Canada - Here i come!!!!

Earlier this year, I received  my Canadian Visa. This is exciting and bittersweet because Antigua never needed a Visa to go to Canada. I was right next to it on numerous occasions and never went to see the beautiful country. So as soon as I heard that we need a visa that is when I really wanted to go. Then to go one would have to go to another Caribbean country to get the visa placed in their book and to be fingerprinted.

So after I got my visa I started looking for a cheap fare and a friend of mine put me on to the "Hopper" app. I then found a great deal and had to go for it. However I had to consult my sister as this is just on the cuff of the car accident which occurred in January.

So I got my ticket arranged my vacation and looking for great places to check out whilst there. Will most definitely document that trip.

Looking forward to seeing all my friends and family.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Eden Place Apartment

As I had mentioned in the previous post I have rented an apartment which I have placed on several platforms in order to get short term rentals.


The apartment is 2 bedrooms and 1 bathroom with a shower. The apartment is very spacious and airy. It is located on All Saints Road next to the Amazing Grace Foundation house. It is located on the main road however is still very peaceful and you are able to relax and get away from the hustle of the everyday life.  You can visit the page right here:

View On AirbnbEden's Place T1

As soon as you walk into the apartment you will see our Living room with a sofa and 2 arm chairs, a coffee table and a TV with Cable. Upgrades to curtains and room lay outs have been made and photos of upgrades will be shared in the near future. Right next to the living room area we have a dining space with a round glass top table where you would be able to eat and bond with your friends or family



As you turn to your left you will see the Kitchen, which has a fridge, a stove, with a few pots and pans included, along with some glassware, and utensils. Also provided are tea and coffee amenities for your early morning fix. We will soon have a microwave and toaster for when you want to reheat your food you brought back after a day exploring the island.

As you make your way toward the rooms you will come across a what not closet where you would be able to find the broom, dustpan, iron and ironing board. This closet is directly on the opposite side  of the bathroom at the other end of the hallway. As you make your way down the hallway you will see on the left our washing area. A washing machine and wash tub is located next to the second entrance and detergent is provided.




On the right of the hallway you will come across the Master Bedroom. This room is the biggest of the two rooms and has a Queen sized bed. This room also has a Television with cable. The view out of the window is of the rolling hills which are full of lush greenery. The room also has a ceiling fan and an air conditioning unit.

The second bedroom is smaller but very cozy. This room has a full sized bed and also has an air conditioning unit and a ceiling fan




Outside the second bedroom is the linen closet where you would be able to find extra sheets and towels.



At the end of the Hallway has the bathroom. The bathroom has a shower and is made extra beautiful with it's sky light in the roof. Soap, shampoo and toilet papers are provided.



When interested in enjoying the fresh air outside while drinking your beverage of choice we have outdoor furniture and you would be able to enjoy the views around your.

 

While staying on property you will be provided with a parking space which is assigned to the apartment.



Also included is complimentary Wi-Fi.  Visit this page to check out availabilities and specials which are presently being offered.

As upgrades are done I will be posting them for you to take the journey with me.

View On AirbnbEden's Place T1

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Short term rental ventures

What a year what a year. Ups, downs, across. My body has been showing signs that it is not impressed by what I have been doing.

I have been working on a little side thing though. We have a family friend who has an apartment complex on All Saints Road called Eden Place. My mom and sister had spoken to her and she mentioned that she was renting some of them short term. She however wasn't sure that she was out there enough. So when Kim and mom told me I was thinking I could put them on the different platforms for her.

Upon checking out one of the units I started to place them on the different Platforms. Airbnb, booking and Expedia. Airbnb was the first to get a few enquiries and a couple of booking. However due to an hnforunfort event I had to cancel one of them. Kim mentioned that what I can suggest is renting the apartment and sublet it short term. I brought it up to the Landlady and she agreed.

The first month, February was pretty good. Got a few bookings and I was able to cover the rent. I continued to promote on all my social medias. Facebook the most. Then adding on extra platforms such as HomeAway and FlipKey just to name a few.

However, for this month it has just been a few bookings and I am hoping that I get someone in for a few weeks before the rent is due.

