Gotta try to start Letting Go

For I feel like i have pissed off a friend of mine and it makes me feel hollow and empty inside. It isnt the first and most likely wont be the last. :(

I either say something or do something that pisses them off. Or the most common way, we just drift apart and find other interests. :(

I believe that is one of the main reasons I am in the hotel industry cause I can interact with people and feel really happy that I meet new people. But then before I could say or do anything that would piss them off (or get me fired) they are gone and I will have a new set of individuals to interact with.

For the entire day I have had this nagging pain like I wanna cry my eyes out,but I have been fighting it. The disadvantage with being all happy and everything, when I feel like crap everyone can see it! I dont wanna look anyone in the eye or even be in the same room with anyone.

They say if you hate something about yourself either change it if you can or learn to love it if you can't. I noticed that it is easier said than done.

I drove a coworker (close to) home and even though I didnt get to ask him the question that I ask everyone. He brought it to my attention that my life sucks because of me. I make my life suck.

I want something outragous to happen so that I will just Let Go of all my fears and inhibitions.



People saying that I am fake but how can I be fake if I was never real in the first place. Now to find a way to express my fakeness to the point of realness, even if it is to become even faker than they think I am.

Ok I think I will give up the rant (or confession whatever this is!)

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Mayeshah!!!

P.S. hope you enjoy this song!!^

Look at me NOW!!

I love this song for real!!! I have been listenin to it over and over for the past like 20 mins if not more!!! Well here is the actual song.
The song


Now I was just curious on how people would dance to this and the first one I came across was the best of all of them!!! I dont even wanna blink when watchin this gal dance, for fear I would miss something!!! Damn!!! Hope you enjoy it as much as I did!!!
The best


Now they have these lil boys who did the same part and because they are kids they can do certain moves better than the adults (or they just look down right cute doing it) So this is next in line and they dance routine was just sick!!!
Lil boys


Now after seeing those two you would be like "how could it be any better. or worst" Well it is not better and it isnt worst either. It is the only one that came after this that the guy did really really good!!!
Not Bad


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Mayeshah!!!

Lambada has come a long way!!

I knew there was a Lambada movie and I remember watching it when i was really young. However after watching this trailer I am like.... ok then. But i still wanna watch it again to see what it is about.



Now if you dont know this song you have been leading a really depressing life. However if you havent you can hear it here and fall in love with it!!

So I have been in love with the video and this song like FOREVER!!! AND then I go through youtube and checkin out their music. I come across this cutie who I have loved since his song "Dale Don Dale"

Now he brings his remix (well i dunno if it is remix or not since i dont understand either languages!!! ) The video is sick the music is sick, the lyrics (although i cant understand them) is sick!!! Plus now it makes me impatient for the Fast Five movie to come out!!!




And J.Lo has now made a song that makes me wanna exercise my brains out!!!! Gosh!!! I love the video, I love the song and I love how she incorporated the lambada!!!


Hope you enjoy them all!!!

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Mayeshah

I truely feel soo bad for neglecting me Blogger page but damn is Tumblr addictive!!

But moving away from my cheating ways I must share this!!!



Next I wanna share that I BOUGHT A NEW PHONE!!!

LG GW620 ETNA





Damn that is just sexy!!!!Plus it has the Android operating system!!! yay!

Cant wait for it to reach!!

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Mayeshah!!

FAST FIVE! with the ROCK!!!!!!!

ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE ROCK AND VIN DIESEL IN THE SAME MOVIE!!!! BEING BADASS AS HELL!!!! OMG I JUST GOT CHILLS UP MY EFFING SPINE@!!!!! I WANT THIS IN THE CINEMAS NOOOOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I CANT WAIT TILL SUMMER!!!!!!!! SHIIIITTTT I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!! THEY BROUGHT BACK ALL THE OLD CATS AND ADDED THE FREAKING ROCK!!!! THIS HAS TO BE BAD ASS!!! NEXT THEY GONNA BE TELLIN US THAT THEY PUTTIN JASON STATHAM IN ONE OF THESE F&F MOVIES!!! CRAP!!!!!!! NOW THAT WOULD SERIOUSLY SELL OFF IN MY BOOK!!!!



Even though I wish my Tokyo cats were in this movie but beggers cant be chosers (and they killed off the main guy that I would have wanted anyway in Tokyo Drift) (Plus Japan needs to get new cars now after this situation they are in now :( my heart goes out to you guys)

I AM STILL PSYCHED!!! OMG ANOTHER CHILL!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Harry Potter DH2 Premier

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

IT IS HARRY POTTER THE FINAL ONE!!! NOOOOOO BUT YEEESSSSSS!!!!!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE THIS MOVIE!!!! I AM ALMOST FREAKING OUT RIGHT NOW OMG!!! I CANT WAIT!!! IT LOOKS SOOOO GOOOODDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOPE YOU ENJOY AS MUCH AS I DID!!!!



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Mayeshah!!!

Tween music vids and PEDO BLACK MAN!!!

Now tell me why is this black guy in all of these videos!?????? All these videos are tween white girls and there is a Big 30+ Black guy in all of them. Something smells fishy here!!!







Now this is the most painful of the lot!!! THis reminds me of some of the girls I went to Uni with. Now tell me isnt this gal too young to be going to clubs and stuff??? Damnn!!!

AND THERE IS THE PEDO BLACK GUY AGAIN. Call the po-po


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Mayeshah

PiNK BRASS KNUCKLES: Is She a Hoe, or is She Sexually Liberated?

PiNK BRASS KNUCKLES: Is She a Hoe, or is She Sexually Liberated?: "Yesterday, I was reading a blog from one of my favorite bloggers, and friend-in-my-head, Xilla of BlogXilla.com and ran across a blog titled..."

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Mayeshah!!!

I need you to understand!

