Touching

Now they say it is better to love and get hurt than never to love at all. But the hurt part is my fear. This piece I got from a site i follow (check them out here).

You can go for weeks without touching another human being. Sure, there’s the occasional brush of the shoulder on a city street, or the brief jolt of an elbow at a crowded show. Those are accidents. But actively being touched, or actively touching somebody else: this is not a regular occurrence. Go without for long enough, and you might forget you’re missing anything. Of course, you feel an inexplicable, mild loneliness—but you can’t put your finger on its cause (pun intended).


Occasionally you’ll find somebody who reminds you that perhaps it’s worth it to risk your shelled safety. You’ll allow yourself the luxury of being touched, and the happiness of touching. Here I refer not to the sexual, but to the sweet and gentle: a kiss, the light scent of someone else’s skin. And then, suddenly and unexpectedly, it’ll be gone, and you’ll have to learn to forget.

Now this line is what scares me even more because not only is it hard to forget but you are going to have to forget something as comforting as a hug or a non sexual kiss. That is why I cant go a long time without touching someone, either a hug (which I would ask someone for if I havent gotten one in a while) or just a simple touch just to have that connection.

OXXO

Mayeshah

Sheneneh's Best

Takin you back in time!!!







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Mayeshah!!!

STEPPING IS BACK!!!

OK I AM A SUCKER FOR WATCHING STEP SHOWS!!! So now that I see that these two artist are bringing it back in their acts I feel all fuzzy inside!!!

First you see that Willow Smith puts it in her video for Whip my hair:


Then She does it own her live performance on the Ellen show:


Then Ciara does me great joy by doing it on the Ellen show!! :


I just hope there are other artist who will make me just as happy as they do!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

DUMB BITCHES!

I came across this video and I believe everything this dude is talking about. I believe that sometimes you just gotta keep sex and love as two separate entities. You have to know that you can have sex and not love the person but you cant love the person without eventually feeling some kinda sexual need from the person (i am talkin about man and woman love).



I also just finished reading a book "Diary of a Sex Fiend" and it basically is the same where just cuz a girl loves to have lots of sex doesnt mean that she is a slut or anything. She just has an over active sex drive and for the right person it could be tamed. Like taming a stallion. The author of this book has a blog but I dont think i can handle reading her stuff along with my other blogs that i follow.But for those interested can check her out HERE

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

The 7 Chakras

I came across this when I was scoring through a random blog!

The 7 Chakras

. 1 - Root chakra
The Root chakra is about being physically there and feeling at home in situations. If it is open, you feel grounded, stable and secure. You don’t unnecessarily distrust people. You feel present in the here and now and connected to your physical body. You feel you have sufficient territory.

If you tend to be fearful or nervous, your Root chakra is probably under-active. You’d easily feel unwelcome.

If this chakra is over-active, you may be very materialistic and greedy. You’re probably obsessed with being secure and resist change.

. 2 - Sacral chakra
The Sacral chakra is about feeling and sexuality. When it is open, your feelings flow freely, and are expressed without you being over-emotional. You are open to intimacy and you can be passionate and lively. You have no problems dealing with your sexuality.

If you tend to be stiff and unemotional or have a “poker face,” the Sacral chakra is under-active. You’re not very open to people.

If this chakra is over-active, you tend to be emotional all the time. You’ll feel emotionally attached to people and you can be very sexual.

3 - Navel chakra
The Navel chakra is about asserting yourself in a group. When it is open, you feel in control and you have sufficient self esteem.

When the Navel chakra is under-active, you tend to be passive and indecisive. You’re probably timid and don’t get what you want.

If this chakra is over-active, you are domineering and probably even aggressive.

. 4 - Heart chakra
The Heart chakra is about love, kindness and affection. When it is open, you are compassionate and friendly, and you work at harmonious relationships.

When your Heart chakra is under-active, you are cold and distant.

If this chakra is over-active, you are suffocating people with your love and your love probably has quite selfish reasons.

. 5 - Throat chakra
The Throat chakra is about self-expression and talking. When it is open, you have no problems expressing yourself, and you might be doing so as an artist.

When this chakra is under-active, you tend not to speak much, and you probably are introverted and shy. Not speaking the truth may block this chakra.

If this chakra is over-active, you tend to speak too much, usually to domineer and keep people at a distance. You’re a bad listener if this is the case.

. 6 - Third Eye chakra
The Third Eye chakra is about insight and visualization. When it is open, you have a good intuition. You may tend to fantasize.

If it is under-active, you’re not very good at thinking for yourself, and you may tend to rely on authorities. You may be rigid in your thinking, relying on beliefs too much. You might even get confused easily.

If this chakra is over-active, you may live in a world of fantasy too much. In excessive cases halucinations are possible.