My mom has also been working on fixing up her apartment complex, which has gotten very run down. One lady evacuated after being behind in rent for almost a year.

When we went in the apartment, it was Filthy!!!

Living Room Area as soon as you walk through the front door. 

 

Bedroom looking out towards kitchen. Closet on the left door for the bathroom on the right.

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Inside the bedroom next to the bathroom. The Outside wall of the bathroom is damaged

Looking at the bathroom wall and door from the kitchen area.

The bedroom wall and windows. Dirty and there is some markings on the wall where kids write up on the walls.

Entrance into the bedroom and the sheetrock for the opposite side of the bathroom. 

A bit blurry but the other wall for the bathroom.

Kitchen area, it is not visible right now but the kitchen sink is able to rise up and down.

The wall next to the kitchen counter. 

There were pictures of the bathroom but that was soo bad that I can not share those. Just think of it as the bathroom is the worst part and we will have to spend some serious money to fix it up.

So my next task is to get this organized and up on the platforms. 

May give updates on the fixer upper. 

OXXO

Mayeshah !!!

January 2019

Hello?

Is anyone there?

I know I have been very scarce.

I know I have been very sporadic. But please bear with me. So 2019 has started out with such great promise and hope. Then BAM!!!! Life changing experience, which has altered the state of my mind forever.

I don't know if I would be able to get back to where I was mentally. But I must try. I cant let one event take me from 100 to -25 one a few seconds. So far the year has been questionable.

I have to get a few things off my chest and maybe some people will read this and may not be to happy. I will be explaining a few things which has been happening for a while. My next post will be talking about some things that have happened so far in my life.

Welcome back to the Life in the mind of Me. Mayeshah!!

OXXO!!!

Mayeshah!

Season's Greetings!!!

Merry Christmas Eve to one and all. 

It is another year of crazy which is slowly leading up to the finality of this dreadful year of 2017.

I am experiencing my first Christmas at this new resort and do not feel any way that I am going to have to work on both Christmas Day and Boxing Day. As I tell people when I came into the industry I expected it. I have worked at least 2 Christmases in my entire career and I am looking forward to it. 

Pictures will be shared as soon as they are taken. 

I am a bit excited as one of the guests which I have grown close to purchased a boat. Lol. Now reading that over it sounds like some. It ass purchase. They  bought a beautiful Model Boat named "the H.M.S. Victory"

Well. I hope you are having a great holiday season!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

The wait!

So I came into the bank at around 10 minutes to 12. The receptionist was doing something and I still had to write up my deposit slip. So I wrote up my slip and noticed that the receptionist has vanished.

It is now 10 past 12 and I believe that she has gone off to lunch. There are around 5 of us at the desk and all the other tellers are watching as it builds up. However, none of them even think to come and say she went to lunch or see if they can reduce the size.

So we wait.

Then the light in the darkness comes to our rescue and takes our documents so that we can leave.

The wait is finally over.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

In Between - How i have felt growing up.

I was watching the below video by the Wong Fu Productions channel on YouTube and it resonated with me. I felt this growing up being an island girl and not feeling like I fit in because I didn't have a lot of the island experiences.

Check out the video, then I will explain a bit:



Hope it made you think as much as it make me. So whether you are one of the stereotypical version of your "label" (whether it be Antiguan, Jamaican, Dominican, Black American, White American, etc) or an "In between", this should have brought some kind of thoughts in how you interact with other people.

In Secondary School I was brought up in my mother's store and was surrounded by all types of people. Learning their cultural norms and morals. Also being the youngest of 3 and having a big 7 and 12 year gap between my siblings I have been exposed to alot more things. So when interacting with people I felt that I have been quite Americanized. People would tell me I am not from Antigua because I speak properly. People would say I dress different or a certain way but that is how I felt comfortable. People would see the kind of music I listened to and be thinking "What stupidness she listening to?" Bearing in mind that Rock (which include Alternative Rock Grunge/Punk Rock, and Heavy Metal) which surprisingly was my outlet for my confused coming of age mind.

So there were many times that I just never fit in. I remember one girl mentioning that if I was in America I would be a Goth and then mentioning that I am an Oreo (black on the outside and white on the inside). 