No not you!!! I need Travie McCoy to understand that I love his music!!! HOnestLY this song is the hottest!!!




Damn tell me that aint hot!!! And he is sooo fine!!! MARRY ME, TRAVIE!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Panic! At the disco

This group I must give props for their videos. They are very creative. If you are not interested in their music the videos would catch you. Well that is if you are interested in vintage.









This one I love because (1) it was the first video I ever saw from them and (2) I have something with Circuses. (never been to one though)




If you like their vids as much as I do you can continue watching them on youtube.

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Mayeshah!!!

Spirited Away in Detail

I had done a post with the trailer for the movie Spirited Away. A Japanese movie that was brought to my attention from my JWU art teacher. I had enjoyed the movie and would encourage any and everyone to watch this movie (the subbed one not the dubbed one). However since I dont know much in Japanese symbols some of the main details of this movie had went straight over my head.

So today I was going through one of my blogs and came across this:

Interesting Fact About 千と千尋の神隠し

from Bunnies Can't Write Blogs

I’ve noticed that several of my followers are Miyazaki fans, so I thought I share this little tidbit of information with you about Spirited Away.
I always wondered why the symbol “ゆ” (said “yu”) was on the door to the bath house. I asked my Japanese teacher, and he wasn’t too sure so I did a little research.
The symbol is used on the entrance to 温泉 (onsen) and 銭湯 (sento), or Japanese bath houses. The word “yu” is translated to “hot water”. So, makes sense to be on a bath house, yes?
Then I did more reading. During the Edo period, these public baths became popular for men because of women who started working at these communal baths, washing men and selling sex. These bath houses were called “yuna baro”. The woman were known as 湯女, or “yuna”. This directly translates to “hot water woman”. So basically, they were brothels. Guess what the woman who ran this bath house would be called?
ゆばば。
Yubaba.
(translates directly to “hot water old woman”)
Yubaba is the name of the woman who runs the bath house in Spirited Away. If you watch Spirited Away in Japanese, the female workers are referred to as yuna.
Chihiro was forced to change her name to Sen. Kinda like how strippers get names like “Candy”.
カオナシ/No-Face keeps offering Chihiro money. He “wants her”.
THEN I read interviews with Miyazaki. This was all put in intentionally. As we all know. Miyazaki’s stories are weaved with different themes and metaphors. He said he was tackling the issue of the sex industry rapidly growing in Japan, and that children being exposed to it at such early ages is a problem.
To me, this makes me respect Miyazaki even more as a film maker.
And also, frustrates me because so much gets lost in translation, and people see it as this cute childrens movie and this “master piece of animation” (which it definately is) instead of the real statement that it is.
Thought I’d share :).
I told this to my Japanese teacher today. He was speechless for a bit and then said “I NEED TO WATCH THAT MOVIE AGAIN OBVIOUSLY.” Haha.

Now after reading that I have an even deeper respect for the movie, the story, and the storywriter. And I must reiterate: THIS MOVIE IS A MUST WATCH!!!


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Mayeshah!!!

How to get a girl

This video has made me look at the guys in the past and the guys I have gotten close to and the guys that I dont even try to get to know. Most of them comment on my looks or my shape, and in my mind I automatically close them off as prospects or even close friends. However if the guy is just outrageously fine and smooth (like James Bond) I would let them pass when tellin me how sexy I look.

But for all the dudes out there this video is soo true. Take the points in and try it out.



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Mayeshah!!!

The Keys to Life

This is so true!!!





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Mayeshah!!!

Be Happy

and please take care and always do what is best for you
put yourself first and be happy
life is too short
ich liebe aught

I tell people this and people tell me this but when you are in a frame of mind where you are not completely happy. But when one of my close friends from Providence  told me that it made me think about my situation and I am certain that it is not the position I would like to stay in for a long time.

I see people working in the position for years but I am not strong enough to do this for long. So sending out to everyone a comment my said:

always do what is best for you
put yourself first and be happy
life is too short

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Mayeshah!!!

Can this be real please!!

Please I beg for someone to mass produce this baby!! I would love to own one of this. Everyone petition for this to be mass produced and for cheap!!! (hehehe)

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Mayeshah

RC Drifting

After watching Tokyo Drift I have grown to love watchin Drifting and now seeing it in RC form it is just sick!!!




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Mayeshah!!!

Seen some! Must. See. The. Rest!!!

I must admit I am a manga fan but unless it is something that i have direct access to I will slack off. So when it came to manga movies, OMG. I would watch these for hours. So out of this list I have seen:
Spirited Away
Ponyo


Now for you Denzel Washington fans who probably have watched all of these movies, I havent so this is some movies that I wanna watch along with some I have already seen.




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Mayeshaha!!!

secure yourself

this just reminded me of my interviews

Which one are you

Some things to think about

I came across this and just had to share it with the outer blogesphere and the rest of the internet obsessed world.



The part that probably hit home for me was dont look back at the past because they are what are crippling your future and dont have regrets because it is a waste of time.

 
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Mayshah!!!

Is Mubarak still President?

3 weeks

Well today (5th Feb,2010) makes it 3 weeks I am working. And last night I stabbed myself with a pen.

Everyone said it is alot of work and I accepted the lots of work but when the supervisor is stressing a point that you cannot get away from and then a guest totally cusses you out I just wanted to seriously quit. But no that would get me no where.

Today started pretty good at that but then after I had a conversation with the F&B manager I got cussed out by the Supervisor. When I was in the conversation I saw a few guest arrive and sat at the bar and I was like "oh some of the guest are here" and his response was "the others can see you talking to me so they will help the guest."  So when I went inside after the conversation, the supervisor started on me telling me I still have to do my tasks before service time. I told her the the F&B manager was talkin to me and she continued "if he comes in here and the task isnt done he will be upset". Basically killing my excuse. :( So I feel like I am inbetween a true tug of war.


