Monday, April 30, 2012

Hunger Games -Psychology (BOOK ONE- HUNGER GAMES)

(IF YOU HAVE NOT READ THE BOOK PLEASE SKIP THIS POST. ONLY IF YOU READ THE BOOK YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUGGLES ARE FACED BY EACH CHARACTER. PLUS THERE MIGHT BE SOME SPOILERS SO I WILL GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO TURN AWAY BEFORE IT IS TOOO LATE AND YOU GET MAD AT ME)




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These are in no specific order except by book!

I have been reading the Hunger Games trilogy and everybody talks about how it depicts the world we live in and all that political and social jazz. But no one ever talks about the psychological aspect of it. As you read the first book you see all the different effects the games have on each individual in the book.There is the moment when Primrose get picked to enter the Hunger Games and the psychological trauma that hit Katniss when she heard her sister's name called. Which caused her to volunteer.

There is the culture shock of Katniss and Peeta when they leave their home to go to the Capital. Seeing people they have never seen before who are dressed way different from what they have ever witnessed. Interacting with all these people and their lifestyles. Which is obviously going to happen however it isnt as bad because they see some of it when they watch some of it on TV. But as they say seeing it and living it are two different things.

Then Katniss is eager to win the Games and get back home to her little sister which has made her show her mentor that she is serious about leaving the Games alive. This eagerness then puts her in a vulnerable spot where she has to follow all of her mentors advise whether it makes her comfortable or not.

The Capital people not paying attention so forcing her to do something drastic which puts her in a position where other contestants are even more willing to kill her.

Then entering the arena knowing that people are trying to kill her at every point. And the living conditions may not be suitable to people who are not accustomed. For people who are middle class today would die within the first week because of the severe survival conditions. However Katniss was used to that outdoorsy conditions. There were a few people who didnt survive because of mutations that they Capital has placed in the arena, the harsh conditions caused them to do items which made them easy prey for other competititors (aka tributes), they were bad thieves, or were just brutally killed by other tributes.

Katniss being given cookies by the father of the tribute from the same district. Not sure if it was a trick to make her into trusting thus her throwing away the cookies.

Katniss seeing Peeta with the group of Careers (the tributes in district 1,2 & 4) that must have really made her thing that he was really out of it and she wouldnt care if she had to kill him.

Peeta telling everyone that he has loved Katniss since she was a little girl and she never knew until just that night. So the "odds" were not in their favor.

Katniss having to work closely with Peeta, and then on the final day of training he says that he wants to train separately.

When entering the arena and seeing all the people that would have to die just to win.

Katniss looked over at Peeta and he shook his head as in to not go into the Cornocopia  and then he runs to the Cornocopia.

Befriending Rue and then watching her die in her arms. Especially since Rue reminded her of her little sister.

Noticing that Haymitch is communicating with her through the gifts.

Having to prove that she and Peeta are actually star-crossed lovers just to survive.

Encountering Thresh who saves her from Clove and spares her life because she befriended and tried to save Rue.

Seeing the Muttations torture Cato then having to put him out of his misery by killing him with a kill shot to the head.

Getting Stung by the Tracker Jacket Wasp resulting in all that crazy ass hallucinations.

Watching Peeta telling her to run because the Careers are coming back to kill her.

Finding out from Rue that Peeta has abandoned the Careers but has been gravely injured.

Finding Peeta among the rocks after they inform everyone that the districts who win both tributes will live.

After killing Cato hearing that only one victor can leave the arena.

While on the Cornocopia having Peeta severely injured by the Mutts and then he is captured by Cato which forces her to use her arrow and shoot his hand forcing Cato to let go of Peeta and fall to his torturous doom.

Listening for hours Cato being tortured by the mutts in the Cornocopia and hearing his moans without him dying.

Having Peeta try and kill himself by trying to bleed out to death.

Coming up with the plan to commit suicide so there are no victors resulting on both of them becoming Victors.

Going back to the Capital and finding out that the President and everyone isnt too pleased with that act of rebellion forcing her to play up the star-crossed lovers bit. Making it seem like she was forced to do so because she was so madly in love with Peeta that she had to save both of them.

Going back home to Gale and her family having everyone think that she and Peeta are in love when in truth she is in love with Gale.

The nightmares which come every night. That is basically PTS which after a mentally grueling experience your brain stores everything and replays it over and over. Something that you see is common among War veterans. The thought of her Killing Peeta would have probably took her over the edge and in the day and age we live in now she would probably try to kill herself.

Her relationship with her mother before and after the Games where before she had no use for her mother since when her father died her mother went into automatic lock down. Then after she was forced to open up to her mother due to her near death experiences and her present vulnerability.

So after you read the book and you witness all of these mental back and forths that she go through you understand why she is the way she is in the final book. This is also the reason why I hated the movie. The movie hardly if at all any of these psychological issues and all of these is what makes the book what it is. But then again how can you put all of that ^ in a movie and make it interesting for everyone. You can't.

Well hope you enjoyed it as much as I did.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!


Sunday, April 29, 2012

Old Movies: To Sir With Love

One of my most favourite oldies is to Sir with love!!


