MILK!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Readers,

I just saw the movie "Milk" and it had brought alot of questions to mind, including why does everyone hate!!! Especially in America since that should be a melting pot of differences. It was a good movie, something that opens up your mind to stuff that happened in the past that allows many people around the world to have a safe and stress free life if they are homosexual. However, like every other thing that has been seen as bad in life still being hated on by some but is accepted by most.
Everyone needs to just open their eyes to the world in General and understand that the world is changing and it is wise to change with it.

OXXO

Mayeshah

Final for the night

Dear Reader,

I know this is my third one for the night!!! But I have to say this. There is a place up here named Nando's. "Nando's was born in 1987 in South Africa, launching five years later in the UK. But the tale of Nando’s and our inspirational PERi-PERi takes us back much further in time." They got the GREATEST HOT WINGS!!! Taste exactly like Jerk chicken yum!!! And on the wall it gives you the history of PERi-PERi which is pronounced Piri Piri. I enjoyed it only after we started to eat i noticed it was south african where they were playing one of the songs that Claudine and Cutie would play at the C&C Wine House South African Wines!! It was such a great atmosphere. Nando's then cappuccino at the Cafe next to Nando's and then Confessions of a Shopaholic. That was a night to remember for sure!

OXXO

Mayeshah

Philosophical Movie Stars!

Dear Readers,

This is mad random, but I was just thinking it would be so cool to be one of those philosophical people in the movie who would just say something sooo deep and profound and then just ... walk away. Or even to just say something soooooooo cool after something happens it is like WOW!!!!
I just wish that I could be that cool!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!



"As your leader I encourage you from time to time and always in a respectful manner to question my logic. If you'r unconvinced a particular plan of action I've decided is the wisest, tell me so. But allow me to convince you. And I promise you right here and now, no subject will ever be taboo. Except, of course, the subject that was just under discussion. The price you pay for bringing up either my Chinese or American heritage as a negative is, I collect your fucking head. Just like this fucker here. Now, if any of you sons of bitches got anything else to say, now is the fucking time! I didnt think so. "

New format and social issues

Dear Reader,

I was on the bus tonite thinking how to make this blog easy and comfortable to keep writing my "deep dark mental crap" (..."another way of saying excrement."Wonder Woman movie). So I decided to do it in a letter form.
Well I just got back from seeing Confessions of a Shopoholic, great chic flick i must add!!!! I went with a class mate and her friends and that was the most Genuine fun I have had up here since my mom left me to the wolves. However, it has made me look deeper at myself and the people I hang around. I have fallen back in the situation I always get my self in. Should I stick with the people who have "tried" to let me feel comfortable hanging with them? Or should I move on to some cooler and more down to earth people. I prefer international people but then again it is so easy to slip back into the old ways of hanging with people you already know and have a slight relations to your situation. But then again I kinda feel soo left out when I am with the people I have relations with and just feel like they are tiptoing around me so that I wouldnt find out what they are talking about.
However, I might just want to try both because everyone should get a chance but I would love to just be welcomed by people who actually ENJOY my company. Oh well I will see what happens during the next week and see how people respond to me socially.
I miss the old days where everyone knew everyone and everyone had their cliques and your clique and you were all that mattered. Well, Time to grow the f*** up and get on with life.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Requests

I have been given a request of erotic stories to be posted on my page but that would come on a later page and I know that I dont have enough persons to be sayin yes i am taking requests for what you would like to read about. SOOOOO ... as usual i will just ramble on about ...what is n the mind of Mayeshah.

Recently I have been getting back to my old self that made me want to go into the hospitality industry. My friendliness has come back but my confidence is still shot. So i have been working on how to gain some confidence by lookin at myself and saying that I am not the BIGGEST person, I am not ugly and all kind of things. But Slowly but Surely it working. Now something I was known to do is just talk to random people that has been shot as well but i have noticed that I would listen to others conversations instead of starting one of my own. OH WELL every change takes time. Therefore time will only let me know what will be my final outcome in life!

