So today at work buzz got out about a TripAdvisor Review which was made on Sunday. This review was soo bad that if you were a random customer perusing tripadvisor you would never want to come to the resort. This person commented about the Reception, the bar, the food, the grounds, the trolley, the room (which was free) the staff, the housekeeping, almost everything she could get her fingertips to recall from her "Horrible" time at the resort.
I begin my rant by stating everyone is allowed to have their own opinions but the forum and the conditions are all to be taken into consideration. This person was acting like an Over Privileged child and was not even here on a full day, or weekend, or even week just a special rated day pass
The person was celebrating a friend's birthday on a day pass under a special that the company has on a yearly basis around the slow season. Paying less that half the normal rate for a day pass. Plus got the room comped. Then the first thing you gonna do is start bitching about the place like you are the most worldly person around. Stating that you enjoy going out and enjoying what your country has to offer. If that is true you had to have gone to at least 5 other hotels and resorts which have situations with birds and flies. Yes, you want to enjoy your meal without having any disruptions but for an open air restaurant you cant really stop it!
NO we do not have persons who work with us who has abscess on their necks. An Abscess is filled with PUSS and the one person who I assume you are referring to just has a lump on her neck which is her medical situation. Are you saying that because she has a medical condition that does not affect her ability to be a great Bartender she must not be working because she offends you?? Yes we do hire a few persons with Tattoos and for your information A Bartender, Bar Porter, or Bar Back with Tattoos is not really uncommon. It is the person's body and they felt like tattooing it. If you tell me he was rude or fresh with you I can understand, that is something we will not allow but you cant judge a person just because of what he decides to do with his body. That person is one of the most hard working and friendly staff we have so keep fronting.
I dont know where you were a couple of weeks ago but BITCH, GONZALO JUST FUCKING PASSED THROUGH OUT ISLAND!!! OF COURSE OUR PROPERTY IS A LIL WATERLOGGED AND THE GROUNDS IS TRYING TO CATCH ITSELF. FUCK!!!!
Oh you hear some of the waitresses gossiping in the corner? Are they gossiping about you?? No? Then mind ya damn business. They are in the corner away from you and do not need you all up in their business, GOD DAMN!!! Plus our room attendants do have alot of work to do and do get tired during the day after having to transport their supplies but they know what they got themselves into when they got the job and started doing it. So let them sit in peace without your judgment. No we do not promote slavery that is why we pay them.
I admit a few of your other points were true and we will address them immediately. We thank you for drawing them to our attention. But for someone who spent only EC$100.00 per person and got a room for free you bitching alot about stuff that not even the guest who are staying on property are complaining about.
I, therefore, ask you to take a seat and wheel and come again with a better attitude when you decide to post things on social media because just because you took it down dont mean it hasn't left a scathing bad impression of you in our minds. As they say the innocent will suffer for the guilty and if that comes to pass I hope you can chip in the extra 170 to allow persons to have some relaxation on their stay-cation.
END OF RANT!! People dont know when and where to deal with matters. Just got my blood boiling and heart pumping with anger.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Sunday, October 5, 2014
Ginger Snaps
So my sister and I were watching ..... dum dum dum.... Ginger Snaps.
It was one of the movies I downloaded from Youtube (obviously on Youtube because it was bad). Weeks prior I tried to watch the movie and I was like ....
But then my sister started watching it yesterday while doing our hair. I was wondering what the fuck have I gotten us into?
So I looked up the movie synopsis and it states on IMDB:
Two death-obsessed sisters, outcasts in their suburban neighborhood, must deal with the tragic consequences when one of them is bitten by a deadly werewolf.
So this was a horror movie that made me shout and scream at the screen. I loved how the movie moved on but the end was soo disappointing. I want to encourage you to watch it but enjoy the ride even though the journey was not all that!
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
It was one of the movies I downloaded from Youtube (obviously on Youtube because it was bad). Weeks prior I tried to watch the movie and I was like ....
But then my sister started watching it yesterday while doing our hair. I was wondering what the fuck have I gotten us into?