I dunno I dont wanna give up. The F&B manager doesnt want me to give up, the GM doesnt want me to give up (he never said it in so many words). But I know that when I get really nervous or upset I start to take it out on myself or begin to cry.

I know I am weak and that is one of the main reasons that I decided to work instead of doing my main objective first. If I gain all the experience necessary and all the SOPs (Standards of Procedures) which no one is giving me straight up, I have to pick up over time.

I dunno maybe I would rather someone treating me like I am slightly ADHD than someone getting upset with me on a regular basis.

Lykke Li and Rick Ross

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Mayeshah!!!

Lyicist Brotha!!

It is so bad for me to say that Music Videos like these have made me what to have a brotha, whether black or white, like this. Damn!!! This one just crushes me!!



Then this guy just makes me wanna go to NY and party for an entire weekend!!!



OHHH and dont talk about MUSIQ!!!



I have always been attracted to guys who have a way with words. Like Montell Jordan, Musiq, KEM, Keith Sweat, Joe and other guys like that. And I have always been envious of Ladies who are more likely to get guys like that. Like India Irie, Erykah Badu, Nakia Henry,Jill Scott, and other gals like them.

There was a time I was on the subway in NY and there was a guy that was soo fine and if I wasnt underaged and wasnt leaving a few days later I most def would have went out with him.

Maybe that is why I love going to the poetry nights that are on the second and fourth Tuesday of the month. MANNN I wish I could go but I gotta work :(

Shoot if you are interested in going (if you are in Antigua or when you visit) you can check out their fb page

Well I gonna continue lookin through my blogs.

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Mayeshah!!!

Eddy, Michael Kuhr and Ninja Goats!!

Eddy Get off your cellphone!!! Oh Really Eddy you gonna dunk with your phone! OH SNAP, You is a professional!!!



You are Michael Kuhr??? Do you really want to call my brother now? But you really don't have to call my brother now.



Hey, near the end I could swear the commentator mentioned these goats to be Ninja!!



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Mayeshah!!!

Work Nightmare

Remember all those dreams I have been having? Well I experienced a never-ending version of it today!! Mistake after mistake... no letting up. I was soo pressured I couldn't help  but to cry. I am soo happy today is my day off. Get to go to the beach ... help out at the hardware ... probably get a lil nice in the day.

I dunno it just feels like it is only getting worst but at least I know I have people like K and M (that works with me) that is willing to give me a good pep talk. Plus the encouragement from home. Proves to me that not only am I too soft for my own good but I am going to have to work mad hard to become tougher.


And to make matters worst today, my deodorant wore off. 24 hr protection my ass!!! So two of my co workers informed me of my slight HBO.

Plus when I reached half way home I had to turn back to go back to the resort to sign out.
Talk about a hell packed day!!! A true FML day!!!

I shall try the method that both my sis and K(at work) advised me to do. Create a routine that would help with the fast times!! I started but it was mental and only works when it was a calm day or just before service time.

Oh gosh I think I might owe the resort for a bottle of water. oh snap. We will see.Today was just a big big big mess. And now I am afraid of going to sleep cause of the crap my subconsciousness has stored and ready to release.

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Mayeshah!!!

Something's wrong

Ok, I have been working for 2 weeks tomorrow, and all kinda weird stuff has been occurring since I got this job. First week I had a pulse in my right eye for days on end. So I looked it up and found this:

Why Does My Eye Twitch?

Eye twitches can be triggered by a variety of different factors. Some of the conditions that cause eye twitches are environmental, some are physiological, and some are psychological in nature. Below is a list of some of the more common causes of eye twitch:

• Fatigue or lack of sleep
• Over consumption of caffeine
• Physical or emotional stress
• Anxiety or phobias
• Brain damage or other neurological disorders
• Associated with temper tantrums (especially in children)
• Eye stress associated with extended viewing of the computer screen
• Epilepsy

So I swear it is the Anxiety that I was taking on. Plus I felt emotionally stressed when I went to work.

Now for the kicker. I would have dreams about work. So lets say I come from work at 11:20 and stay up until 12:30am from 12:30am to 3 or 4 am. I am back on duty. However when I am back on duty I cant move. Well until I feel like have done something wrong and I try and rush to do something and I get out of bed just to do it. So I have had episodes where I woke up got out of bed and was heading to one of my side tables to give a guest some water.

Well last night pissed me off some because I sleep with my computer on in my bed and I minimized all my programs in order to find the POS Program for the restaurant so that I can put in orders (or get a check) for a guest.

Then at one point in the night around 3:30 (I remember looking at my watch) I was just looking around  my room in the dark wondering where I was.  :(

I need help. If you have any methods of relaxing or anything which would help me out late at night dont be afraid to share.

Well it has been two weeks that I have been working with them and I am still learning on how to make a routine of what I am doing. I am making tons of mistakes but my supervisor has advised me that I am new and everyone makes mistakes. So I shouldn't be afraid to come to her.

I will most def keep you posted on my psychotic brain activities.

Oh and I made 12,519 steps in 8 hrs yesterday!!! No wonder I look like I am losing weight!!!!
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Mayeshah!!!

GRAMMER!!!

Man this is soo true!!!
 

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Mayeshah!!!

Dancing or porn??

Now you might be like omg this girl is soooo rude!!! No those Argentinians are just like WWWWOOOOWWW!!! Like they tryin to give Brazil a run for their money!

This one was just too funny not to pass up!!! you can check out more of the clips here



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Mayeshah!!!

Make up your mind. Now or then???

First 2 days of work

Well, so far I have worked two days in the Hotels Fine Dining Restaurant. The first day I had no idea of what I was doing so I just did whatever the supervisor and the manager of the F&B services directed me to do. After that I assisted the wait staff in setting up the dining room and went to dinner. When I came back the first diners went to sit by the bar until they were ready to eat and the second they could tell how nervous I was. I almost cried twice but I buckled down and made up my mind that I am going to get through.
The second day was smoother with the tasks I had to do. However there were other information that I would need that would enhance the guests experience and lessen the amount of time i am just standing around!!

