Trans~ (Extended Trailer) 2012

I would love to see this in its entirety. I only wish that people would understand that this is not something that has only happened now. It has been happening for centuries it is only now that people are talking and people have the resources to acting out what they feel. I have great respect for people like this because they go for what they believe is true for them. I am not in the same boat as them but I have much respect for them.

People are convinced that it is the devil or some evil force that has people Gay and Lesbians but no it is a situation that life is not and will never be black and white. There will always be that gray area with shades of dark gray, light gray and everything in between. It also make s you think of all the individuals who committed suicide when they were young and didnt understand why their body was doing something it wasn't suppose to do in their own minds. Like with him, in his mind he was wondering why he was a girl and why was he having his period, why he had breast? and now that he has the voice and body of a man (I doubt he is complete as yet) He sees himself as what he wants to be.

Why does society want to dictate what you are? You are man! You are woman! You must get married! You must have Babies! You must work! You must retire! NO!!!!! There are those gray areas that no one ever thinks of. Yes you are a man but you could also be feminine, or like men. Yes you are a woman, but you could also be masculine, or like women. No, you dont need to get married but it would be helpful with taxes. No you dont need to have babies (enough stupid ppl and young girls are having enough to populate the world twice around) and If you want to have a baby but you are in a man man or woman woman relationship, there are enough kids in foster care that would love parents weather it is same gendered.

It just upsets me that society and the church is pressuring people to do what their minds are telling them otherwise. Yes there are mental illnesses but how can such a large population of individuals have this mental illness of homosexuality.

So if you are the Bible thumping, scripture preaching mofo who wants to challenge this. PLEASE keep it to yourself cause my mind is quite made up!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

'The Secret World of Arrietty' Trailer

OMG I love this sooo much!!! I am going to have to make sure to get this, Ponyo and Spirited Away on DVD!!!! These are now my favorite movies!!!! YAY!!!!!! I CANT WAIT!!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Gospel

I was having a word with one of my co workers about religion and after our conversation she has become one of the Christians that I have much respect for in relation to religion. Then a while later I saw she had put up a quote and I had liked it on fb. She then sent me the link to the song that the quote came from. So when I went to the link I was like damn this dude is really cute (yes I went there). Then as I was listening to the song I realized that this is the type of Gospel that I dont really like because as soon as they start my mind classifies it as Gospel and I start to zone out. Well here is the song: The I remembered there was a group (actually a duo) who sang Gospel and they would be the individuals I would listen to if I actually did listen to Gospel like that. I heard about them when I was in high school and whenever I heard them I would listen to them cause you dont know that they are Gospel artists until you listen to the lyrics. This duo is Mary Mary. So I looked up a song and found this one: But then I noticed that I used to listen to a few Gospel artists but I didnt know they were gospel until someone had drawn it to my attention. They not only satisfied my gospel but they satisfied my young souls need for ROCK!!! I would say they are as popular as Nickelback. They are POD and Creed Here is an example of Creed: Now one from POD: So it would be interesting what kinda Gospel you are into (even if you not a Christian you might find one of the 4 I put up that might tickle your fancy!!! OXXO Mayeshah!!!

Who am I?

I have come across some videos that showed the inside of people's lives after Youtube fame.
This one had touched my heart because he does bring out really good videos and as a viewer you never think that this is what really going on in his life.


Then this one which is a girl that I followed religiously when I was in Uni.


OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Taio Cruz - Higher ft. Travie McCoy

Where was I when this came out??????



OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Official 2012 Honda CR-V Game Day Commercial - "Matthew's Day Off" Exten...

I loved Ferris Bueller's Day Off and I am loving this!!!!



OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Trailers

I dont really share much movie trailers but these were so bad ass and cool that I had to share!!!

This reminded me of Animatrix, so I would watch it just to get a mindfuck for real. This movie looks bad ass to the max and damn right it got in Bruce Willis!!! Finally, it is about time they bring out a movie as bad ass as this. I dont even think I will wait to watch this with my sister or anyone. I would go and watch this movie over and over again. OXXO Mayeshah!!!

Why I am single #4

Unfortunately the fourth reason my sister put up is pretty much the same as mine. So please check it out here and then come back to me.

So she says she is an idiot but I would rather say that I dont see myself worthy of someone who is really nice or really cute. I know that I can be very confident and everything when I want to be but as with alot of things in my life I am very very scared. I let fear of this stop me or I would make excuses not to do it.