So I looked up the movie synopsis and it states on IMDB:
Two death-obsessed sisters, outcasts in their suburban neighborhood, must deal with the tragic consequences when one of them is bitten by a deadly werewolf.
So this was a horror movie that made me shout and scream at the screen. I loved how the movie moved on but the end was soo disappointing. I want to encourage you to watch it but enjoy the ride even though the journey was not all that!
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Mini Two Strand Twists
So I am on my journey of being Team Natural. Unfortunately my only hair styles are twists, and afros.
I must say I enjoy it. I used to say I would never cut my hair but I have cut my hair and gone natural. So this is my most recent hair style - Mini Two Strands Twists :
So my hair is getting longer slowly but surely.
Will keep you updated with my progress.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
I must say I enjoy it. I used to say I would never cut my hair but I have cut my hair and gone natural. So this is my most recent hair style - Mini Two Strands Twists :
So my hair is getting longer slowly but surely.
Will keep you updated with my progress.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Sunday, September 21, 2014
|55| Crochet Braids with Marley Hair
So in between work, the public speaking organization I am part of, and trying (yes i did say trying) to be a social butterfly, I have been attempting to be a Natural Haired Diva (ok not really Diva but you know what I mean.
So I came across this style and found it very interesting and it seems easy to do.
So I will attempt it and have pics of the finished product.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
So I came across this style and found it very interesting and it seems easy to do.
So I will attempt it and have pics of the finished product.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Antigua General Elections 2014
So two days ago there was the Antigua & Barbuda General Elections (ABGE). There was mostly a choice between 2 parties: United Progressive Party (UPP) and the Antigua & Barbuda Labour Party (ABLP). There were other smaller independent parties but I do believe they were there for Kicks and Giggles (well not really).
So as soon as the polls closed and all that could vote had voted, the counting had begun. As the night wore on the numbers began rolling in. Some members of the UPP were ahead of the ABLP and vice versa however in the end it turned out that ABLP had won. ABLP pulled through with 14 seats and UPP with 3 seats.
Now I will say congratulations for the ABLP. You have bombarded us with as much billboards as the highways in the entire USA just to make sure to stay current and let us stay aware that it is time for a change. Yes, 2014 is the year of change so far, so I was not too surprised that they won. I must say congratulations again.
However my only pet peeve with this entire thing is how people are reacting. People are going on like the have won the Cold War or something. They also have a very child like spirit to their party having won over the other. Calling on radio stations saying "Tek dat in ya neh nen!" Some people are saying that the supporters of the UPP are sore losers but if they have supporters of the new government being so rude and childish of course they will react a certain way.
I am just ready for this entire thing to blow over and see if they truly deserve their spot as the Government of the state of Antigua & Barbuda. I will now wait for Carnival to commence in its full and vibrant way.
Congratulations to ABLP once again and I hope you do your supporters and our nation proud.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
All pictures were taken from Google... please dont sue me.
So as soon as the polls closed and all that could vote had voted, the counting had begun. As the night wore on the numbers began rolling in. Some members of the UPP were ahead of the ABLP and vice versa however in the end it turned out that ABLP had won. ABLP pulled through with 14 seats and UPP with 3 seats.
Now I will say congratulations for the ABLP. You have bombarded us with as much billboards as the highways in the entire USA just to make sure to stay current and let us stay aware that it is time for a change. Yes, 2014 is the year of change so far, so I was not too surprised that they won. I must say congratulations again.
However my only pet peeve with this entire thing is how people are reacting. People are going on like the have won the Cold War or something. They also have a very child like spirit to their party having won over the other. Calling on radio stations saying "Tek dat in ya neh nen!" Some people are saying that the supporters of the UPP are sore losers but if they have supporters of the new government being so rude and childish of course they will react a certain way.
I am just ready for this entire thing to blow over and see if they truly deserve their spot as the Government of the state of Antigua & Barbuda. I will now wait for Carnival to commence in its full and vibrant way.