So to end off this post I will share this vid which is the a capella of a song that I have grown to LOVE!!!



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Mayeshah!!!

Nothin but a Glee thing!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

"F**K YOU GOSSIP GIRLS"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA

Nuthin' But A Glee Thang with Heather Morris, Matthew Morrison & Sofia Vergara from Heather Morris

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Mayeshah!!!

5 new ways to tie a Tie!! teehee!!!

This is a spoof to the previous entry about tying a tie!!!



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Mayeshah

My New Years Resolution

Got the job

Well the interview is complete. And the job is mine. So now i have hella ton of prep I gotta do before the big day!!!

 



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Mayeshah!!!

Ants vs Mouse

Ok yesterday morning at the hardware we came across some serious craziness!

  ANTS covering the remains of what used to be a mouse. Lots of Ants  covering the fur and skeleton of a mouse that had been caught in a mouse trap. (the power of google images below) The ants had eaten the flesh of the mouse till it looked like that pic at the bottom. And it wasnt just one mouse but THREE!!! Talk about crazy!!!

So now I have much respect for the laws of nature. Everything enters the earth and everything leaves the earth in the ways only nature can conduct!!! (i dunno if that makes sense so bear with me) 

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Mayeshah!!!

Another Kissing entry!!

It seems like Kissing is on the grow right now cause I came across this on this Tumblr and just had to share it with the masses.

fightfireinyourbestclothes:

Effects of Kissing:

1. Long kisses are beneficial to our circulatory system. When kissing, our pulse rate is quickening up to 110 beats per minute. This is a great training for our cardiovascular system.
2. After kissing, the lungs work harder, resulting in 60 inhales per minute compared to regular 20 inhales. Such “ventilation” is a good preventive measure against lung diseases.
3. Some dentists believe that kissing is a preventive measure against dental caries. Indeed, kissing stimulates the flow of saliva that eliminates acid coat on the teeth.
4. Kisses that last more than three minutes help us fight stress and its effects. Long kisses trigger the chain of biochemical reactions, which destroys stress hormones.
5. Those who kiss their partner goodbye each morning live five years longer than those who don’t.
6. Kissing is great for self-esteem. It makes you feel appreciated and helps your state of mind.
7. Kissing burns calories, 2-3 calories a minute and can double your metabolic rate. Research claims that three passionate kisses a day (at least lasting 20 seconds each) will cause you to loose an entire extra pound.
8. Kissing is a known stress-reliever. Passionate kissing relieves tension, reduces negative energy and produces a sense of well being, lowering your cortisol ‘stress’ hormone.
9. Kissing uses 30 facial muscles and it helps keep the facial muscles tight, preventing baggy cheeks! The tension in the muscles caused by a passionate kiss helps smooth the skin and increases the circulation.
10. Kissing is good for the heart, as it creates an adrenaline which causes your heart to pump more blood around your body. Frequent kissing has scientifically been proven to stabilize cardiovascular activity, decrease blood pressure and cholesterol.
11. Those who kiss quite frequently are less likely to suffer from stomach, bladder and blood infections.
12. During a kiss, natural antibiotics are secreted in the saliva. Also, the saliva contains a type of anesthetic that helps relieve pain.
13. Kissing reduces anxiety and stops the ‘noise’ in your mind. It increases the levels of oxytocin, an extremely calming hormone that produces a feeling of peace.

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Mayeshah!!!

INTERVIEW in the next .... T minus 11 hrs.

Ok so I have received a call from the Blue Waters Resort staff, informing me that I have an Interview on the 12th of January 2011 at 10:30am.

Now I am getting mad scared because .... I dunno how i will be after I get the job. There is no reason for them to not like me. I am bubbly and I love to smile. But tonite hit me of why I am scared to get the job. Every second and fourth Tuesday in the month the Expressions : Poetry in the Pub has their poetry night. (Join if you are interested in sharing your poetry with the public.) Every second Saturday in the month The Best of Books' "Wadadli Pen Open Mic" has their poetry night. (Another good place to share your written and spoken word.)
Every other Friday my mom, my sister and I would go to the C&C Winehouse.

Now these are the only activities I do other than surfing the net and talking to people on facebook messenger or msn messenger. And I am scared that my new found job might take away this. But I guess this is what I sold my time and energy in University for (and bought some very expensive knowledge). To have no time for myself and to be a slave to the hospitality industry. Where your time is very rarely fixed and very often shifted.

Well I just had to share that. Cause I tell everyone that my fear is of the interview but my fear is really the job.


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Mayeshah!!!

P.S. After Writing this I have 10hrs and 45 mins

The Science of Kissing

NO Honestly This is just down right interesting!!! It took me into my twenties to have my first kiss.
And of Course I found it HERE!!