I haven't gotten over it or started to get over it because my excuses are very easy to pull out without me even thinking about them.
This is what I will have to get made into a  poster and frame it so that I will know to STOP!!!


Some of the excuses I do make is to get me out of things I know are morally out of the way and fun to experience.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

So far

As you know I was working on my skills for this year. Well I am off to a good start so far. I am doing a Spanish course at the Venezuelan Institute for free which is really really good. It teaches you conversational Spanish instead of Spanish that they teach you in schools.
 

So far I know:
How to greet people
How to introduce myself
Tell people my name and ask people their names
Tell people where I am from and ask them where they are from
Tell people where I live and ask them where they live
Tell people what I do and ask them what they do
Tell people about my personality
Tell people the day, today, tomorrow and the days after that
The months
Numbers up to 20
Birthdays

And that is all in 2 weeks ->4 classes -> 8 hours. :D

Plus through work I have done a training course. That is a course on how to train people.

It was a 4 day course but we will have to practice training our co-workers and sub-ordinates (if I w as a supervisor) for 6 months before getting my certificate.

Because I am in no specific department at the moment I am doing two departments. 3 months in housekeeping and 3 months in the dining room. Fun times!!!

Well I most definitely dont want it to be an excuse on why I havent blogged in so long but I have been busy as you can see.

I will try and keep you up to date with my situations :D

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

My False Ideals for a Black Man

Well I was watching the trailer for the new Miley Cyrus movie: LOL

Well, if you actually watch it on youtube you will see the amount of people who actually dislikes this movie. However, on the other hand, if I was still between the ages of 7-15 my brain would still be informing me on that is how finding someone you like is suppose to happen. Ok now screw that, since i am not a MCyrus fan.

The main thing that has messed me up, right up until now is these two chicks:


So here is a video with a few trailers of the movies that has really messed me up:



 Then there is these chicks:



Yea them staring in movies that make me think love was so fun to find and stuff. However, in real life it isnt that easy. That you would find this cute hunky dude who is around your age and he is interested in you and you are interested in him. That you are going to get into adventures and all kinda crap.

Now that I am interested in actually going out (and can go without asking permission) the dudes who approach are either very hard to talk to because they just wanna have sex with you or they are just not your type and still just wanna have sex with you.

"Why can't we just talk and get to know each other so that I will feel comfortable around you?" is the question I ask (in my mind) every guy that approaches me about sex.

But then looking at all these movies you never saw a black couple (well there was Dion in Clueless but they were heavy snoggers). So it now makes me wonder if it is a cultural thing.

I ever listened to some of my American friends when it came to dating and most of them dudes know better than to approach them with sexual advances (if they were sober).

It then makes me wonder if because black women have such pronounced bodies that the male mind just automatically goes to sex.

I most likely have to get over major fears to reach anywhere but I know that I also need to go out more. When this happens I hope I get a relationship like in some of them movies where we can talk about anything and still have fun together.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

P.S. The Olsen Twins movies were when I was really young and they were younger and less creepy!!

BANE!!!

So last night I was on youtube and just going through my subscriptions (as usual since that is my life) and came across this video: So in my mind I am like why can't we understand Bane? So I went back to the trailer for the new Dark Knight (if you havent seen it yet check it here: ) and his mouth was obstructed with some metal piece of shit. WTF??? :S First I am going to do a wiki description of the origins of Bane:

Fictional character biography

Bane was born in the fictional Caribbean Republic of Santa Prisca, in a prison called Peña Dura ("Hard Rock"). His father Edmund Dorrance had been a revolutionary and had escaped Santa Prisca's court system. The corrupt government however decreed that his young son would serve out the man's life sentence, and thus Bane's childhood and early adult life are spent in the amoral penitentiary environment.[3][4] Though imprisoned, his natural abilities allow him to develop extraordinary skills within the prison's walls. He reads as many books as he can get his hands on, builds up his body in the prison's gym, and learns to fight in the merciless school of prison life. Despite his circumstances, he finds teachers of various sorts during his incarceration, ranging from hardened convicts to an elderly Jesuit priest, under whose tutelage he apparently receives a classical education. Bane murders this priest upon his return to Santa Prisca years later. However, he commits his first murder at the age of eight, stabbing a criminal who wanted to use him to gain information about the prison.[4] During his years in prison, Bane carries a teddy bear he calls Osito (Spanish for "little bear"), whom he considers his only friend.[5] It is revealed that Osito has a hole in his back to hold a knife that Bane uses against anyone who bullies him.[3][4] Bane ultimately establishes himself as the "king" of Peña Dura prison. The prison's controllers take note and eventually force him to become a test subject for a mysterious drug known as Venom,[4] which had killed all other subjects; the drug is administered by a doctor who bears a passing resemblance to another Batman foe, Dr. Hugo Strange. Later, in Vengeance of Bane II the very same doctor encounters Bane again in Gotham and it can be confirmed that it is not Hugo Strange, who at that point in Batman continuity was a crazed psychologist and not a surgeon.[4] The Peña Dura prison Venom experiment nearly kills Bane at first, but he survives and finds that the drug vastly increases his physical strength, although he needs to take it every 12 hours (via a system of tubes pumped directly into his brain) or he will suffer debilitating side-effects.[3][4]