Congratulations to ABLP once again and I hope you do your supporters and our nation proud.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
All pictures were taken from Google... please dont sue me.
Friday, May 2, 2014
WORDS/THOUGHTS HAVE POWER
So I was talking with a friend of mine and trying to get her into my frame of mind in regards to my social life. Giving her scenarios of what may have triggered the reactions that I give off today. It didn't work because as she says everyone goes through something like that. I kinda wanted to scream and start crying because I just want someone to understand. But of course I just gave up and ended that attempt. My thinking however is always a negative and highly cautious process. I would like someone and then dismiss my feelings saying the person is most definitely taken or not attracted to me. I would feel good about myself and gesture or comment from someone could through my mind in a whirlwind of negative thought which will make me feel worthless and ugly. Sometimes no one has to do anything I would just feel worthless and ugly. These feelings used to be kept at bay by my being always in the social company of others. But then now that I am by myself most of the time my thoughts are just driving me mad. Shoot I used to have suicidal thought when I was younger and they are coming back with a vengeance.
I know there is a psychological explanation for how I feel and what I am experiencing now but how I see it is I am kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place. Where my mind giving off the negative and cautious thoughts and what I can and actually do. I want to do so much things but the words that I say or the thoughts that I have are just toxins and viruses destroying everything in it's path. Socially I feel stuck, career-wise I feel stuck, family I feel stuck. And I am now always by myself just to think which is making me crazy. I would want to invite people into my space but fear of rejection or a possible negative reaction causes me to keep to myself.
So I guess I have placed myself in a lose-lose situation. I needed to let these thoughts out and I know very few people, if anyone at all, will read this. So this is just a strange thought process that goes through my head.
A friend of mine had told me of this Anime called XXXHolic and one of the episodes mentioned how words and thought have power. Only when you stop saying those harmful words or stop making other person's harmful words affect you will you be free and enjoy life. So hopefully one day these thought will slip away and I will feel a bit better.
I had also spoken to a coworker and we also discussed that just like how you can zone out certain things, the ability to not take words and thought personally and take the power away from them.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
I know there is a psychological explanation for how I feel and what I am experiencing now but how I see it is I am kind of stuck between a rock and a hard place. Where my mind giving off the negative and cautious thoughts and what I can and actually do. I want to do so much things but the words that I say or the thoughts that I have are just toxins and viruses destroying everything in it's path. Socially I feel stuck, career-wise I feel stuck, family I feel stuck. And I am now always by myself just to think which is making me crazy. I would want to invite people into my space but fear of rejection or a possible negative reaction causes me to keep to myself.
So I guess I have placed myself in a lose-lose situation. I needed to let these thoughts out and I know very few people, if anyone at all, will read this. So this is just a strange thought process that goes through my head.
A friend of mine had told me of this Anime called XXXHolic and one of the episodes mentioned how words and thought have power. Only when you stop saying those harmful words or stop making other person's harmful words affect you will you be free and enjoy life. So hopefully one day these thought will slip away and I will feel a bit better.
I had also spoken to a coworker and we also discussed that just like how you can zone out certain things, the ability to not take words and thought personally and take the power away from them.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Can I do that? No, I can't!!
So my sister and I were talking and we were talking about the situation that the lack of a car is making things quite difficult for us. There is also a situation with the person who was supposed to fix the said car and he is not proving himself worthy.
My sister then stated that she read somewhere that Aquarians dont like people saying they can do something and in the end they prove that they cannot. If they are unable to do something just say that they can't. Instantly my mind started racing because .... I am one of those people.
I am ashamed of it but I have bean told always try. I have also been delegated tasks that I know that I cant do but just to take the weight off of other people I have not turned it down. I am presently in that situation and I know I should just address the people and apologize but I am so nervous of the reaction. I know I will have to face them eventually but I am not ready yet.
So I am the type of person that my sister does not like. But I know I was not like this at birth and was conditioned to be this way from something. How am I gonna handle this?? I noticed after this move there are lots of things about me that my sister does not like in people but I try to change just to make life easier. OK when I say lots I mean a few that my brain does not want to conjure up because it is weird like that.