The history of the kiss 
The first written kiss was documented in 1500 BC — when there wasn’t even a word for a mouth-to-mouth exchange. The earliest mention comes from India’s Vedic Sanskrit texts, which talked about “smelling with the mouth” and reads “young lord of the house repeatedly licks the young woman.”
By the 3rd century AD, the most important sex-text to hit the world, the Kama Sutra, laid out the guidelines for a good kiss, devoting an entire chapter to the act. It told readers where to kiss the body: “The forehead, the eyes, the cheeks, the throat, the bosom, the breasts, the lips and the interior of the mouth.” And it laid out three types of kisses: “the nominal kiss, throbbing kiss, touching kiss.”
Various types of kissing, mostly between slaves and owners as an act of reverence, began cropping up in Greek and Roman texts, including the Odyssey and the Iliad, as well as in the Old Testament.
Christianity hoped to bridle the passions of their devotees by relegating kissing to acts of reverence or charity, not out of sexual passion.
In the Middle Ages, kissing again underwent a makeover, where it was employed as a legal way to seal a document. Men were often illiterate, so instead of writing their names, they would draw an X and kiss it to make it legal (and that’s where we get x as the symbol for kiss).
Kissing lost its allure during the 17th century, when the Great Plague was at its height in London, as people opted to tip their hat, wave or bow to avoid making physical contact. It recouped its vogue in Hollywood, around the time that “French Kiss” entered English vocabulary; now heroes and heroines were often waiting for a kiss to complete the narrative.
In 1961, “Splendor in the Grass” featured Hollywood’s first tongue kiss, between Natalie Wood and Warren Beatty. Tina Fey and Steve Carell recently broke a record for longest kiss on screen when they lip-locked for five minutes during the closing credits of the movie “Date Night.”
The anatomy of a kiss

It may feel like the most natural thing in the world, but kissing is far from easy. To undertake the task, six major muscles around the mouth help to pucker up the upper lips, pull up the corners of the mouth, and pull down the lower lips. And don’t forget the effort it takes to cross your fingers that it’s worth it.
It’s not just the mouth; the whole body is involved in the act of kissing. When lips hit lips, five of the 12 pairs of cranial nerves, responsible for smell, taste, vision and facial expressions, are excited. Blood vessels expand, cheeks flush, pupils dilate, and the heart pumps a higher level of oxygen to the brain.
Meanwhile, the tongue, with its nearly 10,000 taste buds, is taking in the other person, while the lips, jam-packed with nerve endings, send messages to the limbic system of the brain, responsible for love, passion and lust.
All the while, neurotransmitters and hormones — like dopamine (brings us feelings of pleasure), oxytocin (fosters feelings of attachment), serotonin (also regulates emotion like dopamine) and adrenaline (which boosts heart rate and prepares body for sex) are coursing through our systems. These things are responsible for the butterfly, roller-coaster-ride effect that some kisses have.
About two-thirds of people tilt their heads to the right. Although scientists don’t know for sure why, some speculate that it is something we adopt in utero and others believe that the behavior stems from which side our mothers nursed.  
Why do it?

It’s not easy, causes stress on the body, and there’s always the problem of spreading germs, so why do we do it?
One theory is that the act of pursing lips reminds us of the calmness, comfort and attachment of nursing, a Freudian thought that might actually have some validity, Kirshenbaum says. Another theory along the same lines says that kissing reminds us of an old habit of “premastication” wherein a mother chews the food and then feeds her baby via the mouth.
But, really, the most important and obvious reason why we kiss is that it facilitates reproduction. Women, who according to studies place more emphasis and importance on a kiss, use the mouth-to-mouth moment as a way to judge the taste of the tongue, lips and saliva to see if she is with an adequate mate.
Sense of smell doesn’t just provide a window into hygiene habits, it also gives women access to the unseen DNA of their chosen mate. According to recent studies, women can smell when a man’s group of genes that manage the immune system, called MHC, are matched well to her own. Scientists theorize that kissing may be so ubiquitous because it gives women an instant check on if there is chemistry, literally (or less poetic terms, if they would make good children together).
But what’s in it for the guy? By kissing, men pass along small amounts of testosterone through their saliva, priming their mate for sexual intercourse, studies suggest.
Still, for how complex it is, sometimes a kiss is just a kiss.
“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl,” Albert Einstein said, “is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.”

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Mayeshah!!!

7 reasons to have sex tonite!!!

To be honest I have saved these articles so that i can share them with you guys because i find them interesting!!! I got this here as well!!!

7 reasons to have sex

Look younger
A long-term study of 3,500 people between the ages of 30 and 101 found that regular sex may shave between four and seven years off your physical appearance. Researchers at the Royal Edinburgh Hospital in Scotland presented photos of the subjects to an impartial panel of judges, who were asked to guess their ages. The people who were judged to be the youngest were also those who had the most sex. What’s the connection between youthfulness and getting it on? In addition to boosting self-esteem and confidence, sex increases the production of human growth hormone, which is known to improve muscle tone.
Get happy
It goes without saying that sex can make you happy and contented, but a paper in the Archives of Sexual Behavior takes this idea one step further. Based on a study of 300 women that correlated condom use with depression, researchers concluded that women who never used condoms were the least depressed, while those women who always used condoms were the most depressed. One reason? The vagina may absorb the mood-boosting hormones and prostaglandins found in semen. It’s an interesting theory, but certainly no reason to advocate unprotected sex. Clearly, an unwanted pregnancy or STD would not increase anyone’s happiness.
Slim down
On average, sex burns about five calories per minute, depending upon your weight. Even engaging your partner in a hot kiss boosts your heart rate, which in turn increases your body’s caloric burn. Next time you’re too busy to work out, try getting busy instead.
Fight the sniffles
Sex may help fight off colds. In a study at Wilkes University in Pennsylvania, researchers found that college students who had sex once or twice per week had higher levels of immunoglobulin A, an antibody that boosts the immune system.
Keep the pressure down
Want to stress less? Sex could be just the thing to keep you calm. In a study by researchers at the University of Paisley in Scotland, 46 men women were asked to give speeches to an audience who, unbeknownst to the speakers, was told to act bored and disinterested. Afterwards, the participants’ blood pressure was taken—those who reported having sex within the last two weeks had the lowest readings.
Have a heart
A recent study published in the Journal of the American College of Cardiology found that erectile dysfunction (ED) is often an early indicator of poor cardiovascular health. Researchers followed more than 2,300 men for an average of four years and found that men with ED had a 58 percent greater risk of coronary heart disease. Another study showed that men who reported having three or more orgasms per week experienced 50 percent fewer heart attacks and strokes as compared with those who had less frequent orgasms. Sex may help the heart because orgasm triggers the release of the hormone DHEA, which helps with circulation and arterial dilation.
Live longer
For reasons that are still unclear, regular sex may even add years to your life. A study published in the British Medical Journal found that men who had sex less than once per month were twice as likely to die in the next 10 years than those who had sex once per week. And guys aren’t the only ones to benefit: Researchers at Duke University found that women who claimed to enjoy their sex lives lived seven to eight years longer than women who were indifferent to sex.
So forget about an apple a day. To feel healthier, look younger, and live longer, an orgasm or two a week may be an effective - and certainly enjoyable - remedy.