. 7 - Crown chakra
The Crown chakra is about wisdom and being one with the world. When this chakra is open, you are unprejudiced and quite aware of the world and yourself.

If it is under-active, you’re not very aware of spirituality. You’re probably quite rigid in your thinking.

If this chakra is over-active, you are probably intellectualizing things too much. You may be addicted to spirituality and are probably ignoring your bodily needs.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

poems

Ok I did promise that I will share my crap of poems today. I didnt get to share them at the poetry reading but I promised so here they are:

OREO

Black on the outside
White on the inside
 That is what some people say I am
Just cause I like Heavy Metal
And Rocking out to some Linkin Park
Can't speak a lick of dialect to save my life
I am an oreo

From High School
I have been identified as such
But is it because at times I act and look bougie
Bougie in the sense that I dress appropriately for certain occasions
And act a certain way because I don't know how else to behave
Or because I don't follow the stereotypes of
A TRUE BLACK PERSON

I accept this name
Not because I am a black girl
Who "supposedly" acts white
But because I know that everyone loves Oreos
Cause the cream is soo tasty
And the dark chocolate cookie makes it
Even more delectable.

THICK, CHUBBY, FLUFFY

Ship, Whale, House
Fat, Chunky, Humongous
Curvaceous, Voluptuous
Thick, Chubby, Fluffy

These are a few of the names
That some girls are given
When they got on a lil extra pounds

But does anyone know how offensive it really is?

You need to stop eating up all the food
You need to go on a diet
You need to stop putting on soo much weight

I am not even as big as some people out there
But my weight is harming you
Some way or another

I don't bother to tell you that I am working on it
I don't bother to tell you that I don't eat anymore because of you
I don't bother to tell you that because of you I am even more depressed than usual
Instead I just hide-away in my corner and cry

Mad at you
For making me feel this way
Mad at me
For allowing you to make me feel this way
Mad at being
Curvaceous, Voluptuous
Thick, Chubby, Fluffy

Well I know this is some serious crap but I did promis so there it is.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

P.S. I dont even know if I would have shared it since I think it is that bad.

12 days of Christmas

Ok I decided to do a backward way of 12 days of Christmas. Instead of starting on Christmas day and going to the first week in January, i am going to count up to Christmas. So since i missed the first day (13th Dec) I shall put the first and second day of Christmas together :D I got this info from THE VOICE

ON THE FIRST DAY OF CHRISTMAS MY TRUE LOVE GAVE TO ME -
A PARTRIDGE IN A PEAR TREE

The partridge in a pear tree is Jesus the Christ, the Son of God, whose birthday we celebrate on December 25, the first day of Christmas. In the song, Christ is symbolically presented as a mother partridge that feigns injury to decoy predators from her helpless nestlings, recalling the expression of Christ's sadness over the fate of Jerusalem: "Jerusalem! Jerusalem! How often would I have sheltered you under my wings, as a hen does her chicks, but you would not have it so . . . ." (Luke 13:34)

 ON THE SECOND DAY OF CHRISTMAS MY TRUE LOVE GAVE TO ME - 

TWO TURTLE DOVES

The Old and New Testaments, which together bear witness to God's self-revelation in history and the creation of a people to tell the Story of God to the world.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

NSFW - A hunter shoots a bear.

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Mayeshah

Kesha cover

Now I dont think it is really a cover but i know that Gay guys are really good lip syncers and dancers. SOOO I just LOVE THIS VIDEO TO DEATH!!!



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Mayeshah!!!

Cooking with Adobe Photoshop Cook Extend

So cool

Adobe Photoshop Cook from Lait Noir on Vimeo.

:)

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Christmas Tale!

Now to get everyone into the Christmas spirit I shall start out with this EPIC movie trailer!!! This is one movie that I would love to see.



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Mayeshah!!!!

I hate skinny ppl!!!

Noooo I dont hate skinny people. But I just wish some of them will leave me the hell alone. I am a  thick chick. Shoot some of my closest friends are slim.

Well today, I saw a friend of the family (more like a friend of my mom's) and I told her that I dont talk to one of my mom's staff because she is always ragging on me about my weight. Then she shared a lil bit about herself.

She told me that she doesnt much with slim people. She doesnt play around and talk up alot with them. She rather talk to someone is is curvier and has some flesh (and fat) on their bones. She then brought to my attention that she isnt as friendly with my sister as she is with me. At first I thought that it was because I was always messing with her so she just does the same back to me. But now she brings it to light I see why she isnt as playful with my sis.

She then told me that when she was younger (high school into young adulthood (20s) ) She used to be very slim. She is around 5'4 and she was 100lbs but then her baby daddy said that he likes plumper women and that she should gain some weight. So she went up to 140lbs and she loves herself at that weight. Then after she had her baby she went up to 185lbs and then went back down to 140lb and maintains that size. I love how she looks and hope that one day I would love myself with all my rolls and jiggles. But for now I just have to work on it.

