[Official Video] BIGBANG - 뱅뱅뱅 (Bang Bang Bang) Dance Cover by YG Lovers...

One of the channel's I follow on YouTube had learned the dance to this and I had to check out the official video. This is quite boss. And the song was very catchy. I also love to watch people dancing cause it is something I used to do when I was younger.



Hope you enjoy it like I did!!!!







OXXO



Mayeshah!!!

Drafted Revived - HHR Diaries - Certified Sick: Part 1

So I had this in my draft for quite a while and although I am no longer in HR will try and share some of my findings. Enjoy!

Ladies and Gentlemen, 

Please understand that dealing with staff is not easy. For the Head of Department (HoD) they have to do their scheduling and making sure that their department runs smooth. However illnesses do happen. In a department of 30 persons you may have 1 person sick for an entire week or 2 and a few persons who call in sick the day they are scheduled to work. All of these do put a tight strain on the HoD. 

As a business you never budget for when people call in sick. So when you receive that dreaded form called the "Certified Sick Form" you know that something is going to go down. In some cases you know what is going on with the staff whether it is surgery or contagious illness. In other cases you know you saw the staff skipping around one day and then the next day they send in the form like they suddenly caught the plague. 

Now it seems like the "Certified Sick Form" (CSF) has a lot of red tape when it is ready and lots of loopholes when convenient. My tip is to make friends with a person from the Social Security to assist you when you have any questions or concerns. I will call my girl Cris.

This CSF can be easily accessible to staff if they go for a "doctor's examination" and they advise the doctor that they are ill and don't believe that they are suitable to work. The doctor would fill out the CSF and get paid their consultants fee (normally EC$150) and get paid for this time that they do not have to work. 



A few loopholes I have encountered:

• Staff are allowed to get 12 sick days in a year which fall under the CSF. This will allow the staff to get paid the full day's pay during their sick leave plus 60% from the Social Security. 
• If staff are working days short weeks and send in a CSF they will be paid for the full 40 hour work week.
• On the form it states that the CSF must be sent in within 21 days of the beginning of the sickness. This is just to encourage the Employers to send in the form as soon as possible.
• For Temporary Staff they are not entitle regular 12 sick days unless they send in this CSF. 
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A few red tapes I found quite safe for the employer:

• Staff are allowed to get ONLY 12 sick days in a year. The CSF days come out of these 12 sick days. This results in after the 12 days are up, 40% will be paid by the company plus 60% from the Social Security. 
• While on sick leave under the CSF the employee is not allowed to leave the country unless the doctor recommends that they person needs to travel for foreign consultations. A copy of the recommendation letter must be sent to the company.
• The employee must be contributing to the Social Security Scheme for a minimum of 6 months before they are eligible to get their 60% from the Scheme.
• If the employee was out on leave of absence (or just did not work) before the CSF was sent in they will not receive any benefits from the scheme. 

I hope this is not too much info on the joys of this special piece of paper. The CSF is an employer's worst dream (not nightmare because worst things can happen). I will explain a little bit more in Part 2 and a few of my experiences with the CSF.

XX

Mayeshah!!!

Hospitality Human Resources Diaries - Introduction

Welcome one and all to the Hospitality Human Resources Diaries (aka HHR Diaries)

Working in the hospitality industry gives me such an interesting high that I just cant fathom leaving it behind. As well as the 4 year education and the hella huge ass loan I got reminding me why I am there. 

I enjoy making people feel happy, solving their issues, and just meeting new people and sharing experiences with them. I worked in the Food & Beverage Department for three (3) different properties, worked in Housekeeping and worked in Guest Services. These departments are some of the most Exciting departments because you always are on your toes making sure that the guest are satisfied.

I have also worked in Stores, Kitchen, Payroll and in the Executive Office. These may not have been quite direct with the guest satisfaction but it assist with making the property run smooth and efficient. I have trained a bit in the Front Office but it has never really peaked my interest to the highest due to them being .... uhh... special. 

I have been finally placed in the Human Resources Department and I have encountered some of the most interesting scenarios ever. Whether it is experiences with staff, experiences with management, or even experiences with persons not even working for the company. 