Plus it is finally gettin warmer so I might start walking around the city and siteseeing. But we will see. Trips are being planned and everything so this shall be a very interesting year :) TTFN OXXO

First Event for the Semester

Today we had an event to cater to. In my Managing the Food and Beverage Offer we are required to manage and operate a restaurant for 6 hours. From the purchasing to the cooking to the serving to the guest check everything has to be recorded. It was fun, proving that I am a workaholic and need a friggin life. However I dont get any credits for that module (what they call course up here) and I was getting hella stressed out. So today a guy came to make it 13 ppl in the class, so since i wasnt getting credits and I have nothing better to do, I decided to step down and give the new guy my position as manager. So he is the manager but i still love to work in the restaurant and so on, so I am going to keep on working for the rest of the year and being a helping hand in the restaurant.

I love the rush and the hectic atmosphere where you have to get everyone in and out and make sure they enjoy their meal. So I wouldnt hate it if i work in a restaurant sometime in my life, however I have been spoilt in RI where what ever cutler was out on the table that wasnt used will still have to be washed with the cutlery that was used. But here they didnt do that so I will think twice when using their cutlery easily!

But today was fun!! But after that I ended up being bored shitless because I decided to do my homework for my friday class on Tuesday. Good lord! OXXO

Fire Drill

At the beginning of the semester I was told that there would be a fire drill early in the morning! Around 7 or 6 AM, I was like ohh Great!! Well 3 weeks gone and nothing. However the first day of the fourth week at 7:05AM a loud WAILING sound decided to break me out of me sweet deep sleep. I then thought it was one of the test drills but then it dawned on me that it wasnt Friday and it was really early!

So I got out of bed picked up my jeans and slip them on and picked up my jacket and slipped my feet into my sneakers, ensuring to pick up my Key Fob and phone. So everyone in the flat files out of their rooms and goes outside and some people only in their robes and bed slippers and others fully dressed like me. So I look around and noticed that we are the only people outside of our flats so i ask one of my flat mates if it isnt the whole place and she said no it is just us.

I looked around again and the light from the dawn shining on the buildings and noticed that that was the England I had in my mind and felt sooo at ease. When I have an idea of something and find it somewhere or in the same place i expected to see it or feel it! I feel like I have achieved a goal that was far from being accomplished. OXXO

Journey for food!!!!!!!!

I come to this country thinkin they gonna put me near to a supermarket or mini mart or some kinda place that sells food!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOO they put me smack dab in the middle of no where the closest retail district is approx. 1.5 miles away!!! my word. But i must admit it was a good walk. I found this cafe like place that is just soo comfy and the people are nice. I would have stayed longer but they were closing so i got panini's.
When i was walking up i was like I am lost. Seriously Lost... No way of coming back in one peice. I didnt even walk with my bus pass because i was soo daft. so I was walking and walking and when i was about to give up because I really was lost I saw "Aldi" and then across the road a half dead kinda thing. I decided to go into the half-dead kinda thing and get some stuff when i go in i am like .... ok next time i will stick to Aldi. So i got some stuff, toiletries and some food stuff. When i was walking back i was like omg i am so not cooking so i decided to get something to eat and go back. So I stopped into that little cafe like place and was soo comfy the colors of the walls and the little pottery and pictures made it look soo safe and cosy. So I got my order and when i went out it was getting really late and foggy. So I walked real fast back to my residence and when i reached midway where there is a big pasture you look up and I could swear it looks like it could have come out of one of the Harry Potter books!!! It was just sooo Gorgeous! I see it a bit from my room by it didnt look as fantastic. Then when I continue walking I looked across the road and saw the woods and it reminded me soo much of the movie Twilight!!! I just felt like this is sooo cool!! But then it was getting really dark and that pasture area didnt have as much light as the other areas. However that was one of the times I was upset for not walking with my Camera! Oh well.
It was a great experience the only thing I will have to change the next time I "WALK" up there is to do it with someone so that i dont start talking to myself (dont play I know you talk to yourself as well when u by yourself). If I do go by myself next time I will go on the bus so that I wouldnt be walking FOREVER!!! OXXO