So now I am curious about the background and origins of Bane. I came across this and this looked quite legit when it came to the Cartoons: So check out these to see if some of what is said sounds legit?

 Then as stated in the origins they did bring up Bane in Batman & Robin in '97 I think ( i was young :P )
 But I think they kept the theory that he was doing life and he was the only volunteer that survived. But this new Bane seems like a big big disappointment.

So now I am sad that this is gonna be sucky!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Jesus was not Good

Now this video gives me a better understanding about this individual. I wish that more people would watch this and understand that what they are killing and judging people over is just a story that people in the past forced down peoples throats.

However, Christianity has such a tight hold on a large number of the western world that I might as well keep my mouth shut and move on with my life.

After all this all I can say is Eat Pray Love!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single? #3

Told you it would be sporadic.  Well my sister's third topic was "I settle for the wrong guy".



 My issue is I dont settle for any guy. When someone interesting comes into view like 3 or 4 potential guys would come into view. I then get frustrated and  just stay far from all of them until they all go away.

I remember a time that this guy that I found quite interesting was talking to me and then it is like all my male friends became available again or just wanted some nookie. So I was like... what do I do now? I am not the player type of chick to be stringing all of them along, so I just back away and stay away from all.

It sounds retarded right but it kept me feeling safe for a long time. No one with hurt feelings. But then again I am still single.

This is the reason I am still single cause this has always been my method of solving this problem. It is one that I am hoping to change this new year. There are a few guys that I see that are interesting but I wanna see who I am comfortable with first and then move on from there. Bearing in mind a few of these guys are just interested in the sexual aspect of it. Which is something I am planning to cut out if not completely, by a huge percent. (not that I do it alot but when I do it is always casual.)

I guess if I start letting my guards I will get this issue resolved. We will see.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

New Year Plan (NOT RESOLUTION)

I know I am a whole 5 days late but HAPPY NEW YEARS ALL.

Now I got that out of the way, I shall tell you about this PLAN, notice I didnt say RESOLUTION, because Resolutions tend to be full of crap. I have come across a  post that says Learn a New Skill This Weekend. The area I saw it was an entry saying learn a new skill every weekend in 2012.



So far I havent made up my mind on what Skill will be my first. However, next week I will be registering for Spanish Classes. So that is a first step toward my goal.



I have the basic knowledge for Bartendinge maybe I should do the full skill of Bartending.



 I do believe to pick a Skill I shall use the website Lifehacker.com to find a skill then I will research as much about it and then do them. Maybe I will do blog posts about them :D

Well wish me good luck since this is gonna be an interesting challenge for me in the year 2012. My ending goal is to know a little about everythign and alot about one thing (I dont remember who says that but it is gonna be my mantra for this year)

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

In Time Review

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!POSSIBLE SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THIS MOVIE YET DONT READ (UNLESS YOU NEVER GONNA WATCH THE MOVIE)
Here is the trailer so that you dont have to go through this blog entry for nothing :D


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Well if you scrolled pass my lil thingy there that means you have seen the movie or just dont give a shit.
Note well: I am not a certified food critic, I am a girl and have all right to be Bias where necessary.

I went to our local cinema to see this movie for their $5 EC Wednesday special (Big ups to Deluxe Cinemas) The movie started out at a very good pace, you understood what was going on and the jest of what was going on. Then the ultimate moment happened really soon into the movie, he saved that guys life and got the time while the guy gone and commit suicide at the age of 105. Nice right.
The pace of the movie after that was very good as well after this cause it gave you a chance to make your own conclusions and so forth.