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Mayeshah!!!

The History of Lobster

Some interesting info on "Lobster" which I found here

The history of “lobster” being peasant/prison food…

 

…But they are themselves good eating. Or so we think now. Up until sometime in the 1800s, though, lobster was literally low-class food, eaten only by the poor and institutionalized. Even in the harsh penal environment of early America, some colonies had laws against feeding lobsters to inmates more than once a week because it was thought to be cruel and unusual, like making people eat rats. One reason for their low status was how plentiful lobsters were in old New England. “Unbelievable abundance” is how one source describes the situation, including accounts of Plymouth pilgrims wading out and capturing all they wanted by hand, and of early Boston’s seashore being littered with lobsters after hard storms—these latter were treated as a smelly nuisance and ground up for fertilizer. There is also the fact that premodern lobster was often cooked dead and then preserved, usually packed in salt or crude hermetic containers. Maine’s earliest lobster industry was based around a dozen such seaside canneries in the 1840s, from which lobster was shipped as far away as California, in demand only because it was cheap and high in protein, basically chewable fuel.

Now, of course, lobster is posh, a delicacy, only a step or two down from caviar. The meat is richer and more substantial than most fish, its taste subtle compared to the marine-gaminess of mussels and clams. In the U.S. pop-food imagination, lobster is now the seafood analog to steak, with which it’s so often twinned as Surf ’n’ Turf on the really expensive part of the chain steak house menu.

In fact, one obvious project of the MLF, and of its omnipresently sponsorial Maine Lobster Promotion Council, is to counter the idea that lobster is unusually luxe or rich or unhealthy or expensive, suitable only for effete palates or the occasional blow-the-diet treat. It is emphasized over and over in presentations and pamphlets at the Festival that Maine lobster meat has fewer calories, less cholesterol, and less saturated fat than chicken.5 And in the Main Eating Tent, you can get a “quarter” (industry shorthand for a 1‰-pound lobster), a 4-ounce cup of melted butter, a bag of chips, and a soft roll w/ butter-pat for around $12.00, which is only slightly more expensive than supper at McDonald’s.

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Mayeshah!!!

New York Undercity & 7 Billion

UNDERCITY from Andrew Wonder on Vimeo.

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Mayeshah

Homeless Ted with the Golden Voice on the "Today Show"

Visit msnbc.com for breaking news, world news, and news about the economy

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Mayeshah!!!

Doncamatic & Run Devil Run

They are just sooo cool!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

Filmography 2010 genrocks rocks

Now my aim is to watch all the movies above (that are not horror) b4 the end of 2011!!!

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Mayeshah!!!

National Orgasm Day

Yes you read right there is something called National Orgasm Day!!! And this year is Sunday, July 31, 2011 so unless you are working or something dont forget to participate!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

eHow

When they say you can find anything on the internet they were right. eHow has someone explaining how to be a Host(ess)  right here and the comments are really good.

How to be a restaurant host or hostess

By blunite62609, eHow Member

User-Submitted Article

Ah, the joy of the food service industry. The annoying customers, the whiny waitstaff, the hovering manager...the crap that hosts & hostesses deal with on a daily basis should make them eligible for an award or something. This will hopefully help you to get through your hosting job alive.

Difficulty: Moderate

Instructions

Things You'll Need:

• Confidence
• Personality (you are dealing with the public...an angry host = angry customers)
• A decent memory (which server was sat last? you must be able to remember certain details)
• Ability to deal with problems that may suddenly arrive (ie : large parties, slow busboys, etc)

1. 1
   You must be personable and inviting. It is your job to welcome/say goodbye to customers. You are the first and last person they will see, and you must leave them with a good impression. When a customer walks in, greet them cheerily with something along the lines of "Hello! Good afternoon and welcome to ___________. How many in your party?" Seat them as soon as possible (waiting makes them angry).
   
2. 2
   Know your table rotation. The tables in the restaurant are numbered, and each server has his/her designated "section" of tables. It is your job to "rotate" through each server.
   
   Rules of Table Rotations:
   1. You should not seat the same server twice in a row. I can almost guarantee that another server will get on your case about this...not good.
   
   2. If you give one server a 5,6,7+ top table then be sure to compensate the other servers by giving them several 2,3,4 top tables. **1 top tables do not count because they don't bring in a lot of tips for the waitstaff...do not count them in your table count.
   
   3. If possible, keep track of how many table each server has received. This will help to minimize the number of seating mistakes.
   
   4. Avoid asking customers where they would like to sit...they almost always choose a table that screws up the rotation.
   
3. 3
   Dealing with co-workers:
   
   1. Your manager- I have 3 different managers. 2 of them are understanding and flexible, and one is a complete a** My best advice is to avoid stirring up trouble with any of your managers. If they ask you to sweep the floor, then sweep the floor. If the ask you to bus, then bus. End of story.
   
   2. The waitstaff- Bottom line...waiters and waitresses are petty and whiny. They will complain about the number of tables they get and they will constantly compare themselves to the other waiters. I suggest trying to befriend as many waiters as possible to avoid seating complaints. If they get on your case, listen to what they're griping about and try to be understanding to them...they deal with the same annoying customers as you. Say something non-confrontational like "You do your job and I'll do mine. I'll get you more tables if I can..." If they really get on your case, talk to your manager.
   
