while the rain passes over.

OXXO

Mayeshah

I love Pink

2011-07-08T23:13:00.000-07:00

I have always had a weakness for P!nk's music but the main time that I fell in love with P!nk was in 2000 when she brought out her first album and she had a few rapping songs. Like these:

There You Go

You Make Me Sick

Then this was just oh sooo good!!! I think I would love to make this my anthem when it comes to some of those Nuccas out there.
Most Girls

In 2000 she was portraying sexy, tuff, and innocence. In one she looks soo adorbs and you just cant help but love her. Then the next one she looks all sexified and so on. Then in another she would look like she will kick your ass in the hood.

I find that some of her first songs remind me of stuff that Eve, Lil Kim, or En Vogue would bring out!!!

I always say that the 90s had some great ass music but so did the early 2000s.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

2011-07-05T08:00:00.000-07:00

I have always wondered why dont I live like those people in those movies. I watched "Letters to Juiliet" yesterday and I was wondering why dont I have life like that. Then I was thinking maybe it is because I am not in Italy or one of them European countries. But then I was talking to 2 of my friends from Turkey and they were telling me about their quest to happiness.

That is when it dawned on me that we on the Western hemisphere dont aim to be happy. We work work work and dont enjoy life. Italians eat and enjoy good company. French enjoy ........ themselves. ( I really dont know what the french enjoy). But everyone there aim for happiness however we hate everything and critisize everything.

Now I am watching Eat, Pray, Love and I just love love love what they are portraying. The quest for love, happiness and self understanding.

Even though the love and self understanding will take some time, most definitely going to aim for Grand Happiness.

Even if that means going to the beach everyday and eat what I want when I want and exercise just to make my body happy I will try it and see how happy I can get with such simple changes.

Body image

2011-07-02T22:17:00.000-07:00

Today I decided I wanted to see what I really looked like. So I took off my clothes and was wearing only my underwear and looked at myself in the mirror. I have noticed that I kinda like my body. I have a small top compared to some ppl in the world.

I admit I wish I had bigger breasts

But then I probably wouldnt be good as a coca cola bottle.

Now I never really had a problem with my bum except the fact that instead of having the dimples above my bum it is smack dab on my bum. But it is unique, since I never noticed ppl have that! But I do have a bum to be proud of!

However for most of my life I have had a hatred towards my body and I am trying to break that. My thighs are huge and I never really fancied that however at a certain weight they look really good. My stomach basically varies, sometimes it is flat and sexy and other times they are on the bigger side.

SO I am on a quest to self love! I and still learning about myself on the inside and I need to stop believing that I would be happier as a petite slim chick.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Female pick up line

2011-07-02T22:06:00.000-07:00

I was going through a blog "A Girl Looking at Porn" and I came across this post and it is crazy the amount of times I have used this line:

“Oh my gosh, you look so familiar, do I know you from somewhere?”

My Favorite Lady Pick-Up Lines (001)
“Oh my gosh, you look so familiar, do I know you from somewhere?”
You slick ass bitch, you know you don’t know him. Unless familiar means fine as hell, you can’t recognize that face from a mugshot. I am a fan of this line, however. Although to a bitch like me it’s not very casual, I feel like a lot of guys enjoy this line, ‘cause it doesn’t feel like a line. It doesn’t take too many “lines” to get a guy’s attention, but if he looks at you and agrees you look familiar, he* might have caught on and he’s offering that sort of, “Yes, you can hit on me” approval. If he says no, but keeps talking to you, he’s an awesome guy, ‘cause he’s willing to be honest, even if it means killing your game, but now he’s looking for something else.
I completely encourage chicks to keep using this line, but have a follow up. Not like some, “Oh, sorry, ‘cause you look like someone from my school/church/this place/so-and-so’s friend,” but something slick, like, “Do you WANNA be familiar?” Aawww shit, ladies!

I will probably try this in the near future!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

my fill of poetry until September.

2011-06-25T22:45:00.000-07:00

Well due to the fact that this week is filled with Graduations and the such I was unable to get my Tuesday off. This Tuesday is the last Expressions: Poetry in the Pub until September. However I found someone who has satisfied my need for Poetry. This man has such lyrics (I cant call it words because only a lyricist can piece together words like this) that can make you go mad!!! I shall share a few here and the others you can view on your own.

I would love to be his Musician!! I would play him everyday!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!!

Ranting needs to be done!!

2011-06-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

I have noticed that my efforts at work tend to go unseen at times. But I guess that is how life goes. You work your ass off and get no recognition but as soon as you trip up you are scolded like you never did anything good. I would come in to work 15 minutes early to get the work done in a timely manner and I know I wouldnt get any overtime or such. But it is all about the quality of work for me. Yesterday I even went to work 30 minutes early so that I could get stuff done and I was still scolded for something that I had no control over and couldnt change. Right now I just wanna go to another place and relax.

Plus I must admit I am tired of ppl either dissing me saying i am fake or a fraud. (up till last night I was told this. Plus when ppl say shit like "yea ALL Antiguans are fake." I just wanna tell them "well I am not like all Antiguans and if you believe that all Antiguans are fake then go back to your country where everyone is 'real'. " But noo I wouldnt do that because I am not one to express my Anger. But if I do I will have to quit for real!!

My rant is done I shall share some good music now to put me back in a happy place:

Off to work now :(

OXXO

Mayeshah

The Forgotten Side of Happiness

2011-06-13T20:58:00.000-07:00

So true!!!

You Aren't Who You Think You Are

2011-06-13T20:54:00.000-07:00

Now after watching this I am going to try and train myself to be who I want to be!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Random Thought to the Universe

2011-06-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

I have been working my ass off and building up my bank account. But I have nothing much to do with the money. So I had just received a comment on my blog entry about MyHotelhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif. So recently since we are going through a hard time in the economy so I have been helping out the family where necessary. So as soon as there is a lift in the Economy I will think about a lil thing that would help me in accomplishing my main goal.

I have noticed that working in the hotel industry you can make a good buck for all of your bang (that is hard work). So maybe for my leisure I could go to another hotel in another country for a night or 2. See how they operate and some of their Standards of Procedures.

I random thought that would be cool to carry out. Get some stamps in my passport before I get too old!!! It would be cool to get your feedback. Yea!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Dubstep!!!

2011-06-09T20:10:00.000-07:00

OMG My ears were open before but now my eyes ears and mind is open.
The first time I ever heard DubStep and focused on it and only it was when a gal on tumblr that i follow, Erin, would post some links from Skrillex.

Then one of my friends who is doing some dubstep of his own introduced me to it in full!!! So I shall share them with you!!!

Now we gonna mix this with the LXDs in Step UP 3d!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Jazz

2011-05-31T09:06:00.000-07:00

I know I have a weakness for Jazz, but I always wondered why I have a love for Jazz that has scat in it. Well a few nights ago I decided I was gonna watch some cartoon movies from Disney.

So I watched Dumbo and near the end of the movie I came across this song

And I listened to it like 3 times before I watched the end of the movie. I love this movie cause it is soo old school and there is a moral behind it!! Plus it had a great happy ending (unlike Animal Farm). It had the truth about society, not accepting individuals because they are different. People being greedy, and the good hearted people that you may come across when in time of need.

But back to Jazz, I just love love love this song.

It also reminds me of this Ella Fitzgerald and her One Note Samba:

This makes me happy!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!