I know they say people should accept you for who you are but when you don't know who you are you have a tendency to try and be what other people want you to be. That is one of the reasons why I chose to work in the industry I am in but now I realize that I need to be a solid well found person.So now I am even more lost.
If there was only a reset button.
Well there isn't so oh well.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
My sister then stated that she read somewhere that Aquarians dont like people saying they can do something and in the end they prove that they cannot. If they are unable to do something just say that they can't. Instantly my mind started racing because .... I am one of those people.
I am ashamed of it but I have bean told always try. I have also been delegated tasks that I know that I cant do but just to take the weight off of other people I have not turned it down. I am presently in that situation and I know I should just address the people and apologize but I am so nervous of the reaction. I know I will have to face them eventually but I am not ready yet.
So I am the type of person that my sister does not like. But I know I was not like this at birth and was conditioned to be this way from something. How am I gonna handle this?? I noticed after this move there are lots of things about me that my sister does not like in people but I try to change just to make life easier. OK when I say lots I mean a few that my brain does not want to conjure up because it is weird like that.
I know they say people should accept you for who you are but when you don't know who you are you have a tendency to try and be what other people want you to be. That is one of the reasons why I chose to work in the industry I am in but now I realize that I need to be a solid well found person.So now I am even more lost.
If there was only a reset button.
Well there isn't so oh well.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Dirty Deeds (2005) full movie
Alright so this is the second movie for the ... morning? day? yea you know what I mean. I tend to suffer from Insomnia when I dont feel I get the chance to do what I wanna do.
So I am a sucker for American High School Movies. This was just a great icing on top of the cake kinda movie. It reminded me of Slum Dog Millionaire where just the randomist things happen at the right time.
Because I am bias and it is my blog and me watching movies I will give this movie a 9/10. It would have been a full 10/10 if there werent so much scenes where I was worried and had to look away.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
So I am a sucker for American High School Movies. This was just a great icing on top of the cake kinda movie. It reminded me of Slum Dog Millionaire where just the randomist things happen at the right time.
Because I am bias and it is my blog and me watching movies I will give this movie a 9/10. It would have been a full 10/10 if there werent so much scenes where I was worried and had to look away.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
The Figure
So I do not see myself as a poet but something came to me a few days ago and I didnt want to let it pass me by.
As morning sounds of birds rise me from deep slumber
I look to my side and see a figure which is not common to my everyday scenery
As recognition flickers into my foggy awareness
I smile remembering last night
Watching the motion of this figure mesmerizes me
For a minute feel like I am in a dream
Feeling the rise and fall of its chest like the ocean
Then its eyes open and sees me watching
Such a gentle creature it is
Gentle and peaceful
Learning everything about me
Awareness is present in its eyes
I wonder what it is thinking about
No words need to be said this morning
All the words were said last night
It turns its back towards me
I watch the sight of its back
I close my eyes
Replaying the entire evening in my mind
Getting to know each other better
I open my eyes and this figure was gone.
My dreams are becoming way to vivid now.
This figure was almost real.
I have to say I have made some alterations (no not some, ALOT) but This is what I shall settle with.
Blaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
As morning sounds of birds rise me from deep slumber
I look to my side and see a figure which is not common to my everyday scenery
As recognition flickers into my foggy awareness
I smile remembering last night
Watching the motion of this figure mesmerizes me
For a minute feel like I am in a dream
Feeling the rise and fall of its chest like the ocean
Then its eyes open and sees me watching
Such a gentle creature it is
Gentle and peaceful
Learning everything about me
Awareness is present in its eyes
I wonder what it is thinking about
No words need to be said this morning
All the words were said last night
It turns its back towards me
I watch the sight of its back
I close my eyes
Replaying the entire evening in my mind
Getting to know each other better
I open my eyes and this figure was gone.
My dreams are becoming way to vivid now.
This figure was almost real.
I have to say I have made some alterations (no not some, ALOT) but This is what I shall settle with.
Blaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Moved out and more responsibility at work.
I have finally moved out of my childhood home and I am loving it!!!!
Not that I didn't enjoy the perks of living in the family home and all, the free food, free transport, free internet, free laundry/cleaning services. I just needed the free-dom. That is one thing I felt was lacking. So now that I have moved in with my big sis everything is at peace.
Well it was until our transport decided to go on the fritz this long holiday weekend. WHHHHYYY!!!!!?????
So now we have to wait on my father to pick us up and drop us where ever!!!
If I knew this was liable to happen I would have invested in a "CAR MAN". You know the kind of man that all teenage girls want. I heard almost all the girls in my high school raving about this "Car Man" not understanding the big deal about it. But now that I want to go places and have my freedom I can't; and I don't even have a "Car Man".
But such is life. In time I will own my own vehicle and not depend on anyone for all this shit.
I have also been quite busy at work. I am now working as a Human Resources Assistant/ Payroll Clerk. When I tell them that they say, "you making all the money now".
But hopefully soon.
Well I will soon have pics of my place and will share it with the world. MUHAHAHAH and then start planning my house warming party which will come with some more pictures :D
Well I gonna finish chilling online and then head on home since tomorrow will be an internet free zone. Maybe I should top up my phone some more. hmmm.
Oh well.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Not that I didn't enjoy the perks of living in the family home and all, the free food, free transport, free internet, free laundry/cleaning services. I just needed the free-dom. That is one thing I felt was lacking. So now that I have moved in with my big sis everything is at peace.
Well it was until our transport decided to go on the fritz this long holiday weekend. WHHHHYYY!!!!!?????
So now we have to wait on my father to pick us up and drop us where ever!!!
If I knew this was liable to happen I would have invested in a "CAR MAN". You know the kind of man that all teenage girls want. I heard almost all the girls in my high school raving about this "Car Man" not understanding the big deal about it. But now that I want to go places and have my freedom I can't; and I don't even have a "Car Man".
But such is life. In time I will own my own vehicle and not depend on anyone for all this shit.
I have also been quite busy at work. I am now working as a Human Resources Assistant/ Payroll Clerk. When I tell them that they say, "you making all the money now".
But hopefully soon.
Well I will soon have pics of my place and will share it with the world. MUHAHAHAH and then start planning my house warming party which will come with some more pictures :D
Well I gonna finish chilling online and then head on home since tomorrow will be an internet free zone. Maybe I should top up my phone some more. hmmm.
Oh well.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Back In The Day 2005 FULL MOVIE
So I was going through my Watch Later list and I noticed I had this tagged. I decided, why not watch this movie. It started and I saw it had Jah Rule and automatically thought this gonna be cheesy as hell. But then the movie progressed and I saw some other actors and actresses that were familiar to me.
By 30mins into the movie I started wondering wtf am I watching I should stop. But then the plot thickened like flour in a soup! So I continued watching and was like ... seriously why am I watching this??
Guess what the plot thickened some more. I was like you know what my whole attention is caught. So by the end of this movie I was like OMMMGGGG I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!! I am so happy I continued watching!!!
I would give this movie a 7/10. I would have given it a 10/10 but it had its cheesy elements and even though it was made in 2005 it seemed something closer to 2000 or even the nineties.
So I would say watch it when you just want a good heart felt, this is what family is about kinda flick.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
By 30mins into the movie I started wondering wtf am I watching I should stop. But then the plot thickened like flour in a soup! So I continued watching and was like ... seriously why am I watching this??
Guess what the plot thickened some more. I was like you know what my whole attention is caught. So by the end of this movie I was like OMMMGGGG I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!! I am so happy I continued watching!!!
I would give this movie a 7/10. I would have given it a 10/10 but it had its cheesy elements and even though it was made in 2005 it seemed something closer to 2000 or even the nineties.