Another Sidney Poitier movie which I saw when I was a little girl and I remembered the song by Lulu and one day I decided to look up the movie and watched it and fell all in love with him and the movie again.

I came across the entire movie on youtube as well but they are in pieces so I shall link you to part one right HERE!!!

This is a movie that I dont even have to give introduction to SO JUST ENJOY!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Friday, April 27, 2012

Old Movies: Paris Blues (1961)

I had seen a gif of part of this movie and I remembered youtube would have full movies. So I checked to see if it was likely and just as I thought I found the full movie of Paris Blues.

I have always been a sucker for older movies as you can tell and I am even more a sucker for Sidney Poitier. I even know I will name one of my kids (male or female) Sydney/Sidney.

I find this movie different from the romances of today where the romances follow the same sequence all the time. While with older movies like this they dont follow a specific dynamic other than the dynamic of life. I have been coming across a lot of media pieces which enforces in my mind that life is what it is: an unpredictable chain of evens. Whether it is in your control or not. You just have to hang on for the ride and hope that you dont become (emotionally, mentally or physically) sick!

Now ENJOY!!!



OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

IMPRESS PEOPLE??




After seeing this picture I was like yea this is so true. The main reason people buy shit is to impress others.

But then I was thinking about myself and most of the things are not to impress others but to make me happy.
I enjoy standing out from the crowd (well used to) and I love being comfortable and so on. However, other things I do buy are used to distract me from other stuff.

Eg.
I look at my wardrobe and get depressed everytime i think about putting on clothes that are not my work clothes. I have gained back the weight that i lost when I first started working. So most of my clothes are either boring or cant fit me. SO I need to buy clothes that (1) will make me feel happy and (2) fit me properly. When it comes to clothes, sometimes when I accessorize I feel like I am in a different world or at least different country.

Eg. 2
I am here listening to 3 songs on repeat and (yes I know I am going to go deaf really soon) I enjoy listening to music really really loud. Then I remembered the Info Tech girl at work has a Beats  headphones (the headphones that Dr Dre invented) But she told me she got it as a gift so I decided to look it up and found out that the one she has costs around $170USD and I see why she loves it soo much. So now that I am in this numb mood I just want to drown out everything and crank the music up but my small little headphones dont go that high :( So I feel gypped. So now I am in the mood to by an imitation that I can distract myself from this feeling.

Eg. 3
I have a phone that I am satisfied with it and happy that I can do all sorts of cool things with. If my computer goes down, it would be a good substitute. I spent approx. $400USD (conversion approx. $1000EC) on this damn piece of stuff. I have made up my mind that if anything happens to this I will get a cheap ass phone and if anyone wants to reach me they can text or call me (as if anyone wants to reach me) So the purpose of buying this phone is to have other distractions from the world and I can communicate with some ppl.

So my version of the picture above is actually in relation that I want to detach myself from my present mental state. I want to feel like I am somewhere else and even someone else and I want to distract myself from what is going on around me.

I find this is an even worst condition than trying to impress people.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Something is wrong

I have noticed that I havent been in the correct mind frame lately. I have been very bitter and having other peoples opinions and judgments affect how I think. I am not sure if it is the work environment I am in but after this week vacation I noticed that I needed it badly, just to get away from that bad negative vibes. I have heard that resorts are very hard work but I was never told that I would become soo bitter.

This vacation has made me notice that the character which made me want to go into the hospitality industry was slipping quickly into an abyss of negativity. I know I have always been dangerous (as in had a hint of backstabbing) but it is getting even worst now. There are literally a handful of people who make feel normal at work. The rest I feel I have to put up a show.

I have also stopped caring. Like I am not being challenged anymore. i am not learning anything anymore. I enjoy learning. This lack of caring has gone into my personal life where I dont even care about how I look, how I keep my personal space, I dont care about going out, I hardly talk to any of my friends, I even dont care how I treat my body.

It also killed me that I have become so alienated from my mother's business. I dont know anything or anyone. Yesterday I spent a few hours there and I just wanted to cry.

This may just be hormonal depression but I dont like it.

Well my vacation is ending tomorrow. Tuesday I am going back to work and I am going to try and get back to the place or the person who I rather have taking the greater steps into the future.

I feel very numb right now!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Gotye- Lyrics- Somebody That I Used To Know (feat. Kimbra)

Not to be a troll but the first time I saw this video I was like omfg his mouth is FUCKING HUGE!!!! but then I saw other pics of him with a beard and mustache and saw he was one of those dudes who were born to wear a beard and mustache. Then I was like omg his teeth!!!! But then as I continued watching the videos I am like damn this dude is really good looking. But kinda like a good looking Vampire cause his mouth is huge and everytime he opens his mouth I am expecting to see Fangs!!!

Now to get to the music!!! I am smitten, I am listening to it for like the 6th time right now and as soon as I finish posting this I will be watching it a couple more times and then just have it playing in the back ground because I am freaking addicted to this song. It reminds me of Fun's song "We are young". Just something addictive and see this is the 7th time I am listening to it. Gosh!!! I would love to see this in concert! :(

Enjoy and try not getting tooooooooo addicted.



OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Regie Cabico - What kind of guys are attracted to me on Def Jam Poetry

Def Poetry: Phylicia Rashad- 'On Status' (Official Video)

Monday, April 16, 2012

rhapsody in blue



This takes me to another place when I listen to it!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong - April in Paris.

Concerts

Man one thing I do envy the mainlanders about are their ability to go to concerts all over the place. After watching this I realized that although I dont know most of the artists that are playing there are a few great great ones which I would love to see and I suspect that the rest are the indie version of the great ones. Antigua does have their concerts (more like sound clashes) but they deal mainly with soca, reggae, calypso, and dancehall. All of which I do not follow religiously. However when I was in the states I did hear about all kinda concerts that not only happened in RI but in Boston as well during the summer. But because I am a closed minded island girl who allows her fears to control her life I came home every Summer I always miss all of these. :( Or even when they have all these live indie shows in England or the EUROVISION which even though I wouldnt understand one word 3/4 of them are singing the cool rhythm and melodies would make me happy. There are music festivals that come to the Caribbean like the St. Lucia Jazz Festival, St. Kitts Music Festival And all the islands lil shows and carnivals but it is soo expensive to go to each island that you have to either be rich or dedicated enough to go. Shit if music did this to this cool old man guess what it does to me: So I shall end with this cool A Capella OXXO Mayeshah!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Random thoughts: Looper

I just watched the movie trailer for Looper. Check it out here:


Well I know that this is one movie that I know I will enjoy watching kinda like .... uuhhh.... that movie with .... Justin Timberlake..... aaarrrggghhh.........fuck.... IN TIME!!! YES!!!! But then it popped into my mind. How many times do you relive a situation if you do go back in time and face yourself. Think about it you are young now and you meet the older you. When you get older you are going to go back to meet the younger you. Then when the younger you gets older they will go back in time to see the younger you. So dont you think it is one continuous time travel. However they did have a show: Misfits that had an interesting twist to it. You should check out Misfits to understand. However if you travel back in time and your younger-self kills the older you then it kinda ends there? or does the younger you keeps killing the older you. Now see this would be even more of a mind fuck if I did drugs like weed or something. OH WELL OXXO Mayeshah"!!!!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Baltimore? Providence? Jamaica?? Nope Antiguans!!!

It is crazy how simple minded I am. When I was in high school I was in class with this girl (yes i was in class with many girls but they not the point of the story) and he last name was the name of a city, Baltimore. And I could have sworn that someone had told me that she was from Baltimore.


Then I found out she was from Antigua

and I never shared this mix up with anyone until now. And this actually came back to mind when I saw a girl on my fb and her name was Providence and I could have sworn (the reason I dont swear) that she was from Providence and I had met her there.


But once again I was wrong and she is from out cute lil island of Antigua.



Oh don't even talk about the Author Jamaica Kincaid.


Frig I thought she was from friggin JAMAICA!!!!


Then I read her biography and where is she from????



 Antigua!!!!


So now if I see anyone who has the name of a city or country my first bet would be they are from Antigua and then I will move out from there!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Old Movie: Maximum Overdrive (1986)

Now I have no idea what was going on in my head when I saw this movie. I think this was when ABS (Antigua Broadcasting Station) was just playing the most random movies ever. It kinda made me weary of using electronics and vehicles. But I might take some time out of my life and watch this again. I dont think I found it scary like Poltergeist but it was more like wtf.


OXXO Mayeshah!!!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Old Movie: Teen Witch 1989 (Full Movie)

I have watched this entire movie again and I was amazed at how corny good it was. I would love love love to have been there to just be like WOW!!!! It came out when i was 2 and I laughed sooo much during this movie when I watched it last night. SO I would advise you to take an hour and a half out of your day to enjoy this movie which reminds you of the days before technology when ppl actually gave a damn.



OXXO
Mayeshah!!!

Friday, April 6, 2012

Old Movies: Casino Royale (1967)

When I was younger I had come across a few movies that I just cant forget. There is one which I never knew it's name and I think it was bought ( it was a VHS movie) under the guise of being a 007 James Bond Movie!!!!  However, It turned out to be one of the many 007 spoofs and the worst one at that. But being my young self and noticing that there was no coherence in this movie I noticed it was a spoof and loved it never the less. So I had just finished watching Teen Witch (1989) ( you should check it out, it is the entire movie) and my wandering mind took me to Zelda Rubenstein, to Poltergeist, to this lil girl in Poltergeist, to this movie (the final link was a situation that I had seen poltergeist when I was young). So I googled it and went through a lot of the 007 spoofs that Wiki would show me and finally came across CASINO ROYALE!!! Not the Casino Royale that just came out that I havent seen in it's entirety, but the Casino Royale from 1967 (20 yrs before i was born). So I was actually suspicious about this movie not being the funny ass spoof of my childhood. But then I saw the trailer and was satisfied that it was. The trailer:


So I continued looking at the videos that Google provided for me and came across these and it basically gives you the low down of what you would expect if you actual caught your eyes viewing this entire movie in it's entirety (which I believe after these videos you will not)



I believe I shall bring a couple more Old movies that I remember in future posts.


OXXO
Mayeshah!!!