I wanna share some of the things I have experienced. I wont be stating any names, may change some departments to the best of my ability if they are quite obvious and hope to keep this as entertaining and educational as possible. 

Please note that the Human Resources Department is a highly confidential department and a lot of things cannot be shared. So just know that this is just the tip of the iceberg with regards to the experiences I encounter.

I cannot state the frequency of these entries but I will state that while things are still fresh and still urgent I may express my feelings and lessons on the matter.

So once again Welcome to HHR Diaries

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Mayeshah!!!

Show a little skin sometimes.

I have noticed that once you show a little more skin than usual people start to notice. I am the type of person who enjoys wearing a shirt, whether it be Tee, Polo, or a nice blouse, and a pant such as jeans or slacks. But the moment I put on shorts or a skirt people go ape shit. 

Like Saturday I decided to put on a shorts, mainly because I had no other bottoms to wear. So I had on my shorts and reached my mom's store and everyone is like "Look at legs" or "She showing off some skin today" or "She legs clean* she should wear skirts more often". Then I had parked the car and had to walk quite a distance to get back to the store and I was intercepted by a guy who said to me "You came to town to tantalize the men? You are raising my blood pressure you know." And proceeded to try and get me to go to the beach with him. 

My parents saw me during the day and they asked me if I was not going to change before I go on doing my errand. My response it was hot and I was achy after a long three hour walk I did that morning. While doing my errands one guy who I have grown accustomed to seeing and interacting with on a Saturday starts commenting on my shorts and so on.

Ok, for those who don't know what I look like I am on the thicker side. I am bottom heavy but not too big.  I have big thighs and a decent sized backside to go along with my thighs. 

Then at work yesterday I fell into the same category where I didnt have any pants to wear so I wore the only skirt I have in my wardrobe. My work skirt and I had left my shoes that I normally wear with the skirt by my parents house. So I asked my sister to wear her slippers. Then people who don't remember ever seeing me wear a skirt commented on my wearing a skirt saying that I looking out. Then others commented on the fact that I wore an open toe slippers to work. 

I believe that because while growing up I have always been a bigger child and got lots of attention from the males I decided to cover up. So that meant no more skirts or dresses or shorts. But being a "grown woman" I sometimes do enjoy a few skirts, a nice sundress, and a nice booty hugging shorts. They are good for my self esteem and makes me feel all kinda happy.

I would encourage others to try and take a step back and try doing something that you are not used to. It can be quite fun and you might get some good stories or receive interesting comments about them.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

That feeling....Alone

I remember the feeling I had during my high school ball. It was a mixture of alot of things. 

I felt joy that I was finished with High School. Happy that there were no more examinations. Not having to deal with them teachers who a good number of them did not even believe in you. Extreme joy that I did not have to wear them Blue Rags (Blue AGHS uniform dress) again.

But then it was mixed with sadness. Some of my friends were preparing to migrate to study. Some migrated to live. Some started working and I rarely saw them. Sad that I didn't have any male friends that I would have been able to bring along to the ball. Sad that my friends were either in their groups enjoying their last night as Antigua Girls' High School students or with their dates. 

I remember I would see the girls looking gorgeous and taking pictures of each other and having people take group pictures of them and close friends. I had then gotten overwhelmed with the feeling of being ALONE. 

Even though I went to the ball with my best friend in high school I still felt soo alone. I even walked the halls of the building which allowed us to hold our Grand Affair there. One of my friends saw me wandering and asked if I was OK and I lied and in my heart I just felt alone. 

That feeling I have felt so many times afterwards. Feeling alone while being out with friends, feeling alone when in a group of people, even feeling alone when alone with another person. 

I don't want to feel alone. But they say you are born alone and will die alone. However when I am in a group why must I feel like this?


I hope that feeling goes away soon. Because it is not fun.

I know there are alot of people who are feeling all alone. So I guess we can say we are Alone Together. 

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

MUSIC 2015

So  I have been listening to the latest music on YouTube. I am quite impressed by some of them but others scare the crap out of me at how bad they are!!!

The good ones transport me into all kinda mind frames that make me feel so relaxed or just happy. I see a whole bunch of new artists and some older ones still throwing out awesome beats. 