Then there was the Romeo & Juliet scene where they met and they danced and they went for a swim. However they didnt die. They actually started to rob banks and shit - Bonnie & Clyde scene, and then give it to all the ppl in the ghetto - Robin Hood.

The story line was sick, the actors(actresses) were really good and the movie was just really phenomenal

TOLD YOU I WASNT A CRITIC BUT BEARING IN MIND I AM SLEEPY I SHALL END WITH THIS:
It is a good movie and I would recommend that you watch it if you havent and hope you enjoyed it as much as I did if you did.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Weekly Address: The President and First Lady Thank our Troops for their ...

I might be a day late but we in Antigua are celebrating today as Christmas as well!!! I hope all of you have a great Christmas season and enter the new year with Health, Wealth and prosperity.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

A predicament!

Ok I am in a predicament. I actually like a guy who likes me and I think I am brave enough to check him out. :| But I am also talking to another dude who I know he is interested in me and I find him interesting. Now I am like should I see what happens with this first dude and hope shit goes well.
My fear is that I will give up on it really quickly or I might be tooo clingy (like giving cling wrap a run for its money) But then it runs through my mind what if it isnt even like that, what if he just wants a shag and then move on ?(I know I used shag and that is British and I am not but I am watching Misfits :P) But yeah. Or even worst he is over obsessed or I am over obsessed? Now what if it turns out I marry this dude (ok i know I am jumping the gun here) but what if it happens?
Normally I would just wait for this wave to pass (wave as in a group of guys interested in me at the same time since that is how it turns out to happen all the time) I just dont know :(

Well this was just a random thought that I figured I should put out in the cyberworld for it to be swallowed up and move on with my life.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single? #2

The second topic my sister had done was "Childhood Issues".

Now I dont want you to think I am just copying off of my sister but we are closer than we think we are. While her childhood issue was around specific events, mine was on my entire growing up from primary school up to now. 

Because I was a big girl when I was young, I looked like I(or maybe even had) matured even faster than necessary. So I was getting all this attention from guys who was in their 20s and 30s (even 40s) and I was 8-10. So from that age I noticed that I had some power being a woman and all but because of my age (and the fact that I was always around family and family friends) I pretty much had to ward off any attention that I used to get. So I had always loved wearing baggy clothes (men's jeans and a large or extra large shirt). That did very well for a long time. But then when I was in high school one of my teachers told my mom that I should be wearing proper girly clothes (bearing in mind this teacher was a guy).

So one day my grades was really low (I cant tell if it was end of yr or end of term) but my mom was soo upset with me that she told me not to wear my baggy clothes anymore. :(   That made me sad but I knew she was very serious. So since then all the attention came back and I have been turning guys down ever since. It has now become a norm to turn down guys. :(  I know this is lame but unless I make a conscious effort to hang out with a male friend (or friends kinda force me to) 

It even comes unconsciously because one of my friends was asking me out when I was in Uni and I gave all kinda excuses of why I wasnt gonna go. When my roommates noticed what was going on they basically arranged for me to go. 

So guys bear with me I am a hard nut to crack but once opened I can be pretty cool!!

Happiness vs Fulfillment

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It is a little long (ok hella long) but it makes you think about the purpose of life. It is a good watch.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single?

My sister had done a couple posts on "Why am I single". I dont think I am as dedicated as she is, so these will be very sporadic. Maybe even every time I see one for her.
So, the first one she did was "I look Christian".


I have been addressed with this before as well. To be honest a few weeks ago one of the guys at work asked me if I was a Christian. I answered no, he then asked me if I was married. Again my answer was no, but then I asked why? He then said "Oh, you look and act like a Christian."

I was once again shocked that just because I am not ask loud and obnoxious as most non-christian women in Antigua are.While my sister said she was a non-practicing Pentecostal, I am more on the verge of full on Atheist. I must say that there are a few things that I cant answer as an atheist (like ghost and the power of prayer) but I must say Science and Logic has and can cancel out alot of crap that we are fed.

So I might lose some friends or people might look at me a different way but I am one of the farthest things from Christian. Shoot, the only reason I haven't acted out what runs through my mind is because of my family reputation as a M**** and my personal reputation that I would live with for the rest of my life.

So, please and thank you, stop asking and assuming that I am Christian or Married. I am just a morally adjusted person. And dont label me either cause that wont help either.