So I would say watch it when you just want a good heart felt, this is what family is about kinda flick.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Sunday, March 9, 2014
New Place
MOVING ON UP!! TO THE EAST SIDE!! TO A DELUXE HOUSE ON A HILL!!! MOVING ON UP!! TO THE EAST SIDE!! WE FINALLY GOT A PIECE OF THE PIE!!!!!!!!!!
LOL
So I am moving out of my childhood home. Moving to a location which I think is quite nice. Close to the airport, close to a shopping district, and with a great view of the Ocean (or sea). This is something that I have been looking forward to for the past few years. Not that I don't enjoy living with my parents but at a certain age a person just has to leave their parents and start living their lives!! Be independent.
So the house is really nice. A two bedroom house with a front yard and a small back yard. Two tanks so we don't need to depend on Government water, a small shed in the back of the house and a really nice sized living area and kitchen.
Pictures are on its way so you would be able to see how awesome this place looks. So Next week Saturday I will be living in my new abode! Which is soo exciting. I am even going to plan a house warming party but that would be a little later because we need to get the place looking great!
So far 2014 is really becoming a time of change.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
P.S.: I did this post before I had done the previous one but this was put up as a draft. dag nabbit!!!!
LOL
So I am moving out of my childhood home. Moving to a location which I think is quite nice. Close to the airport, close to a shopping district, and with a great view of the Ocean (or sea). This is something that I have been looking forward to for the past few years. Not that I don't enjoy living with my parents but at a certain age a person just has to leave their parents and start living their lives!! Be independent.
So the house is really nice. A two bedroom house with a front yard and a small back yard. Two tanks so we don't need to depend on Government water, a small shed in the back of the house and a really nice sized living area and kitchen.
Pictures are on its way so you would be able to see how awesome this place looks. So Next week Saturday I will be living in my new abode! Which is soo exciting. I am even going to plan a house warming party but that would be a little later because we need to get the place looking great!
So far 2014 is really becoming a time of change.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
P.S.: I did this post before I had done the previous one but this was put up as a draft. dag nabbit!!!!
Friday, March 7, 2014
What are you Anxious about?
I am part of this organization called the ToastMasters Antigua Club which helps members enhance their Public Speaking and Leadership Skills. I have been a member for almost a year now (or something like that) and I have only reached my second speech. I reach much further in my Leadership skill training but that is if I am prepared. Yesterday I found out I was the Host of the evening (Toastmaster) and I wasn't PREPARED. I automatically started to freak out and began having a anxiety attack (not the hyperventilating kind but the kind where I start to shake and cry).
How EMBARRASSING!! I tried to go through with it but I just couldn't stop crying so I had to change roles.
I never knew I actually suffered from Anxiety Attacks until yesterday and looking back at past experiences when I am very anxious about something I get like that.
When I was in university I had a course where I had to be the Sous Chef for a restaurant. The planning and everything was easily completed. The Professor was very impressed by my planning skills but when it came to implementing I began to freak out and all my plans basically went down the drain.
That was one of the reasons I got a B in the class.
This Anxiety also affects me in stressful situations at work. At the reception I would be overwhelmed and it is like my brain shuts down and I am uncertain of what I can and cannot do. When there are 10-20 persons in front of you waiting to check in, you have the phone ringing, people coming to you for keys or information. I automatically shut down.
THIS IS NOT GOOD!
So the next question is how to control this so that I can be a better speaker and leader?
Well there are many ways which I will attempt to share with you over the next few ... weeks? days? months? We will see how this works out.
The first one I may mention is DRUGS.
They have so many drugs out there that can help you relax. Marijuana, Zoloft (I think that is the name) are used to calm the nerves, make you more relaxed but one of them is not legal and the other might become addicting. Soo I do believe that it is not the best choice when it comes to becoming a better speaker and leader.
So please stay tuned for the next installment of: "What are you Anxious about?"
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
How EMBARRASSING!! I tried to go through with it but I just couldn't stop crying so I had to change roles.
I never knew I actually suffered from Anxiety Attacks until yesterday and looking back at past experiences when I am very anxious about something I get like that.