Videos that distract you from the song itself and videos that enhances the song. Some videos that takes elements from movies both efficiently and otherwise (I am talking to you Taylor Swift) 

Songs with the names of famous persons of the past, like "Johnny Cash" and "(Titans X) James Dean"

And tons tons and tons of COLLABS!! 

I am happy for what is out in 2015 so far. 

Love Jones Kinda Love

So I just finished watching Love Jones and I just have that aching for that kinda love. It is that cool artistic kinda love. Where everything is about how you feel and not about what is going on or what anyone else thinks.

Then at the end they started playing the Sweetest Thing by Lauren Hill. It reminded me of the 90s where the music was simple and the emotion was soo real. The times when Janet Jackson was telling you it Doesn't Really Matter and Usher  was crooning some sweet melodies into your ears. Makes you really believe that love is out there.

I have always wanted the kinda love like what Musiq Soulchild and Jill Scott sang about.

Just that .... Love Jones kinda Love.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge:Day - 4 A Song That Calms You Down

So we have reached Day Number 4 - A song that calms me down.





































Well I am a rock lover and I found that songs that are fun yet badass can get me singing and dancing a bit. When I had first heard my selection for this day I would listen to it on repeat. Just make me feel on top of the world even though it kinda means that on a regular basis I would get put down.

I know I am weird but I love this song and it does pic me up



I would put on my headphones and crank this up loud and just jam out to it!!!

Come back through tomorrow and check out what song I choose next. Share what song calms you down in the comments below.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge: Day 3 - A song that reminds you of one/both of your parent

HEY there again!!! Please do not think that I have forgotten about my challenge even though I just started. NOOO I haven't!!! I swear!!! However, day 2  was just a lil difficult for me to pull out of my ass.
Looking at this list:


I noticed it is making me remember something I dont have. An Ex-boyfriend. Soo I couldnt pull that one out of my ass and just cant pick a guy friend to take that position in my life.

Therefore day 2 was skipped. NOWWW GOING ON WITH DAY 3 - A SONG THAT REMINDS ME OF ONE OR BOTH OF MY PARENTS.

So i have chosen Fathers by John Mayer because it will always remind me of my father. A man does not know how he affects his daughters world. This song reminds me that my dad has played a huge role on the entire family dynamic whether he wanted to or not.




So all the guys out there remember this song and for everyone this is a deep some which does remind me of my father.

Come back through tomorrow and check out what song I choose next. Share what song reminds you of a parent/both parents in the comments below.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Viktoria Modesta - Step like a Lady!

So I came across this video on Facebook and wanted to share it but facebook was acting like a royal douche on my phone. So I forgot about it all together. I then went into town and was watching how one woman was walking and she had no poise or femininity to how she walked. I automatically remembered this video and how this woman, Viktoria Modesta, could be handicapped and doesnt allow that to stop her.

She walks with grace, poise and each step is measured. You can see the strength in her legs as she moves but she still shows a level of femininity.

Check out this video.



I then had to check out some more about her and she is freaking gorgeous. Her voice is crazy nice!! I would follow her and she most definitely is inspiring.

Check this vid out:



So my aim is to learn how to step like a lady! Might have to get some nice heels to practice in!!! I do have a tendency to walk like a man at a construction site and then walking moving my hips to a beat I alone can hear



OXXO

Mayeshah!!

25 Songs 25 Days Challenge: Day 1 - A song from your childhood

I am here going through all my blogs subscriptions (since I have done all my YouTube subscriptions already) and I come across this lil challenge.


I am not known to be the most consistent person around but this would be a great test. I will attempt to post a song every day right here and the reason I chose this song for each of the categories above. This would also get me back into the habit of blogging. Especially since I was told that although I have a blog I dont really post anything. So I am planning on changing this.

SOOOOO..... Day ONE (1) - A song from your childhood.

SOOO MUCH MUSIC FROM THE 80S AND 90S :'(   This one is hard because there are soo many good songs from my childhood that resonates with me. However this came to mind.


