Well here is the latest convo:
Bn 6:23 pm
im still upset that i make you uncomfortable AND i scare you
Mayeshah!!! 6:23 pm
dont worry i just not accustomed to being around people like you
Bn 6:23 pm
which i take offense to like im this sort of monster which im not
Mayeshah!!! 6:24 pm
u are not a monster
you just have the characteristics of an American which i have noticed when i was in England with 5 american girls
Bn 6:24 pm
what does that mean?
Mayeshah!!! 6:25 pm
like when you and amber would talk about something you experienced I know that I would never experience that because i am not American
and the Americans in Antigua they try to get into our culture so i dont hear them talking about their experiences that much
Bn 6:26 pm
why are u even comparing us?
Mayeshah!!! 6:26 pm
huh? comparing ?
Bn 6:26 pm
like pointing out we are American and we are sooooooooooo different'
Mayeshah!!! 6:27 pm
because you guys are different lol
just like the Canadians are different
and the British are different
and the Europeans and Asians and Africans are different
Bn 6:29 pm
lol
just funny that you compare us
obviously we are all different
thats what makes us all unique
Mayeshah!!! 6:29 pm
yup
Bn 6:30 pm
just not fair that you say im scary or i make you uncomfortable
Mayeshah!!! 6:30 pm
scary because you get upset about stuff really easy.
uncomfortable because of some of your jokes
Bn 6:31 pm
which you never told me which ones so i dont get what
everyone gets upset and angry doesnt mean they are scary....
Mayeshah!!! 6:33 pm
but what you have to know what had made me scared of when ppl get upset and angry alot was my dad who he would get mad and his words really hurt so i just afraid of when people get angry so easily
Bn 6:35 pm
well idk your dad or what he did
but im not scary so you dont need to say that
and i didnt know i had to watch my mouth
Mayeshah!!! 6:36 pm
you dont have to watch your mouth
what makes me uncomfortable does nothing to other people so it is not you it s me
Bn 6:37 pm
what do u mean
Mayeshah!!! 6:38 pm
what makes me uncomfortable doe not make other people uncomfortable so you dont have to change just because of me
Bn 6:39 pm
well i want an example lol
which you dont have
Mayeshah!!! 6:41 pm
see if i not gonna give any examples because i dont want you to change because of me
Bn 6:41 pm
just tell me i wanna know
Mayeshah!!! 6:45 pm
ok an example of what had made me uncomfortable one time is when (defenseless bf) was here and he was explaining something you cut him off and told him no one cared.
Bn 6:47 pm
thats our relationship i have done that since the beginning
i dont do that anymore
Mayeshah!!! 6:47 pm
yea but it just made me uncomfortable that day
but that is just me
Bn 6:48 pm
the relationship i have with (defenseless bf) has nothing to do w. you
so you shouldnt feel uncomfortable when hes here
thats absolutely ridiculous
Mayeshah!!! 6:48 pm
ok i am sorry
i am sorry for how i feel
Bn 6:49 pm
im just saying
the way i act around him doesnt have to do w. you
Mayeshah!!! 6:49 pm
ok
but i am sorry
Bn 6:50 pm
for what
Mayeshah!!! 6:50 pm
for being uncomfortable and scared
Bn 6:50 pm
i just find it ridiculous
Mayeshah!!! 6:51 pm
it is just how i was raised and the people i have been around
Bn 6:53 pm
i come from an Irish Catholic family so I have a good head on my shoulders
you might not see that but i do im a good person no matter what anyone has to say
Mayeshah!!! 6:54 pm
i never said you had a good head on your shoulders
you are a great person
Bn 6:55 pm
i try to be to everyone
and i hate that like you think these things about me
Bn 6:57 pm
and amber always tells me i need to stop caring
because it gets me nowhere
Mayeshah!!! 6:57 pm
you dont have to be a great person to everybody
i know that because i have tried all my life and i still have people who have a problem with me.
one of my best friends told me that she feels that I explain myself too much and sometimes it sounds like excuses. and I see where she is coming from with that but that is how i was raised.
and you even told me to not care what the other girls say
or think
so i try to live my day one day at a time
what happens happens
Bn 6:58 pm
the way i was raised though i am a very giving and caring person
so when people dont like me or have a problem with me it kills me
and yea i try to live my life day to day but it gets hard sometimes
Mayeshah!!! 6:59 pm
i understand that
and i know what you mean when you say it kills you when someone dont like you
Bn 6:59 pm
and i shouldnt care about other people sometimes but i just care too much and people walk all over me for that
Mayeshah!!! 6:59 pm
i felt that pain the other night when amber was talkin to you when you were cleaning under the stove
but i cant change people so i dont try
Bn 7:00 pm
when (defenseless bf) was here?
Mayeshah!!! 7:00 pm
yes
Bn 7:00 pm
what did she say i dont even know
Mayeshah!!! 7:00 pm
i didnt hear what she said but you had told her that i was behind yall and she stopped talking
Bn 7:01 pm
i didnt know that nor did i care
i was cleaning so i could cook
Mayeshah!!! 7:02 pm
but i find you as a great person with a great spirit but i just feel uneasy about some stuff. as i said before you dont have to worry about it. I cope!
i love you for who you are
and i would never change your for anything
so dont worry about it
Bn 7:03 pm
thank you i love you too
i know i say things that can be offensive
im just a very open and honest person ya know
Mayeshah!!! 7:03 pm
yea
Bn 7:04 pm
thats how i have always been
Bn 7:09 pm
im glad we had this talk
i love you:-)
Mayeshah!!! 7:09 pm
i love you too :-)
Bn 7:10 pm
brb dinner
Mayeshah!!! 7:10 pm
k
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Bn 7:48 pm
i went to go eat my bacon and it was green
Mayeshah!!! 7:48 pm
dang
Bn 7:48 pm
lol
Mayeshah!!! 7:48 pm
how long have you had it ?
Bn 7:49 pm
idk a while
but it shouldnt of done that
it was in the fridge
Mayeshah!!! 7:50 pm
i dont think that matters much but i dunno bout bacon we dont buy that much
Bn 7:50 pm
my mom does and it lasts for a while usually
Mayeshah!!! 7:50 pm
did you have the resealable one?
Bn 7:51 pm
it was in a bag
Mayeshah!!! 7:51 pm
oh i dunno
Bn 8:24 pm
off to do some work ttyl:-)
have a good night
Mayeshah!!! 8:24 pm
nite
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
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