I figured the next course of action is to attend a University where I will be around the culture I have been compared to most, The Americans. You can kinda say that it is almost as if I studied the American Culture through TV and the few times I visited New York or Miami.

Yay!! I was accepted to attend the Johnson & Wales University. North enough to get away from most Caribbean people. This way I can florish in my learned environment. But you know how the Freshman blues go and although I met a few awesome White Americans, I never did fit in. Even worst for the Black Americans. So I hung with people who I felt comfortable with or who was around me.

But the bricks fell into place when I went on my study abroad to Leeds, England. During my orientation I met a few White American girls and even though they were nice to me and invited me out with them there was that disconnect. I figured it out when we were sitting down outside eating while on one of our Trips (either Dublin, York or Wales). They were sharing all these things that they experienced growing up and I had NO connection to any of it. No matter how much I watched TV or visited a few States occasionally, I would never get those experiences.

At that moment, I accepted that I was different. An "In Betweener" (well at the time I didn't have a term for it). 

Now being in the work world and still being quite different to many of the people I am around I don't feel this need to fit in. However, when people bring up that I am being fake, or white, or even exhibting American or British culture, it kind of hurts. But I just brush it off and move on because that is the type of person I am. 

On the other hand, if you are one who falls into the stereotype of whatever label or culture you are in, please understand the world is not black and white but a vast majority of different shades of grey. Do not judge people because they different. Do not keep pointing out what you define as weird because that is making the In Betweener feel very uncomfortable and self conscious.

Thank you for taking your time to read my rambling.  

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Does it feel cold? No it feels like Christmas.

For the past few weeks everyone asking me if I feel cold. Or saying the air has been quite chilly. I tell them "Hell no! This is the kind of weather I enjoy!!!"

The crisp air. The cool breeze. The lightness in the atmosphere. These all make me feel one thing! EXCITED!!

"Why Excited?" you ask. EXCITED because it is almost Christmas!!! Which means awesome Christmas movies, Christmas specials, Christmas music, Christmas cheer and just an overall awesome feeling!! How can you not enjoy this time of year!!

OKAY, okay... The past few years the Christmas feeling was not here but that was because it was still HOT!! Yes we in the Caribbean but shit that Crispy breeze makes me feel all cheerful and joyous!!

It's Christmas baby and nothing 2017 can do to take this great feeling away from me!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Mobile Blogging.

My blog has been quite dormant. The last post I did was all the way in May and I feel so sad about this. So I figured since my laptop is giving me so much issues to type I will find another way to share my thoughts.

So I downloaded the Blogger App. So far I am enjoying it. Maybe I will add some of my Instagram posts on here such as my 25 days to self love.

We will see how this works. Not gonna make any promises but I do see a promising revitalization of my blog now that I am back in a healthy mind frame.

An update of what I have been up to will soon come.

XXOO

Mayeshah!!!

Blog? Blog? Oh yea I have a blog.

My gosh. It has been over a year since my last blog post. This is crazy. Well between the stress and the games and the youtube and the Netflix, it got swallowed up. Then between the hanging out and the beach it got thrown out.

I will not make any dedication post to say I am going to be posting everyday for the rest of the year. However I will say that I will make an effort to post a lil more frequently. I have encountered a few things over the past year and months that I would not mind sharing with the blogsphere.

So don't be a stranger and I wont either.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Should I Believe In God?

This is a question which I have asked myself a few times in my life. It seems when going into this you should always explain your journey to how you reach where you are now. So here goes:



I am born and raised in the little island of Antigua to a Jamaican mother and an Antiguan father. Both of which were raised Christian. I can remember a few times we (my sister, brother and I) would be taken to church by my dad while my mom stayed home to cook. But that kinda came to an end when I was really young as I don't remember much of that. As I grow up and start going to school, gaining knowledge of the world around me and the people I will be interacting with I have been having mixed emotions on religion. I can remember this girl I met during the summer at the plaza my mom had her store and we were hanging out all the time. Then the September I saw she was attending the same primary school as me. You would probably think it would just result in me being even closer with her; but no. At that age I had my first example of don't mix certain friends ( but let me use that as another post ^_^) . So the person I met at the plaza in the summer was not the person I met at school. This girl was overly religious and quite .... (maybe not this but from what I remember) CONCEITED. She claimed that she was a Christian and then would be the same time be going around spreading rumours and tattling on friends of mine. She grew to be one of the most disliked persons in the class and was labelled "One Day Christian".