My siblings, my mom and I were in Rochester NY by my mother's childhood friend and this song was playing and this is probably the day I fell madly in love with R&B. We were lying down in one of the bedrooms and watching MTV (when they used to show music videos) and this song came on. THE FUGEES - KILLINGS ME SOFTLY just the camaraderie and fun these people were having made me feel happy. This came out in 1996 when i was 8 going 9 and it is still one of my fav songs especially when she vocalizes.

Let me know what song from your childhood lets your extra happy bugs start to jump. Check back tomorrow for my next song.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Failure vs. Success

I was doing some work yesterday when a co-worker approached me and requested my signature on a document. I, of course, jokingly asked "Oh you want my autograph?" .... or at least that is how I remember it went. (Damn Short Term Memory). So I began signing and there was an area asking what is your position? Next to it had Accountant/Vote Counter/ (something else that I could care less about). I asked her what am I she advised me that I was a Vote Counter (seriously my brain really is bad cause vote counter looks weird. But it had the word Vote in it). I asked her what that was and her response someone who is able to give information about a staff member. I asked her why not an accountant? I do accounting work. She told me that an accountant is someone who has gone through and gotten certified in Accounting. 

MIND BLOWING .... but...I guess you wondering why I mentioned that whole spiel up there. Just so you know the background of how this came up. 

I told her I dont have any degrees in Accounting but I have my Bachelors in Hotel Management. The question that has dumbfounded me ever time escaped her lips. "WHY ARE YOU HERE?? WHY NOT BE AN ASSISTANT MANAGER SOMEWHERE ELSE??"

My heart kinda crushed a bit and my excuse for the past ... let me think... four years is I want experience. 

I then came across this blog post HERE and it is more of a home hitter for the real reason why I dont aim for the gold. I do have lots of fears but these are the biggest.

I noticed that some of the qualities that I think would be necessary for any kind of management position is to have a backbone, which I feel like I have not developed. The ability to say no and not have people believe that I am joking. So the fear of becoming management and then failing at my duties is heart wrenching. 

"What if I succeed?" The lil conscience voice in my brain whispers. "What if my skills are what would make me an awesome manager?" 

I am not so much afraid of success but it is still an unknown factor. Maybe I should aim for bigger and see it all as a school project. I have been dealing with a job which is a task for 2 persons but I am kinda  (ok not soo much) managing it. 

I must say this post has made me think while writing it. Thanks for sitting through my mental squabble online. 

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!

Pompeii lyrics- Bastille

This song. Just this song. I have been struggling with some life matters, mostly work, and this song speaks to me on so many levels. Gives me optimism that there will be a great light at the end of the tunnel of darkness I am wading through! Enjoy!









OXXO



Mayeshah!!!

FEELINGS

What the hell is this thing called feelings?


I have been struggling with this thing for the longest time (well for the new year). WikiPedia defines Feelings as 'the inner body experience.. The word was first used in the English language to describe the physical sensation of touch through either experience or perception. The word is also used to describe experiences other than the physical sensation of touch, such as "a feeling of warmth" and of sentience in general.' 

While Merriam-Webster  defines it as these:

a (1) :  the one of the basic physical senses of which the skin contains the chief end organs and of which the sensations of touch and temperature are characteristic : touch (2) :  a sensation experienced through this sense

b :  generalized bodily consciousness or sensation

c :  appreciative or responsive awareness or recognition

2

a :  an emotional state or reaction feeling

 toward the boy>

b plural :  susceptibility to impression :  sensitivity feelings>

3

a :  the undifferentiated background of one's awareness considered apart from any identifiable sensation, perception, or thought

b :  the overall quality of one's awareness

c :  conscious recognition :  sense

4

a :  often unreasoned opinion or belief :  sentiment

b :  presentiment

5

:  capacity to respond emotionally especially with the higher emotions

6

:  the character ascribed to something :  atmosphere

7

a :  the quality of a work of art that conveys the emotion of the artist

b :  sympathetic aesthetic response

I believe 2, 3, and 5 is what has me losing my sanity. I have been having feelings which give me pains in my chest and pains in my head. Work feelings, social feelings, just feelings of inadequacy, feelings of jealousy, and even feelings of pure unadulterated HATRED. These feelings are just what driving me crazy. 

What should I do? Drink? No my tolerance is too high for drinking. Use coffee? Nahh dont wanna get hooked again. Cut myself? Ok that is just an extreme. But what should I do? 