Hot or Cold Death

I was wondering today on the way to the bus stop after class, what would be the most suitable way to die. Would it be more appropriate for you to burn to death or freeze to death. In the temperate and frigid regions freezing to death would probably be the most likely to happen. While in the Tropical region burning is more likely. However with freezing your body just goes numb and then turns black and that is when you know you have lost them and then finally you torso which cold the most significant organs in your body freezes that is when you finally reach the limit and DIE!!
While if your being burnt you have a likelihood of being tortured more and would feel the fire burning your flesh until you either pass out from the smoke or from the pain which would then allow the fire to finish of your unconscious body until you are finally a crisp and you obviously are DEAD!!
If you are wondering how I ended up thinking of this topic, I was just walking and was like what if they had headed roads and sidewalks so that when the snow hits it it doesnt gather so person and vehicles have no obstruction. However my mind then went to thinking what if it is too hot and someone falls, they would be slightly or gravely disfigured depending on the type of fall. But then would they ever make it so that it starts to melt rubber that would be at the bottom of shoes. Yea I am a mad random thinker!!! OXXO

WHY you should follow the RULES of the ALARM

Today taught me that there is no such thing as just another "5 minutes" of sleep. When the alarm goes off it means time to wake up and get with the program. Today I decided to put my alarm on SNOOZE not once, not twice but a whole 3 times. AND without my knowing my alarm decided it wasnt going to go off again for the rest of the night (well morning)!! SOOOOO I woke up 15 minutes before class and to make matters worst i had to catch the bus and walk 10 minutes from the bus stop to the college! Then from worst to .... who knows how bad it could get... I couldnt find the classroom so i was running around like a headless chicken. But finally i found out where the room was and went straight there in the middle of the exam being held. Lucky for me i revised and finished on time. Then as if our brains werent allready fried from the exam they made us continue with the 6 hrs of class!!! This has to be the worst day I have had since i have reached in Leeds. However, the day is done so i can rest.... yea right i have work to finish for tomorrow CPS (Chronic Procrastination Syndrome) is the worst thing to have up here!! Well it is better to learn than .... not. hmm made no sense there but oh well. OXXO

Who the hell is Grandmaster Flash??

"Don't push me cause I'm close to the edge, i'm trying not to loose my head!!!!!!!!" I have heard this phrase ALLL MY LIFE!!! but where did it come from!!??? Well thanks to the power of the internet you can find out who sings what and so on!! Well this phrase came from Grandmaster Flash and the name is "The Message". Enjoy!!!

1. I was tagged to 8 "my 25 random ......." and was contemplating doing 8 of these (but decided that you wouldnt give a damn after the first one lol)

2. I just started a blog on BLOGGER so if you were not satisfied by this you could read that crazy stuff LEAVE COMMENTS (http://mayeshah.blogspot.com/)

3. The right side of my body is SPECIAL!!!!!!!! LOL!!!! but seriously it is!!! I have a broken finger on my right hand, a beauty mark on my right arm, a beauty mark on the entrance of my right nostril, a red spot in my right eye, a birth mark on the inner part of my thigh ( Not too close to the cooch but close enough! (thats for you Gr)) and i have knee problems on my RIGHT KNEE!!! tell me that might right side isnt SPECIAL!!!

4. I swear i have mental problems that is associated with the different places or different periods of my life. I go through phases where after one phase I dont remember much and my personality changes. (eg. in USA i am more quiet and to myself. in the UK I am my normal cocky lil self and enjoy hanging with ppl again. strange!?! I know!!)

5. I am pissed right now that i only reach the fifth one and have 20 more to go. SHIT!! Thus proving I have a slight A.D.D. problem!! and ... oh crap... oh yea... bad memory!!! and........ I am very nostalgic. (wait i will move that one down to 6).