As time progressed I met other persons who were raised in the church and probably wondering why I wasn't. I was invited to a few services and church activities by friends, however they just seem quite boring to me. I started to learn about how the Caribbean persons were brought to the Caribbean but could not comprehend that it was also one of the reasons why Christianity is the number 1 religion in the Caribbean.



I then went to Antigua Girls' High School where I met more church goers and a few which were very VERY religious. As I am not one to rock the boat I never made anyone none the wiser until they asked me what church I go to and my response would be I am christened Pentecostal. After a while it got out that I was not a church goer nor a Christian and a few of my friends would try and convert me. Once again inviting me to church and youth meetings. I guess at that point my mind shifted a little more when I remember hearing about this one girl who had  the same name as a character in the bible and she had such a bad personality, just like the character in the bible. It just seemed like a breeding ground for rumours to be spread and so on and so forth.



I have had my few attempts to read the bible but never passed Genesis. I always walked with a testament as we were required to at assembly to have our testaments to recite a scripture. I stopped doing that after I went to State College. I have a few favourite Christian songs, but I can't say that I can identify with being a Christian. I have spoken to persons who has told me how religion has helped them. Both the church as a community and the faith.



As I got older conversations happen and you learn of instances where people from the church are almost as bad as people outside the church and in a few cases worst. I have a vague overview of the different organized religions. But now have settled on why should I follow any of these organized religions? Why be Baptiste over Catholic or Pentecostal over Adventist or even Episcopalian over Anglican. Why should I chose to be Christianity over Judaism, Islam, or Hinduism.  I could go deeper. I could share more about the experiences I have had but that would turn into a book.



So just like Anna in the video below I define myself as AGNOSTIC.  This is where I settle whether the Christians don't understand my choice to be Agnostic and the Atheist refer to me being a lazy Atheist. This is who I is!!!



Now check out this vid which inspired this post.





OXXO



Mayeshah!!!

Welcome to 2016

I have been scarcer than black diamonds in the Caribbean in the year 2015. I have been saying soon I will be posting everyday and everynight. But everyday I end up frustrated and everynight I veg out in front of YouTube.

This year I make no promises but I will show lots of actions. I decided not to lie to myself for the new year of 2016. My resolution was the same as the past few years. Lose weight and become a happier person. But just saying it and then before 1/12th of the year is completed I already broke them both.

So I decided two things are what will happen this year. The first thing is I will smile more whether it is just a smile to hide my frustration or a full out laugh.



The second thing is I will be consistent. Yes there are days when you just can't do that one thing you have to do but when you give up is when you fail at it . SOOOO the goal is to never give up. A Youtuber that I am subscribed to has an acronym for this and live by it everyday.



It is a motto to live by to get far. If you have Faith in yourself and your abilities and in some cases a higher power that make you believe it will happen. Consistency is the defining factor as you can have faith in it but when hard times hit you give up all together. Hard Work is the underdog but without it Faith and Consistency is just a dream that has not been started.

As the year has started so far my friends allow me to laugh and my work allows me to smile to hide my frustrations. The consistency is all in my actions. As long as I keep moving forward that is all that matters.

With this new year I will prove my consistency on my blog and keep you up to date on what is going on in this crazy head of mine.

Gonna go and get some food in my system.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!



Pic Sources: Cheshire Cat and FCHW

[Official Video] BIGBANG - 뱅뱅뱅 (Bang Bang Bang) Dance Cover by YG Lovers...

One of the channel's I follow on YouTube had learned the dance to this and I had to check out the official video. This is quite boss. And the song was very catchy. I also love to watch people dancing cause it is something I used to do when I was younger.



Hope you enjoy it like I did!!!!







OXXO



Mayeshah!!!

Drafted Revived - HHR Diaries - Certified Sick: Part 1

So I had this in my draft for quite a while and although I am no longer in HR will try and share some of my findings. Enjoy!

