It is another year of crazy which is slowly leading up to the finality of this dreadful year of 2017.
I am experiencing my first Christmas at this new resort and do not feel any way that I am going to have to work on both Christmas Day and Boxing Day. As I tell people when I came into the industry I expected it. I have worked at least 2 Christmases in my entire career and I am looking forward to it.
Pictures will be shared as soon as they are taken.
I am a bit excited as one of the guests which I have grown close to purchased a boat. Lol. Now reading that over it sounds like some. It ass purchase. They bought a beautiful Model Boat named "the H.M.S. Victory"
Well. I hope you are having a great holiday season!!
So I came into the bank at around 10 minutes to 12. The receptionist was doing something and I still had to write up my deposit slip. So I wrote up my slip and noticed that the receptionist has vanished.
It is now 10 past 12 and I believe that she has gone off to lunch. There are around 5 of us at the desk and all the other tellers are watching as it builds up. However, none of them even think to come and say she went to lunch or see if they can reduce the size.
So we wait.
Then the light in the darkness comes to our rescue and takes our documents so that we can leave.
I was watching the below video by the Wong Fu Productions channel on YouTube and it resonated with me. I felt this growing up being an island girl and not feeling like I fit in because I didn't have a lot of the island experiences.
Check out the video, then I will explain a bit:
Hope it made you think as much as it make me. So whether you are one of the stereotypical version of your "label" (whether it be Antiguan, Jamaican, Dominican, Black American, White American, etc) or an "In between", this should have brought some kind of thoughts in how you interact with other people.
In Secondary School I was brought up in my mother's store and was surrounded by all types of people. Learning their cultural norms and morals. Also being the youngest of 3 and having a big 7 and 12 year gap between my siblings I have been exposed to alot more things. So when interacting with people I felt that I have been quite Americanized. People would tell me I am not from Antigua because I speak properly. People would say I dress different or a certain way but that is how I felt comfortable. People would see the kind of music I listened to and be thinking "What stupidness she listening to?" Bearing in mind that Rock (which include Alternative Rock Grunge/Punk Rock, and Heavy Metal) which surprisingly was my outlet for my confused coming of age mind.
So there were many times that I just never fit in. I remember one girl mentioning that if I was in America I would be a Goth and then mentioning that I am an Oreo (black on the outside and white on the inside).
I figured the next course of action is to attend a University where I will be around the culture I have been compared to most, The Americans. You can kinda say that it is almost as if I studied the American Culture through TV and the few times I visited New York or Miami.
Yay!! I was accepted to attend the Johnson & Wales University. North enough to get away from most Caribbean people. This way I can florish in my learned environment. But you know how the Freshman blues go and although I met a few awesome White Americans, I never did fit in. Even worst for the Black Americans. So I hung with people who I felt comfortable with or who was around me.
But the bricks fell into place when I went on my study abroad to Leeds, England. During my orientation I met a few White American girls and even though they were nice to me and invited me out with them there was that disconnect. I figured it out when we were sitting down outside eating while on one of our Trips (either Dublin, York or Wales). They were sharing all these things that they experienced growing up and I had NO connection to any of it. No matter how much I watched TV or visited a few States occasionally, I would never get those experiences.
At that moment, I accepted that I was different. An "In Betweener" (well at the time I didn't have a term for it).
Now being in the work world and still being quite different to many of the people I am around I don't feel this need to fit in. However, when people bring up that I am being fake, or white, or even exhibting American or British culture, it kind of hurts. But I just brush it off and move on because that is the type of person I am.
On the other hand, if you are one who falls into the stereotype of whatever label or culture you are in, please understand the world is not black and white but a vast majority of different shades of grey. Do not judge people because they different. Do not keep pointing out what you define as weird because that is making the In Betweener feel very uncomfortable and self conscious.
Thank you for taking your time to read my rambling.
For the past few weeks everyone asking me if I feel cold. Or saying the air has been quite chilly. I tell them "Hell no! This is the kind of weather I enjoy!!!"
The crisp air. The cool breeze. The lightness in the atmosphere. These all make me feel one thing! EXCITED!!
"Why Excited?" you ask. EXCITED because it is almost Christmas!!! Which means awesome Christmas movies, Christmas specials, Christmas music, Christmas cheer and just an overall awesome feeling!! How can you not enjoy this time of year!!
OKAY, okay... The past few years the Christmas feeling was not here but that was because it was still HOT!! Yes we in the Caribbean but shit that Crispy breeze makes me feel all cheerful and joyous!!
It's Christmas baby and nothing 2017 can do to take this great feeling away from me!!!
My blog has been quite dormant. The last post I did was all the way in May and I feel so sad about this. So I figured since my laptop is giving me so much issues to type I will find another way to share my thoughts.
So I downloaded the Blogger App. So far I am enjoying it. Maybe I will add some of my Instagram posts on here such as my 25 days to self love.
We will see how this works. Not gonna make any promises but I do see a promising revitalization of my blog now that I am back in a healthy mind frame.
An update of what I have been up to will soon come.
