Crown Royal

I have no idea if I have shared my love with Jill Scott's song Crown Royal on Ice. It is actually shorter than most of her other song but I love it soooo much that I have to share it with you.




Tell me that didnt take you to a place that made you wanna be doing such sensual acts.

To be or not to be ... sexy!

Ok Saturday I was talkin to a girl who is presently in her final year of high school and she was telling me of her Christmas Eve Plans. Which included walking up and down the main street in the city and going partying and Dressing up "SEXY".

Since I am soo accustomed to working on Christmas Eve into Christmas morning at my mom's store. But then when i look back there are times I did envy my friends and wanted to just walk up and down and go to parties on Christmas Eve. And not only that but to dress up Sexy.

Because I am very self conscious about my body and all kinda other things.
When I look at myself I see this:

But it seems that when others see me they see something more like this:

But I want to dress more sexy to go with how I wanna feel. But I have such a terrible wardrobe to be dressing sexy on a regular basis. :(

There are times when I am like "Ohh who wants to look sexy anyway. Sexy is most def not for me." Then other times I am like "I wish I was a girl who can pull off shorts and a sexy top and not be thought of as FAT.

Friday I was called fat by just some random man who for all I know I might never see again. But then I was told that I shouldn't eat anything for the rest of the day (while eating mixed nuts as a mid-morning snack) by someone who I would consider as a close acquaintance. And that just hurts because this person always does it when I would eat anything around her. (and the mixed nuts was the only thing I had eaten up to that point in the day) . So after she had said that to me and she went back to where she works I couldnt help but think "maybe she is right. I am too fat and I should stop eating. I should just starve. Then I would be able to be slim." And during all these thoughts I just started to cry.

It hurts everytime that ppl are like "where you ah get fat go.""you are getting too fat""you eatin up all the food and not leavin any for your sister" " how come you so big and your sister is so small"
I try to not take it on but when ppl are throwing it in my face on a regular basis it hurts. Shit I am even exercising trying to lose the weight but still nothing.

So hopefully I can figure out a way to not only feel good about myself but to make myself look "sexy" so that I would feel happy and not resentful of all the "sexy" ppl around me.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

With the Trans!

So last night I was going through the blogs that i follow and one of them that I have been following for a while now has put up this story. After reading what she had to say and watched the video documentary that the guy had I felt sooo WARM INSIDE!!!!

This is her explanation:

i love this story! it’s hilarious. This guy in Australia, James West, has been on this email chain from the Tran Family who live in Florida for 3 years. They email about Thanksgiving and making all the preparations for it. Somehow they got the wrong James West on the chain and after 3 years he actually responded to an email and asked to be invited to Thanksgiving dinner, and now he’s there in Florida with them!! It’s so funny!

Here is the first of this documentary:



This is his youtube page where you can see how he tracked them down, meeting them, enjoying Thanksgiving,and meeting the actual James West that they were looking for.

Hope it makes you as happy as it made me!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Bass Fun feat. Mikelo - Neverending dream

Dirty Bit

All I gotta say is THANKS SWIZZ



OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

I Luff Life

Since I want to open up my own hotel/b&b/inn I had decided to keep this blog as one of them that I need to follow.

While going through it I came across this video.


It kinda makes me wish that we had easy access to random stuff like that in Antigua. I loved her eye for interior designing and for a budget. So out of curiosity I decided to check out her website (which had been labeled soo cute) WWW(dot)ILUFFLIFE(dot)COM.

So if you are in America and you need your place fixed up maybe you can contact this chick

OXXO

Mayeshah

Some interesting songs on swizzbnkr

Here are a few songs that I came across on Swizz's blog
All I gotta say with this one is "you just gotta love Pharrell" NERD power


OMG This is something I would love to make love to. Not even just sex but MAKE LOVE!!! GOSH!!!!


This is just amazing to watch and hear.Plus I really like this song

FULL SCREEN
/ Bilal: Tainted Love   

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Quadron - Average Fruit

All I gotta say is CLOSE YOUR EYES AND OPEN YOUR EARS!!!
ok the video isnt that bad but come on not for such a good song!!

FULL SCREEN
The Sounds of VTech / Quadron: Average Fruit Video

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Cuffing Season

Probably this is why all them brothas be poppin out of the woodworks trying to hit me up.

It's "cuffing season".

Chris Faust Presents: Cuffing Season f. Cocoa Sarai (prod. by L. Quest) from Chris Faust on Vimeo.

The question is am I ready to be cuffed. I surprised a guy i just met when i told him i single like when i was born. (I didnt mean for him to figure out that I have been single my whole life but he figured it out.) Oh well.