Ladies and Gentlemen, 

Please understand that dealing with staff is not easy. For the Head of Department (HoD) they have to do their scheduling and making sure that their department runs smooth. However illnesses do happen. In a department of 30 persons you may have 1 person sick for an entire week or 2 and a few persons who call in sick the day they are scheduled to work. All of these do put a tight strain on the HoD. 

As a business you never budget for when people call in sick. So when you receive that dreaded form called the "Certified Sick Form" you know that something is going to go down. In some cases you know what is going on with the staff whether it is surgery or contagious illness. In other cases you know you saw the staff skipping around one day and then the next day they send in the form like they suddenly caught the plague. 

Now it seems like the "Certified Sick Form" (CSF) has a lot of red tape when it is ready and lots of loopholes when convenient. My tip is to make friends with a person from the Social Security to assist you when you have any questions or concerns. I will call my girl Cris.

This CSF can be easily accessible to staff if they go for a "doctor's examination" and they advise the doctor that they are ill and don't believe that they are suitable to work. The doctor would fill out the CSF and get paid their consultants fee (normally EC$150) and get paid for this time that they do not have to work. 



A few loopholes I have encountered:

• Staff are allowed to get 12 sick days in a year which fall under the CSF. This will allow the staff to get paid the full day's pay during their sick leave plus 60% from the Social Security. 
• If staff are working days short weeks and send in a CSF they will be paid for the full 40 hour work week.
• On the form it states that the CSF must be sent in within 21 days of the beginning of the sickness. This is just to encourage the Employers to send in the form as soon as possible.
• For Temporary Staff they are not entitle regular 12 sick days unless they send in this CSF. 
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A few red tapes I found quite safe for the employer:

• Staff are allowed to get ONLY 12 sick days in a year. The CSF days come out of these 12 sick days. This results in after the 12 days are up, 40% will be paid by the company plus 60% from the Social Security. 
• While on sick leave under the CSF the employee is not allowed to leave the country unless the doctor recommends that they person needs to travel for foreign consultations. A copy of the recommendation letter must be sent to the company.
• The employee must be contributing to the Social Security Scheme for a minimum of 6 months before they are eligible to get their 60% from the Scheme.
• If the employee was out on leave of absence (or just did not work) before the CSF was sent in they will not receive any benefits from the scheme. 

I hope this is not too much info on the joys of this special piece of paper. The CSF is an employer's worst dream (not nightmare because worst things can happen). I will explain a little bit more in Part 2 and a few of my experiences with the CSF.

XX

Mayeshah!!!

Hospitality Human Resources Diaries - Introduction

Welcome one and all to the Hospitality Human Resources Diaries (aka HHR Diaries)

Working in the hospitality industry gives me such an interesting high that I just cant fathom leaving it behind. As well as the 4 year education and the hella huge ass loan I got reminding me why I am there. 

I enjoy making people feel happy, solving their issues, and just meeting new people and sharing experiences with them. I worked in the Food & Beverage Department for three (3) different properties, worked in Housekeeping and worked in Guest Services. These departments are some of the most Exciting departments because you always are on your toes making sure that the guest are satisfied.

I have also worked in Stores, Kitchen, Payroll and in the Executive Office. These may not have been quite direct with the guest satisfaction but it assist with making the property run smooth and efficient. I have trained a bit in the Front Office but it has never really peaked my interest to the highest due to them being .... uhh... special. 

I have been finally placed in the Human Resources Department and I have encountered some of the most interesting scenarios ever. Whether it is experiences with staff, experiences with management, or even experiences with persons not even working for the company. 

I wanna share some of the things I have experienced. I wont be stating any names, may change some departments to the best of my ability if they are quite obvious and hope to keep this as entertaining and educational as possible. 

Please note that the Human Resources Department is a highly confidential department and a lot of things cannot be shared. So just know that this is just the tip of the iceberg with regards to the experiences I encounter.

I cannot state the frequency of these entries but I will state that while things are still fresh and still urgent I may express my feelings and lessons on the matter.

So once again Welcome to HHR Diaries

XX

Mayeshah!!!

