There are so many ways to describe death ☠️. But all in all it is when you, as a person, no longer exists. All your awards, failures, memories, life experiences, conditioning... ceases to be.
Funny thing is I am ok with that.
The life I lived and all the mistakes that have taken me to where I am is a fun journey. But also knowing that it all comes to an end actually makes me happy.
I also believe in reincarnation (which is just for my peace of mind) cause then it means that I can enjoy this journey but at the end I get to do it over in a different era, place, race, status, just DIFFERENT.
My brother says he doesn't want anything to happen to us (immediate family) but I am actually at peace, if one morning I just no longer exist.
I think I am thinking about this alot because I am getting older and also doing a job that increases my chances of death. Plus death happens when you least expect it. I have been feeling a lot of pain as I get older. Knee pain since 18, Back pain, Sciatic pain, random pain in boobs, headaches, teeth pain. It is CRAZY!
It all comes to the question of if you want to live on with this pain or embrace the nothing? Then there is the topic of offspring (or the lack thereof). What happens to everything I own and what happens to the projects I am working on.
I think 🤔 one of my biggest fears is being alive and not being able to live.
But this is just the rambling of a black woman in Antigua (not Guatemala).
Be at peace and enjoy the journey, the tears, the laughter, the discomfort, the comfort, the pleasures and everything about life. Cause when it is over ... It is ... Over
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