6. I am very nostalgic. I suffer from some TERRIBLE NOSTALGIA!!! (eg. I would be in a conversation that is sooooo sweet and then some f***er would mess it up and then that conversation could never be revived and I would get sad).

7. I am afraid of those lil snake thingy's in Antigua that looks like an earthworm and moves like a snake!!! One time my sister, brother and I were in the house by ourselves and we were watchin this show called "I should have died" and after the show I am walking down the hallway and i see the thing at the foot of the hall way and i screamed ran back to the room and curled into the fetal position (scaring the shit out of my sister and brother) But i am getting over it!

8. I have no skills :( except for ... being friendly. I hope that is good enough

9. I never had a boyfriend that lasted more than 24 hrs.

10. WTF just 10!!!!!!!!!! DAGNABBIT!!! hmm I am the last child out of 3!!as if you care or dont already know!!!

11. I am one of those weightloss advertisement junkies. If i am watchin tv in the early morning and i pass a weightloss paid program or exercise paid program I cant help but watch. If i see an advertisment on the side of the facebook screen i will click it (i am still kicking my a** about that)

12. (My closest friends know this so you can skip to number 13)PPL love my personality and who I am but I still dont know why!!! (thus the blog #2) I doubt myself a whole lot and I thnk bad about myself.

13. I am a packrat!! untill i do my spring cleaning and everything goes in the trash!!

14. I am an emotional masochist. Thus the reason I try to do stuff to cause physical pain (starting and stopping from the gym and so on)

15. I ran out of things so... I have really nice skin!! my face rarely breaks out if at all (although i suffer from that hormone problem where i have a beard :( but that will be gone sooon)

16. I am an average student (which means i not stupid but i know all kinda random stuff that isnt necessary to life)

17. My parents own 4 businesses between both of them and I am planning on adding a hotel or a chain of hotels to the lot!!!!

18. I hate hypocrites, that is one of my pet peeves such as seeing ppl taking pictures of them selves TONGUING OFF EACH OTHER (if i see your tongue that is nasty) Back to hypocrites, if i notice i am showing hypocrite tendencies i tend to punish myself.

19. My sister is my bestest of bestest friends. No-one could ever pass her position of best friend!!! I LOVE HER SOOO MUCH!!!

20. .........................JUST 5 MORE AFTER THIS!!! ooooooooohh ohhhh ... I was born at Adeline Clinic and the first place i went after i was born was my mommy's store. And my mommy used to put me in a basket and up to this day I am known as the Basket baby!!!!! :D WAYYYYY RANDOM!!!

21. If i were to be any mythical creature it would be a Vampire!! They just have a finesse that no other mythical creature has!! However A Centaur wouldnt be bad once i dont smell like horse!!! LOL

22. I HAVE NO FAVOURITE NUMBER, COLOUR (even though blue, black and yellow are up on the list of colours) TEAM, LETS JUST SAY I HAVE NO FAVOURITE ANYTHING!!!

23. The reason the Centaur is the next in line from Vampires is because my zodiac sign is Sagittarius and that is a Centaur Archer. That shall be part of my first tattoo in combination with my Chinese zodiac : Flaming Rabbit!!! (if you have any ideas hit me up (other than u Gr u cant draw so u no help))


25. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I REACH 25.... OK I LIE I REACH 24 ..... SO IGNORE THIS

24. I AM GOING TO POST THIS ON MY BLOG.. Ok that is not number 24........ I wear size 11 shoes, and i dont remember anymore sizes since I blew up over some time !!!and i am 5'10"

25. FINAL-EFFING-LY!!!!
MY ROLE MODEL IS GEORGE BUSH..
BECAUSE HE IS A TRIGGER HAPPY MOTHERFUCKING REDNECK!!!
(LOLLLLLOLLLLOL!!! YOU HAD TO BE THERE!!! RIGHT NEVA!!!)