Show a little skin sometimes.

I have noticed that once you show a little more skin than usual people start to notice. I am the type of person who enjoys wearing a shirt, whether it be Tee, Polo, or a nice blouse, and a pant such as jeans or slacks. But the moment I put on shorts or a skirt people go ape shit. 

Like Saturday I decided to put on a shorts, mainly because I had no other bottoms to wear. So I had on my shorts and reached my mom's store and everyone is like "Look at legs" or "She showing off some skin today" or "She legs clean* she should wear skirts more often". Then I had parked the car and had to walk quite a distance to get back to the store and I was intercepted by a guy who said to me "You came to town to tantalize the men? You are raising my blood pressure you know." And proceeded to try and get me to go to the beach with him. 

My parents saw me during the day and they asked me if I was not going to change before I go on doing my errand. My response it was hot and I was achy after a long three hour walk I did that morning. While doing my errands one guy who I have grown accustomed to seeing and interacting with on a Saturday starts commenting on my shorts and so on.

Ok, for those who don't know what I look like I am on the thicker side. I am bottom heavy but not too big.  I have big thighs and a decent sized backside to go along with my thighs. 

Then at work yesterday I fell into the same category where I didnt have any pants to wear so I wore the only skirt I have in my wardrobe. My work skirt and I had left my shoes that I normally wear with the skirt by my parents house. So I asked my sister to wear her slippers. Then people who don't remember ever seeing me wear a skirt commented on my wearing a skirt saying that I looking out. Then others commented on the fact that I wore an open toe slippers to work. 

I believe that because while growing up I have always been a bigger child and got lots of attention from the males I decided to cover up. So that meant no more skirts or dresses or shorts. But being a "grown woman" I sometimes do enjoy a few skirts, a nice sundress, and a nice booty hugging shorts. They are good for my self esteem and makes me feel all kinda happy.

I would encourage others to try and take a step back and try doing something that you are not used to. It can be quite fun and you might get some good stories or receive interesting comments about them.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

That feeling....Alone

I remember the feeling I had during my high school ball. It was a mixture of alot of things. 

I felt joy that I was finished with High School. Happy that there were no more examinations. Not having to deal with them teachers who a good number of them did not even believe in you. Extreme joy that I did not have to wear them Blue Rags (Blue AGHS uniform dress) again.

But then it was mixed with sadness. Some of my friends were preparing to migrate to study. Some migrated to live. Some started working and I rarely saw them. Sad that I didn't have any male friends that I would have been able to bring along to the ball. Sad that my friends were either in their groups enjoying their last night as Antigua Girls' High School students or with their dates. 

I remember I would see the girls looking gorgeous and taking pictures of each other and having people take group pictures of them and close friends. I had then gotten overwhelmed with the feeling of being ALONE. 

Even though I went to the ball with my best friend in high school I still felt soo alone. I even walked the halls of the building which allowed us to hold our Grand Affair there. One of my friends saw me wandering and asked if I was OK and I lied and in my heart I just felt alone. 

That feeling I have felt so many times afterwards. Feeling alone while being out with friends, feeling alone when in a group of people, even feeling alone when alone with another person. 

I don't want to feel alone. But they say you are born alone and will die alone. However when I am in a group why must I feel like this?


I hope that feeling goes away soon. Because it is not fun.

I know there are alot of people who are feeling all alone. So I guess we can say we are Alone Together. 

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

MUSIC 2015

So  I have been listening to the latest music on YouTube. I am quite impressed by some of them but others scare the crap out of me at how bad they are!!!

The good ones transport me into all kinda mind frames that make me feel so relaxed or just happy. I see a whole bunch of new artists and some older ones still throwing out awesome beats. 

Videos that distract you from the song itself and videos that enhances the song. Some videos that takes elements from movies both efficiently and otherwise (I am talking to you Taylor Swift) 

Songs with the names of famous persons of the past, like "Johnny Cash" and "(Titans X) James Dean"

And tons tons and tons of COLLABS!! 

I am happy for what is out in 2015 so far. 