But you see these videos always give me a visual of how I would love to enjoy being in a relationship but I doubt it would ever be like that.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Bright Lights Bigger City

I would honest to Gosh get this album by Cee-Lo Green. First F*** You and now this. hello, he is on a roll!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Car moods

It was just the other day I was sharing with my sister my views about Cars (well their headlights at least). I was waiting for the stoplight to change and a car came out of the corner gas station and the headlights made the car look soo sad. It was a minivan and my heart went out to it.

Then right now I am going through my home boy's blog and I saw this car and I felt scared. It looks soo mean and mad. Hell it looks like a pissed off cat who is about to pounce.!!!


And then I came up to the back and the back lights look just as pissed off to have all that power. It is soooo creepy. I swear if I was on a deserted road and then I came up on this mad car I would either turn around or wait back till he is gone!

Well yea I gonna keep lookin for stuff :D

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

ZAZ - Le Long de la Route

Ok I have no idea what this girl is saying but this is quite amusing!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Most popular post/issues/Barbuda!

It seems like the most popular post on my ENTIRE BLOG is "7 Elegant Steps 2 Heels By Myst". And then there were some random people who just appeared to read my most interesting thoughts and things that people in my everyday interaction would be like "WTF are you still talking for." Bearing in mind there are a few people who because of their relations to me they have to endure this long winded and highly crazy experience.

Well I am now convinced something is highly wrong with me. I had called a hotel yesterday and I had asked if they had any openings. I dunno if it was the quickness the conversation started and ended or the fact that she was so cheery when she said it or what I dunno. But when she said no they dont have any openings and I can leave an application if any openings open up, I started to cry after hanging up.
 

I know it is lame of me and you are probably asking wtf everyone goes through that, but I try to avoid being put in that situation. I try not to do things or say things that might be rejected or denied to me. It has come to the point where if I want something from my parents I think of how important it is to me, if i can get over it if I get turned down, how I gonna accomplish telling my parents, and then telling them with my fingers crossed. So in other words I am the type of person who takes Calculated risks. Maybe it is the family I live in or the fact that I am a female (studies say that women are more likely to take safer risks when trading on the stock market). I also believe that This is the main reason that I try not to interact with the male species too much because I cry real easy. I might pretend that I dont care when I am out of the situation but in it I more than care.

Well one risk that I am assuming would be healthy for me is working in our sister island Barbuda (thus Antigua and Barbuda). There is a job fair at a hotel over there and I wouldnt mind doing it. It was mad short notice because shiiit it is tomorrow (Saturday). In the beginning I was like yay this is great, then my mom informed me about her slight dislike of the idea (due to an incident which occurred to a family friend) and then the fact that I might actually be going alone for the 6 hrs I will be in Barbuda.  Then the situation where I wouldnt be able to help out my sister at the Hardware. Gosh it is messed up. But in my mind I am going. no doubt about it.

Well it is too early for my ass to be up so i gonna go back to sleep and holla at yall on the flip side.

OXXO


Mayeshah!!!

Last night (13/11/2010)

So Last night was sooo cool, I am happy that I went out last night except I am sad that I didnt go to see For Colored Girls with my girls.

Well instead I went to a open mic poetry reading with my ma and sis that takes place at Best of Books (BOB) on Frairs' Hill Road in the Royal Palm Place complex. That was just fun! Every month they have a new theme and this month was "It was Fun While It Lasted."
Man they had some great poems, makes me wish I was lyrically skilled like them. And a challenge is conducted where someone in the audience would say a word and the person at the podium will have to say a poem or describe the word in one minute. There was all kinda fun stuff and lots of laughter.

After the open mic we went to the C&C wine house where some of my ppl were hanging out enjoying the Karaoke. Mom and my sis left me with my friends and we drank we talked we listened to the other ppl doing their Karaoke.
 
I with my love for dry wines I had hated the wine my friends were drinkin and I ordered a red wine. When I had finished my first glass of wine I had gone inside and was talking to some of the regulars at the wine house. Then from out of no where I hear 2 girls talking about a party. So me in my happy go lucky typsy state turn to one of the girls and say "I want to come too!!"

The girl was like "sure, it is a American Thanksgiving Party"  I asked her if it was the same day as Thanksgiving, she said yes the 25th. I told her that that was my birthday. And she was like ohh even better we can celebrate your birthday as well. Then she told me the location (which happened to be on the AUA campus) and everything
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So hopefully I will go because it seems like it would be great.

I had then gotten my drink and went back outside. Then drank off my drink once again. So I went inside and saw this guy. I, knowing lots of ppl, figured oh I think I know this dude. So I say hi all smiley and shit. Next thing he is motioning to me and i move in closer and he is like "I am sorry but how do I know you?" Noticing that he dont know me, I realize i dont know him either. So i told him I dont know him. H told me that how I was saying hi it seemed like I knew him. I said I tend to do that.