Well I gonna watch a few youtube vidz and then read a lil bit and then go back to bed.

OXXO


Mayeshah!!!

Breadfruit cake

I would love to try this recipe for the season as well. And even see how the different frostings and icings go with it!!! I cant get a proper picture of it but here is the recipe and the site in which i got it!!!!

Ingredients:


24 Serving Size

2 cups whole wheat flour or 2 cups flour

1 3/4 cups sugar

2 teaspoons pumpkin pie spice

2 teaspoons baking powder

2 teaspoons baking soda

1 teaspoon salt

1 1/2 cups salad oil

4 eggs

1 teaspoon vanilla

3 cups ripe breadfruit, peeled and mashed (1 1/2 lbs)

1/2 cup nuts, chopped

Change Measurements: US
Metric



Directions:Prep Time: 15 mins

Total Time: 1 hr

1 Preheat oven to 375°F. 2 In a large mixing bowl, blend together the dry ingredients. 3 Add oil, and stir well. 4 Beat in eggs and vanilla and continue beating with electric mixer. 5 Beat in breadfruit until smooth. 6 Remove fibrous breadfruit from beater. 7 Stir in nuts. 8 Bake in 3 long pans for 45 minutes.
 
Another one by the Hawaiians is this one.
 
OXXO
 
Mayeshah!!!

Hopefully this christmas

One thing that I wanna do is make Stringed Popcorn and place it on the Christmas Tree (and hope the ants dont get to eat)So I decided to Bing "stringing popcorn" and I found this:

How to String Popcorn on a Christmas Tree

Nothing smells as good as freshly popped popcorn. Once it starts popping the aroma fills the air, and all you want to do is eat it all. Allow it to cool, and instead of eating it, string them for your Christmas tree. This project may take a little time, but it is well worth the effort. Children will delight in helping string the popcorn (as well as eating it) so pop plenty--some for the tree, and some for the decorating team.

Steps1 Make some popcorn with any method you prefer. At least one large size bowl is needed, but that will depend on the size of your tree. Be sure to let the popcorn cool before you continue on to the next step.

2Thread the needle, but do not cut the thread from the spool. It will take a lot of thread for the popcorn garland to cover an entire tree.

3Start stringing one popcorn at a time by inserting the tip of the needle into the center of each piece. Keep sliding it further down on the thread making room for more popcorn. It's best to slide the popcorn to the end of the thread to prevent knots. Once you feel that you have enough garland for the size of your tree tie off the end of the thread by looping the thread, pulling tightly, and going under the loops a few times. Make sure that it is well-secured, so that popcorn won't fall off, and then gently cut the thread.

4 Carefully hang the garland onto your Christmas tree.

And hopefully the finally would look something like this:
 
And Me and my sister are organizing Christmas dinner!!! So we will keep you posted on the different dishes.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

No Lighthouse for me (meme overload)

Well I had applied to a job in Barbuda ( i think i mentioned that before). And They called me today. But of course I missed the call.
However they left a message and they said:

Good Afternoon Ms Mayeshah, I am calling from the Lighthouse Bay Resort in reference to your application. Now your application was seen quite favorable, but unfortunately we do not have a position available for you at this moment. You are being placed on file in the event any future position becomes available. Thank you so much for applying, have a wonderful day. click (that is the end of the call)

When I saw the call I was all like:
 Then I heard the message and was like:
 
Now I am like

 

So I am hoping that Sandals take me on.
Or else I would be like 

  So just now I recomposed myself after listening to this and I hope you like it  too :D



Gone to bed now so yea.

OXXO

Mayeshah

Not for kids

Now this is just pure PORN. No wonder Youtube took it off!!!


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Mayeshah

LOVE TRAVI!!!

Omg I love this song sooo much!!! After hearing it onVH1 I fell in love with it. Even last night they played it on a local radio station and I took the long way home so that I could ROCK OUT TO IT!!!!




I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

A try at poetry!

I went to a poetry night with my sister and I decided to write a poem for that. Then I remembered that there is another poetry night for another group that they have been asking me to try my hand at the writing situation. So I have already written one titled "Oreo". Something that has been on my mind for a while now. I shall share this "creation" the day of or after the next poetry reading.

I am also going to take a poem from one of the Def Poetry Jams that I heard and loved oh so much. That I will share on the same day as Oreo. And I feel like I am going to write maybe a few more that has been on my mind as just a random thought or something that has been affecting me all my life.

So Just to give you a heads up there are some things in the stratosphere that would might be interesting.

OXXO

Mayeshah