   3. Busboys- Busboys are slow...they never clean the tables well...they always leave crumbs. My best advice is to keep a wet rag at the host stand so that you can wipe off any excess crumbs left by them before seating a party.
   

Tips & Warnings

• You should expect to be hit on. People often come into restaurants (especially ones with bars) to pick up dates. If you do get hit on, smile, laugh and brush it off with a professional questions like "Is there anything I can help you with?"
• Be ready for anything. Plan beforehand where you can seat large parties/noisy children/etc
• Keep your host stand supplied with: children's menus, crayons, toothpicks, mints, etc
• If you have any questions feel free to ask a server, another host, a busboy, or your manager...someone is bound to know the answer!
• 9/10 times customers will want a booth...seat them there for maximum happiness :]]
• Do not gossip about your co-workers! I made the mistake of doing this and caught hell from my manager

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Cant sleep

Oh my Gosh, I want to sleep so bad but I cant. Everytime I close my eyes I either envision someone in the hotel industry trying their hardest to get a job and succeeding or I see myself being a Host.

I am scared shitless. I swear. I am not completely ready for this. I do not have questions to ask the interviewer. If the interviewer asks me why Blue Waters Resort I cant fabricate something (well i cant in my imaginary interview in my head). I dont know what to do or if someone would train me or if I will have to learn from experience.

I just did a lil research on what the Host's responsibilities are and this is what I found:
 

The host stand is your domain. To be effective, organization is key. The host or hostess job description includes keeping the stand or reception desk clean and organized at all times. Your first duty when getting to work is making sure that it is organized and ready for operation.
subcribe to food and beverage today

1. Make sure all menus are wiped down, free of spots or stains, and complete.
2. Make sure all menus are wiped down, free of spots or stains, and complete.
3. Make sure entry doors are clean, free of debris and inviting.
4. Check with phone reservationists, or answering machine messages to assure you have all reservations.
5. Check with manager to assure there are no large or private parties you do not know about.
6. Check with kitchen to see where they stand. See if they are behind or if they are out of anything.
7. Plan out the seating chart and organize the reservations (planning is everything when running an effective host stand).
8. Greets guests, escorts them to their table, pull seat out for the ladies, and present menus.
9. Make sure the server is aware they have been sat.
10. Keep the counts for individual server so things come out fair at the end of the night
11. Keep in constant contact with the servers and the kitchen to make sure you are not putting them in the weeds. A hostess job description does not include running a smooth shift, but it does separate the good from the great. A large part of the night’s effectiveness is orchestrated from the host stand.
12. Keep an eye out that the dining room, entryway, bathrooms, and menus are kept clean throughout operations.
13. Say good-bye to all of the guests. Check to see that everything was wonderful. Not only is the host or hostess the first impression the guest gets when they come to an establishment they are also the last. You should check with every guest and if there was any kind of problem quickly get a manager.
14. At the end of the shift you may want to do the server ant restaurant tallies.
15. Some establishments may also have you be a cashier as well.
16. Pay will be all over the map depending on where you are working and what is expected of you, but you can expect somewhere between $7-$15 per hour plus a percentage tip out from the wait staff.
17. The host or hostess description will very from restaurant to restaurant but this should give you a good idea of what to expect going in or what you should expect from your host personnel.

The property I am applying to is the Blue Waters Resort and it was started in 1960 as a 16 room guesthouse and presently is a 100 room resort with two restaurants.

Well since I am awake now my sub-conscience is at ease and I think I am going to take a lil nap before my alarm goes off.

All I ask is that who ever you are out there reading this. Pray for me. Although I am not the religious type but I really want this job even though I am scared that I will shit it up in some way or form. But if the universe wants to start me out in a position that I am scared of then I might grow to enjoy it to the max.

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Mayeshah!!!

Moulin Rouge favs

These are two of the songs I love from Moulin rouge!!! When I say LOVE I MEAN LOVE!!!

El tango de Roxanne


Your Song


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Mayeshah

BBW

OK Ok ok....

I guess that the universe i tryin to tell me to stop killin off myself due to these vids i have come across!!!

Caution: Video is for people who accept big girls for who they are and not what they look like.

Ok I will work on accepting my small size compared to her. I AM A BBW - Big Beautiful Woman!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Tit watchin 550

Hey all,

This is my 550th blog entry!!! I have come along way!!!
Well Today I went to work and I have experienced the oh soo talked about tit watching from a few guys.

I had on a low cut blouse that I had put on for a after work engagement with the community. I also had on a scarf that i would wear around my head as a head tie.

I came in to work and a particular individual who has expressed his infatuation with me. So he came to me and said hi how are you? and I responded. Then he asked me if he could get a New Years hug (from Christmas, I found out his hugs were a little too long for comfort but it was the season for giving so i just let it slide), so i was like nope it is just a new year. While Christmas was the season of giving New Years is just another day. Then I noticed it.



However from a few forums I have checked (such as:

• http://answer.co5.biz/social-science/do-women-who-show-a-lot-of-cleavage-really-get-mad-when-a-man-looks-down-her-shirt-or-is-it-just-something.html
• http://www.answerdigger.com/70251/guys-do-you-always-stare-at-cleavage
• http://ask.metafilter.com/81770/How-do-you-avoid-staring-at-cleavage
• http://www.todaysmodernwoman.com/Skin-Body/25344.htm

And bloggerz:

• http://hubpages.com/hub/Why-Men-Stare-At-Your-Breasts
• http://datingrelationship-advice.blogspot.com/2010/01/why-guys-like-boobs.html

I guess it is an epidemic that will never come to an end!!! GUYS WILL ALWAYS WATCH A WOMAN'S CLEAVAGE.

But then it comes to the situation where I dont tell you not to look but when I am looking at you dont look at them. Nice and Simple!! I must admit my tits look good just dont stare!!!