Love Jones Kinda Love

So I just finished watching Love Jones and I just have that aching for that kinda love. It is that cool artistic kinda love. Where everything is about how you feel and not about what is going on or what anyone else thinks.

Then at the end they started playing the Sweetest Thing by Lauren Hill. It reminded me of the 90s where the music was simple and the emotion was soo real. The times when Janet Jackson was telling you it Doesn't Really Matter and Usher  was crooning some sweet melodies into your ears. Makes you really believe that love is out there.

I have always wanted the kinda love like what Musiq Soulchild and Jill Scott sang about.

Just that .... Love Jones kinda Love.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge:Day - 4 A Song That Calms You Down

So we have reached Day Number 4 - A song that calms me down.





































Well I am a rock lover and I found that songs that are fun yet badass can get me singing and dancing a bit. When I had first heard my selection for this day I would listen to it on repeat. Just make me feel on top of the world even though it kinda means that on a regular basis I would get put down.

I know I am weird but I love this song and it does pic me up



I would put on my headphones and crank this up loud and just jam out to it!!!

Come back through tomorrow and check out what song I choose next. Share what song calms you down in the comments below.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge: Day 3 - A song that reminds you of one/both of your parent

HEY there again!!! Please do not think that I have forgotten about my challenge even though I just started. NOOO I haven't!!! I swear!!! However, day 2  was just a lil difficult for me to pull out of my ass.
Looking at this list:


I noticed it is making me remember something I dont have. An Ex-boyfriend. Soo I couldnt pull that one out of my ass and just cant pick a guy friend to take that position in my life.

Therefore day 2 was skipped. NOWWW GOING ON WITH DAY 3 - A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF ONE OR BOTH OF MY PARENTS.

So i have chosen Fathers by John Mayer because it will always remind me of my father. A man does not know how he affects his daughters world. This song reminds me that my dad has played a huge role on the entire family dynamic whether he wanted to or not.




So all the guys out there remember this song and for everyone this is a deep some which does remind me of my father.

Come back through tomorrow and check out what song I choose next. Share what song reminds you of a parent/both parents in the comments below.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Viktoria Modesta - Step like a Lady!

So I came across this video on Facebook and wanted to share it but facebook was acting like a royal douche on my phone. So I forgot about it all together. I then went into town and was watching how one woman was walking and she had no poise or femininity to how she walked. I automatically remembered this video and how this woman, Viktoria Modesta, could be handicapped and doesnt allow that to stop her.

She walks with grace, poise and each step is measured. You can see the strength in her legs as she moves but she still shows a level of femininity.

Check out this video.



I then had to check out some more about her and she is freaking gorgeous. Her voice is crazy nice!! I would follow her and she most definitely is inspiring.

Check this vid out:



So my aim is to learn how to step like a lady! Might have to get some nice heels to practice in!!! I do have a tendency to walk like a man at a construction site and then walking moving my hips to a beat I alone can hear



OXXO

Mayeshah!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge: Day 1 - A song from your childhood

I am here going through all my blogs subscriptions (since I have done all my YouTube subscriptions already) and I come across this lil challenge.


I am not known to be the most consistent person around but this would be a great test. I will attempt to post a song every day right here and the reason I chose this song for each of the categories above. This would also get me back into the habit of blogging. Especially since I was told that although I have a blog I dont really post anything. So I am planning on changing this.

SOOOOO..... Day ONE (1) - A song from your childhood.

SOOO MUCH MUSIC FROM THE 80S AND 90S :'(   This one is hard because there are soo many good songs from my childhood that resonates with me. However this came to mind.


My siblings, my mom and I were in Rochester NY by my mother's childhood friend and this song was playing and this is probably the day I fell madly in love with R&B. We were lying down in one of the bedrooms and watching MTV (when they used to show music videos) and this song came on. THE FUGEES - KILLINGS ME SOFTLY just the camaraderie and fun these people were having made me feel happy. This came out in 1996 when i was 8 going 9 and it is still one of my fav songs especially when she vocalizes.

