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I might be a day late but we in Antigua are celebrating today as Christmas as well!!! I hope all of you have a great Christmas season and enter the new year with Health, Wealth and prosperity.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

A predicament!

Ok I am in a predicament. I actually like a guy who likes me and I think I am brave enough to check him out. :| But I am also talking to another dude who I know he is interested in me and I find him interesting. Now I am like should I see what happens with this first dude and hope shit goes well.
My fear is that I will give up on it really quickly or I might be tooo clingy (like giving cling wrap a run for its money) But then it runs through my mind what if it isnt even like that, what if he just wants a shag and then move on ?(I know I used shag and that is British and I am not but I am watching Misfits :P) But yeah. Or even worst he is over obsessed or I am over obsessed? Now what if it turns out I marry this dude (ok i know I am jumping the gun here) but what if it happens?
Normally I would just wait for this wave to pass (wave as in a group of guys interested in me at the same time since that is how it turns out to happen all the time) I just dont know :(

Well this was just a random thought that I figured I should put out in the cyberworld for it to be swallowed up and move on with my life.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single? #2

The second topic my sister had done was "Childhood Issues".

Now I dont want you to think I am just copying off of my sister but we are closer than we think we are. While her childhood issue was around specific events, mine was on my entire growing up from primary school up to now. 

Because I was a big girl when I was young, I looked like I(or maybe even had) matured even faster than necessary. So I was getting all this attention from guys who was in their 20s and 30s (even 40s) and I was 8-10. So from that age I noticed that I had some power being a woman and all but because of my age (and the fact that I was always around family and family friends) I pretty much had to ward off any attention that I used to get. So I had always loved wearing baggy clothes (men's jeans and a large or extra large shirt). That did very well for a long time. But then when I was in high school one of my teachers told my mom that I should be wearing proper girly clothes (bearing in mind this teacher was a guy).

So one day my grades was really low (I cant tell if it was end of yr or end of term) but my mom was soo upset with me that she told me not to wear my baggy clothes anymore. :(   That made me sad but I knew she was very serious. So since then all the attention came back and I have been turning guys down ever since. It has now become a norm to turn down guys. :(  I know this is lame but unless I make a conscious effort to hang out with a male friend (or friends kinda force me to) 

It even comes unconsciously because one of my friends was asking me out when I was in Uni and I gave all kinda excuses of why I wasnt gonna go. When my roommates noticed what was going on they basically arranged for me to go. 

So guys bear with me I am a hard nut to crack but once opened I can be pretty cool!!

Happiness vs Fulfillment

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It is a little long (ok hella long) but it makes you think about the purpose of life. It is a good watch.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Why am I single?

My sister had done a couple posts on "Why am I single". I dont think I am as dedicated as she is, so these will be very sporadic. Maybe even every time I see one for her.
So, the first one she did was "I look Christian".


I have been addressed with this before as well. To be honest a few weeks ago one of the guys at work asked me if I was a Christian. I answered no, he then asked me if I was married. Again my answer was no, but then I asked why? He then said "Oh, you look and act like a Christian."

I was once again shocked that just because I am not ask loud and obnoxious as most non-christian women in Antigua are.While my sister said she was a non-practicing Pentecostal, I am more on the verge of full on Atheist. I must say that there are a few things that I cant answer as an atheist (like ghost and the power of prayer) but I must say Science and Logic has and can cancel out alot of crap that we are fed.

So I might lose some friends or people might look at me a different way but I am one of the farthest things from Christian. Shoot, the only reason I haven't acted out what runs through my mind is because of my family reputation as a M**** and my personal reputation that I would live with for the rest of my life.

So, please and thank you, stop asking and assuming that I am Christian or Married. I am just a morally adjusted person. And dont label me either cause that wont help either.

Nuvo Lime Sorbet!!!

OMG!!!

Now that I have found how to get Nuvo in Antigua (a few places have them for around $30-46US), they bring out a new one.


How the hell am I gonna get this one? FUCK ME!!! This is the new Lemon Sorbet (as stated right there ^)
How did I find out about this new one? Because of this beautiful masterpiece of a video from Wale!! And when I saw it I was like :| wtf is that?????!!! and why is it not on my taste buds right now!!!??????

If Anyone has tried it please tell me and if you can send me one post me a comment with your email address so that I can give you my postal address.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!