You might be wondering, "why did she mention the scarf in the earlier parts of the blog entry?" OHHH yea Because I started using the scarf to hide my cleavage. When he saw i was doing that he just started to laugh and pretending that wasnt the reason why he was laughing!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Happy New Year

I wish all of you a Happy New Year. Hope it is better than the one that we have just encounter. AND YES I AM GONNA SAY IT HERE AS WELL!!: I HOPE I GET A FREAKY DEAKY JOB THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well yea!!!!

The only thing I shall miss about this year is ........ MY GRADUATION!!!

other than that this year sucks arse!!! However I think I am entering the new year a more open and welcoming person!!

Touching

Now they say it is better to love and get hurt than never to love at all. But the hurt part is my fear. This piece I got from a site i follow (check them out here).

You can go for weeks without touching another human being. Sure, there’s the occasional brush of the shoulder on a city street, or the brief jolt of an elbow at a crowded show. Those are accidents. But actively being touched, or actively touching somebody else: this is not a regular occurrence. Go without for long enough, and you might forget you’re missing anything. Of course, you feel an inexplicable, mild loneliness—but you can’t put your finger on its cause (pun intended).


Occasionally you’ll find somebody who reminds you that perhaps it’s worth it to risk your shelled safety. You’ll allow yourself the luxury of being touched, and the happiness of touching. Here I refer not to the sexual, but to the sweet and gentle: a kiss, the light scent of someone else’s skin. And then, suddenly and unexpectedly, it’ll be gone, and you’ll have to learn to forget.

Now this line is what scares me even more because not only is it hard to forget but you are going to have to forget something as comforting as a hug or a non sexual kiss. That is why I cant go a long time without touching someone, either a hug (which I would ask someone for if I havent gotten one in a while) or just a simple touch just to have that connection.

OXXO

Mayeshah

Sheneneh's Best

Takin you back in time!!!







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Mayeshah!!!

STEPPING IS BACK!!!

OK I AM A SUCKER FOR WATCHING STEP SHOWS!!! So now that I see that these two artist are bringing it back in their acts I feel all fuzzy inside!!!

First you see that Willow Smith puts it in her video for Whip my hair:


Then She does it own her live performance on the Ellen show:


Then Ciara does me great joy by doing it on the Ellen show!! :


I just hope there are other artist who will make me just as happy as they do!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

DUMB BITCHES!

I came across this video and I believe everything this dude is talking about. I believe that sometimes you just gotta keep sex and love as two separate entities. You have to know that you can have sex and not love the person but you cant love the person without eventually feeling some kinda sexual need from the person (i am talkin about man and woman love).



I also just finished reading a book "Diary of a Sex Fiend" and it basically is the same where just cuz a girl loves to have lots of sex doesnt mean that she is a slut or anything. She just has an over active sex drive and for the right person it could be tamed. Like taming a stallion. The author of this book has a blog but I dont think i can handle reading her stuff along with my other blogs that i follow.But for those interested can check her out HERE

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

The 7 Chakras

I came across this when I was scoring through a random blog!

The 7 Chakras

. 1 - Root chakra
The Root chakra is about being physically there and feeling at home in situations. If it is open, you feel grounded, stable and secure. You don’t unnecessarily distrust people. You feel present in the here and now and connected to your physical body. You feel you have sufficient territory.

If you tend to be fearful or nervous, your Root chakra is probably under-active. You’d easily feel unwelcome.

If this chakra is over-active, you may be very materialistic and greedy. You’re probably obsessed with being secure and resist change.

. 2 - Sacral chakra
The Sacral chakra is about feeling and sexuality. When it is open, your feelings flow freely, and are expressed without you being over-emotional. You are open to intimacy and you can be passionate and lively. You have no problems dealing with your sexuality.

If you tend to be stiff and unemotional or have a “poker face,” the Sacral chakra is under-active. You’re not very open to people.

If this chakra is over-active, you tend to be emotional all the time. You’ll feel emotionally attached to people and you can be very sexual.

3 - Navel chakra
The Navel chakra is about asserting yourself in a group. When it is open, you feel in control and you have sufficient self esteem.

When the Navel chakra is under-active, you tend to be passive and indecisive. You’re probably timid and don’t get what you want.

If this chakra is over-active, you are domineering and probably even aggressive.

. 4 - Heart chakra
The Heart chakra is about love, kindness and affection. When it is open, you are compassionate and friendly, and you work at harmonious relationships.

When your Heart chakra is under-active, you are cold and distant.

If this chakra is over-active, you are suffocating people with your love and your love probably has quite selfish reasons.

. 5 - Throat chakra
The Throat chakra is about self-expression and talking. When it is open, you have no problems expressing yourself, and you might be doing so as an artist.

When this chakra is under-active, you tend not to speak much, and you probably are introverted and shy. Not speaking the truth may block this chakra.

If this chakra is over-active, you tend to speak too much, usually to domineer and keep people at a distance. You’re a bad listener if this is the case.

. 6 - Third Eye chakra
The Third Eye chakra is about insight and visualization. When it is open, you have a good intuition. You may tend to fantasize.

If it is under-active, you’re not very good at thinking for yourself, and you may tend to rely on authorities. You may be rigid in your thinking, relying on beliefs too much. You might even get confused easily.

If this chakra is over-active, you may live in a world of fantasy too much. In excessive cases halucinations are possible.

. 7 - Crown chakra
The Crown chakra is about wisdom and being one with the world. When this chakra is open, you are unprejudiced and quite aware of the world and yourself.

If it is under-active, you’re not very aware of spirituality. You’re probably quite rigid in your thinking.

If this chakra is over-active, you are probably intellectualizing things too much. You may be addicted to spirituality and are probably ignoring your bodily needs.

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Mayeshah!!!