OK STOP FUCK ROUND!! I AM A BOOTLEG CARIBBEAN!!! BORN RAISE AND MOST LIKELY DEAD IN ANTIGUA. BUT CANT SPEAK A LICK OF DIALECT WITHOUT SOUNDING LIKE ....... WHO KNOWS WHAT!!! UNTIL I REACHED THE STATES I COULD HAVE GIVEN A DAMN ABOUT THE CARIBBEAN!!!! BUT THANKS TO MY BABES POUNKS I GETTIN THERE!! AND I CANT LEAVE OUT MY OTHER FRIENDS WHO IS STILL WORKING ALONG SIDE ME TO BRING ME INTO THE LIGHT!!!!!


FINALLY DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Optical Illusions

I have been watching some of these Optical Illusions and I am in total shock that ppl would go out of their way to even think them up or just to make them. But fore that I got the bajeebers scared out of me by watching this which let me to the Optical Illusions!!

Queen of the Damned Soundtrack

I must admit the movie sucked balls but the soundtrack is the best. And I am here listening to the album and thinking damn this is a good album to have sex to. Just so smooth and slow enough for you to have a very long foreplay and everything before the actual sex! That would be an interesting sexual encounter but of course both partners have to be into the music for it to be most sensual!! OXXO

Random

This is just one of the many randoms that I will do during the course of my blogging! I have thought about different topics and watched other ppl's blogs (ok just one other person but still). And I just havent gotten a clue! I noticed I base my life on the expectations and opinions of other persons around me and what they do. That is going to be one of the things i will have to try and adjust in my life!

I have a problem by always bashin myself or allowing other persons to bash me without even trying to defend myself. But I dont know how to do any better. Over the years I have found it easy to keep things in my head and then let it out by crying and then move on with my own life. But then I found someone that I could tell me problems to and now I have become a faucet... should i say a faucet or a waterfall? hmm. Well now i cant stop telling my problems to someone. When I do that after a while I am thinking that the person is getting tired of me talk. Which you would if you read my postings everytime. Now recently I focus my energy on facebook and my friends which have been scattered all over the world. I talk to them and focus on other peoples fun to mask my depression. Alcohol does help but only if you are with ppl otherwise it puts me to sleep.

RANDOM ... I just found my birthmark wow!!! omg!!! It is on the inner part of my right thigh. Not too close to the cooch but close enough! See I did say this was a Random blog!

RANDOM ... It was snowing, and i think it is still snowing omg !!! ENGLAND IS COLD please hurry and come spring I miss you!!

Well i will do another blog when i feel idle and haunted again or when i hear or see something interesting. So ttfn. OXXO

New Beginnings!!!

WOW! I just found out that I have a blog! Well I just remembered that I have a blog. It has been just over two years. But I have decided that this shall be my unedited version of what is in my head on a daily basis. I have a habit of holding my tongue when talking to people about myself because I am afraid they might get tired of me talking about myself. Like I would be talking to someone and instead of saying my experiences I would try and expand on the other persons experience. I know i am lame like that. Well I have a lot of plans for life so I will keep them recorded through here.

Well to get started. I am a Uni student studying Hotel Management at Johnson and Wales University (JWU) in Providence, RI. At this point in time I am a Junior. I am doing a student exchange program over in Leeds, England at the Leeds Metropolitan University. This is such a different experience than what I had expected. I know that I was going to go through the stage of homesickness and It had hurt as hell. It went on for around a week and a half but after a while I got used to being on my own once more. The people up here are way nicer than the average person in the USA but I am not sure if I would be able to handle that since i have gotten so used to the American mentality. Since I have went to JWU i noticed that my personality has become totally screwed up. I am becoming more anti-social and to myself, and that scares the shit out of me because to be in the Hotel Industry you would have to be outgoing and friendly. I have noticed I have lost a good amount of that! :( However I am hoping that over here could restore my nature back to who I was, The FUN LOVING MAYESHAH!!!

Well that is all I am going to say right now so i will ttys!! OXXO