Let me know what song from your childhood lets your extra happy bugs start to jump. Check back tomorrow for my next song.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Failure vs. Success

I was doing some work yesterday when a co-worker approached me and requested my signature on a document. I, of course, jokingly asked "Oh you want my autograph?" .... or at least that is how I remember it went. (Damn Short Term Memory). So I began signing and there was an area asking what is your position? Next to it had Accountant/Vote Counter/ (something else that I could care less about). I asked her what am I she advised me that I was a Vote Counter (seriously my brain really is bad cause vote counter looks weird. But it had the word Vote in it). I asked her what that was and her response someone who is able to give information about a staff member. I asked her why not an accountant? I do accounting work. She told me that an accountant is someone who has gone through and gotten certified in Accounting. 

MIND BLOWING .... but...I guess you wondering why I mentioned that whole spiel up there. Just so you know the background of how this came up. 

I told her I dont have any degrees in Accounting but I have my Bachelors in Hotel Management. The question that has dumbfounded me ever time escaped her lips. "WHY ARE YOU HERE?? WHY NOT BE AN ASSISTANT MANAGER SOMEWHERE ELSE??"

My heart kinda crushed a bit and my excuse for the past ... let me think... four years is I want experience. 

I then came across this blog post HERE and it is more of a home hitter for the real reason why I dont aim for the gold. I do have lots of fears but these are the biggest.

I noticed that some of the qualities that I think would be necessary for any kind of management position is to have a backbone, which I feel like I have not developed. The ability to say no and not have people believe that I am joking. So the fear of becoming management and then failing at my duties is heart wrenching. 

"What if I succeed?" The lil conscience voice in my brain whispers. "What if my skills are what would make me an awesome manager?" 

I am not so much afraid of success but it is still an unknown factor. Maybe I should aim for bigger and see it all as a school project. I have been dealing with a job which is a task for 2 persons but I am kinda  (ok not soo much) managing it. 

I must say this post has made me think while writing it. Thanks for sitting through my mental squabble online. 

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Pompeii lyrics- Bastille

This song. Just this song. I have been struggling with some life matters, mostly work, and this song speaks to me on so many levels. Gives me optimism that there will be a great light at the end of the tunnel of darkness I am wading through! Enjoy!









OXXO



Mayeshah!!!

FEELINGS

What the hell is this thing called feelings?


I have been struggling with this thing for the longest time (well for the new year). WikiPedia defines Feelings as 'the inner body experience.. The word was first used in the English language to describe the physical sensation of touch through either experience or perception. The word is also used to describe experiences other than the physical sensation of touch, such as "a feeling of warmth" and of sentience in general.' 

While Merriam-Webster  defines it as these:

a (1) :  the one of the basic physical senses of which the skin contains the chief end organs and of which the sensations of touch and temperature are characteristic : touch (2) :  a sensation experienced through this sense

b :  generalized bodily consciousness or sensation

c :  appreciative or responsive awareness or recognition

2

a :  an emotional state or reaction feeling

 toward the boy>

b plural :  susceptibility to impression :  sensitivity feelings>

3

a :  the undifferentiated background of one's awareness considered apart from any identifiable sensation, perception, or thought

b :  the overall quality of one's awareness

c :  conscious recognition :  sense

4

a :  often unreasoned opinion or belief :  sentiment

b :  presentiment

5

:  capacity to respond emotionally especially with the higher emotions

6

:  the character ascribed to something :  atmosphere

7

a :  the quality of a work of art that conveys the emotion of the artist

b :  sympathetic aesthetic response

I believe 2, 3, and 5 is what has me losing my sanity. I have been having feelings which give me pains in my chest and pains in my head. Work feelings, social feelings, just feelings of inadequacy, feelings of jealousy, and even feelings of pure unadulterated HATRED. These feelings are just what driving me crazy. 

What should I do? Drink? No my tolerance is too high for drinking. Use coffee? Nahh dont wanna get hooked again. Cut myself? Ok that is just an extreme. But what should I do? 

Luckily I got a lil work out ;) which has helped release some of them feelings. Then some seriously good info from a friend which just got rid of more of them pesky feelings! 

But a new week is starting. Will the feelings come back? Will I have difficulties controlling them feelings? Should I work out more?? We will see as the year progresses.

Will keep you posted on my feelings dilemma as time goes on. 

OXXO

Mayeshah