Luckily I got a lil work out ;) which has helped release some of them feelings. Then some seriously good info from a friend which just got rid of more of them pesky feelings! 

But a new week is starting. Will the feelings come back? Will I have difficulties controlling them feelings? Should I work out more?? We will see as the year progresses.

Will keep you posted on my feelings dilemma as time goes on. 

OXXO

Mayeshah

2015 - 12 Days In.

2015. What is it about you that I just dont like. Could it be the fact that I dont see much use for you? Or the fact that you end in an odd number that I usually would like? Could it be that you mean we are coming to an end to the 20teen decade? Shoot it might even be the fact that in the next 2 years I will be ..... (dum dum dum).... 30.

But so far I am not impressed with you. You gave me false hopes on New Years Day. Nice and relaxing and then we cleaned up our awesome home. (We being my sister and I).

I entered the year sick as a dog and with a rotten toothache (that I still need to get checked out). Plus to top it off on the second day into the year Mary came with her gift. (Bitch = Mary) SO one part of Mary's gift is hormonal imbalance. I am very sensitive to everything and cry easily.

This is not a good trait to have when working in the hotel industry (especially in positions like Human Resources and Payroll). So other than all my physical ailments I had to deal with the fun and joy of stress from work. I truly wonder why we torture ourselves like this? Why not do what we want and make the money we deserve?

So, me being hormonal and VERY SENSITIVE I grew to hate work even more. (Yes even more because I am hating it already) The stress, the Murphy's Law, the people, the entire work in General. Which has driven me to this:



I have a high tolerance so this doesnt really do much to me but relax my spirit. But I am soo unhappy and gaining weight, not eating properly, not sleeping properly and hating work.

I am even being given way more work than I can handle. It is difficult.

SHIT I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN LAID FOR THE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2015, you have 353 more days to shape up. So shape up and step up!!!

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!!

Why I do not write!

Write a poem. Write a story. Write something.

I hear some of my people (yes my people) tell me on a few occasions.

Are you a poet? You look like the type who could be a poet.

I am a socialite (no i cant say socialite, more like a social being). I have a few reasons for not writing and can not narrow it down to one thing. I have tried writing I have done a few stories and a few poems. But those were for courses or out of being in severe emotional distress.

I remember when I was still in primary school I wrote a story (feeling all proud of myself and accomplished). I handed it over to my mom and my sister to read and they laughed. That would have been a good thing if it was a funny story, but it was an action/suspense. I felt crushed of course and they explained to me why they were laughing (my spelling of some words and they impossible scenarios which my little brain had concocted through the use of television and my little young brain). So I had not wrote another story again until my fourth form in secondary School.

I wrote another story which was another action/suspense, which due to my past experience I expected to be another failed attempt. However, when I handed it in I got an A. Who would have thought my teacher liked my story. That did not change the fact that I still believed I was not good at writing.

I did a story for my CXC (final exams to graduate from secondary school) and I would not be surprised was the main reason why I got my highest grade (a 1 but not with distinction). I felt confident about my writing when I had to but to leisurely write I did not feel that I was able to do it.

When I was in state college I was required to write a poem about a topic of my choice. I did a poem on Marijuana (which I do not use) and I loved it. It was a pro-Marijuana/Hemp poem which I felt really accomplished for and even my mom wanted a copy of it. However, life went on and I never wrote again until University when I was suffering from Home Sickness. I wrote a story and had a friend (more like close acquaintance) read it and he said it was soo predictable. At that point I just said you know what I rather not write.

I have written a few poems since then but nothing that I felt proud of or anything. Right now I have difficulties putting words together to express what I want to say. Even when I talk the words seem to not be able to form. My ability to use beautiful & colourful language, grammar structuring and even vocabulary usage is weak to me.

I was part of a Public Speaking organization (Antigua ToastMasters) and my hardest part was formulating my speeches.

So I have decided to not bother with writing. I do not get much joy out of it like others may. I rather hear other ppl read their poems and read other people's stories. I may not be able to proof read and edit efficiently but I enjoy reading works from other persons. Plus my sister puts out enough works to cover both of us.

OXXO

Mayeshah!!!