For the next like 2 mins we were just flirting and stuff and he was asking me where he can see me again. So I told him about our love for the wine bar so hopefully I see him again soon. If not that was a great couple mins of flirting.

Well the night ended and all that jazz, my guy friend dropped me home and i went to bed. lol

well i am bout to go and clean up the kitchen so ttfn

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

BLAHHH. Drown!!

Howdy guys and gals,

Welcome to a new post by your host Mayeshah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know, I am lame as hell.

Ok so last night was interesting for me and I would love to do it over again. Excluding some parts. But yea...this is not a post on the events of last night. It is a post of what came to mind when i was out last night.

The thought is - Can someone vomit underwater???

So with my quick internet resources and the many ppl around the world that thinks of interestingly odd things like I do (or I try to) I came across this answer on Yahoo Answers:

I wouldn't even think about it. Psychologically you cannot control the instinct to breathe while vomiting so, your going to take a deep breathe of what, water, and, drown. It's a uncontrolled reaction and your body doesn't care if your under water or in the open.

Source(s):

Former MedLab Technologist supervisor (retired)

Now tell me that isnt like the most epic visual ever.  Hmm well it is to me :P

So now I am going to do something personal that if i state it hear all of you will be like OMG TMI!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

REMEMBER, REMEMBER THE 5TH OF NOVEMBER!!

I also meant to do a post on this but the day came and left and I was unable to spread my interest in this


 
Yes you got it right The 5th of November was yesterday bitches!!!

For those of you who dont know the situation with the 5th of November here is the Wiki definition

Guy Fawkes Night, also known as Bonfire Night, is an annual celebration held primarily in Great Britain, on or about the evening of 5 November. Festivities are centred on the use of fireworks and the lighting of bonfires. Some British Overseas Territories and parts of the Commonwealth continue to celebrate the occasion due to their links to the United Kingdom.
Historically, the celebrations mark the anniversary of the failed Gunpowder Plot of 5 November 1605. The date was originally made a public holiday in England by the Observance of 5th November Act 1605, also known as the "Thanksgiving Act" which was repealed in 1859.

The thing I know most about this day is that when I was younger one of the big department stores in Antigua would sell fireworks. and when i say sell fireworks I mean ppl would be coming out with 2 or 3 bags of big and small fireworks. That department store used to say hundreds of thousands fireworks. So in Antigua this time of year would be known as "BOMB SEASON". However with everything good it had come to an end because evil minded people went about and did inappropriate things with these fireworks :(

So now I am only showing my respect to the occasion which had brought me such joy as a child :)

But I keep noticing that life isnt getting any longer and I have been asked to go to the club and skinny dipping. So when i saw this I was like hmm that is what is actually happening to my life meter everytime I turn down the option to do something fun in my life. But I never really went out that much when i was younger so I will have to take babysteps in getting into the public scenes.


OXXO

Mayeshah!!! 

Gone for a while but back in business!!

Blogger oh blogger how sadly i have neglected you!!! :(

But worry not. This neglect is not out of hatred, frustration or the fact that I have a short attention span. no no no.

It is the fact that now that i have no stationary place to keep my laptop I just dont have the urge to be typing an entire Epistle on my lap. (No offense but that is way too uncomfortable to do)

But worry not I shall try my utmost hardest to keep you updated with my day to day experiences or at least a few entries a week.

Shoot I dont even watch my youtube subs as much as I used to :(

However to give you a lil rundown, I am in Antigua for 5 months now and have been working with both my parents while they have been going through different situations (such as the caring and passing of my grandfather, the release of a long time staff member, surgery, and maybe a few other things that I am leaving out presently) I have continued on my search for a job and I might get an opening at one of the Rex Resorts located in Antigua thanks to one of my dad's close friends. I have gotten my CSME (Caricom Single Market and Economy) Certificate. (well i am getting it this Tuesday). I have been doing a work out program with the Hospital which me and my sister has been doing for the past 5 weeks. I dont see much difference in weight but everything is said to be told by the amount of energy I have.  Still single for my own mental situations.

Now some info that you didnt need to know but I still putting them in.
After the loss of my phone I have finally gotten it back up and running :D

 I have a dentist appointment that I cant afford and I keep pushing back the date so that I could either get a job or accumulate enough money to pay for a root canal. I have a doctors appointment that I dont know what to feel about it. shoot it is just the doctor. I am planning on going skinny dipping in the near near future. hmm. YEA I guess that is all that I can think about right now. Meh.

So I will try and keep up to date with the postage, even if I have to use my mothers computer (which is what i am doing right now. hehehe)

Well I gotta wake up early to go walking and then get ready for work so ttfn

OXXO

Mayeshah