When I was in university I had a course where I had to be the Sous Chef for a restaurant. The planning and everything was easily completed. The Professor was very impressed by my planning skills but when it came to implementing I began to freak out and all my plans basically went down the drain.
That was one of the reasons I got a B in the class.
This Anxiety also affects me in stressful situations at work. At the reception I would be overwhelmed and it is like my brain shuts down and I am uncertain of what I can and cannot do. When there are 10-20 persons in front of you waiting to check in, you have the phone ringing, people coming to you for keys or information. I automatically shut down.
THIS IS NOT GOOD!
So the next question is how to control this so that I can be a better speaker and leader?
Well there are many ways which I will attempt to share with you over the next few ... weeks? days? months? We will see how this works out.
The first one I may mention is DRUGS.
They have so many drugs out there that can help you relax. Marijuana, Zoloft (I think that is the name) are used to calm the nerves, make you more relaxed but one of them is not legal and the other might become addicting. Soo I do believe that it is not the best choice when it comes to becoming a better speaker and leader.
So please stay tuned for the next installment of: "What are you Anxious about?"
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
I just wanted to rant.
So... Tonight I got to the state of drunkness where I was sober enough to speak my mind and drunk enough to not care. However it seems like you must always care. One thing I learnt from a roommate of mine: Do what you want the ppl who care about it dont matter and the ppl who dont care are the ones who hang around.
I noticed when I am drunk I act like the roommate where she does what she has to do, whether it is curse someone for slightly pissing her off or just giving hugs because her spirit takes to you because you are cool. I enjoy this state of mind because you are able to sober up and step back and see differently from when you are sober.
Tonight I cried because I needed to. Tonight was the night that I needed to ball up in the fetal position and cry my eyes out. Wishing I had someone to rub my back and whisper to me that everything is fine but you just need to let these feelings out because even though you act strong you are as weak as a baby (puppy, kitten, kid). Weak!!! I dont know how to act. I always have to act the right way around certain ppl when in truth I just wanna act like me. I dont know who I am because I am not allowed to act like me. :(
Certain situations I just want to end it all. Just end it all. Whether it be dagger, pills or just liquid. Let it blur everything out until it is gone. Until I am gone.
I want to cry again. How could I feel this way. How could I feel this darkness in my soul. How can someone anyone make me feel so worthless and so ... unworthy. I am not dark enough, i am not light enough. I am not slim enough, I am not fat enough. I am not smart, artistic, unique enough. So I try. I try to be someone that I wish I was but never will be. But when I am who I am I am told to stop. I see who I want to be but I am told: NO!!! Be who I say to be even though I dont say what to be.
I am done.... they say music is the truth, well Linkin Park's Numb is what I am. I am to numb to give a shit when I am in this state. Soo numb that I dont know who I am, want to be, should be. I try to be what I wanna be but I will always be seen as wrong.
I try to let ppl in but they always want to fix me or dont even care. I just want someone to care. Please care. The thoughts of Papa Roach's Last Resort is come to mind but I know there is more. Some more. Some where. But I am not sure if here.
I. Am. Done.
OXXO
Mayeshah
I noticed when I am drunk I act like the roommate where she does what she has to do, whether it is curse someone for slightly pissing her off or just giving hugs because her spirit takes to you because you are cool. I enjoy this state of mind because you are able to sober up and step back and see differently from when you are sober.
Tonight I cried because I needed to. Tonight was the night that I needed to ball up in the fetal position and cry my eyes out. Wishing I had someone to rub my back and whisper to me that everything is fine but you just need to let these feelings out because even though you act strong you are as weak as a baby (puppy, kitten, kid). Weak!!! I dont know how to act. I always have to act the right way around certain ppl when in truth I just wanna act like me. I dont know who I am because I am not allowed to act like me. :(
Certain situations I just want to end it all. Just end it all. Whether it be dagger, pills or just liquid. Let it blur everything out until it is gone. Until I am gone.
I want to cry again. How could I feel this way. How could I feel this darkness in my soul. How can someone anyone make me feel so worthless and so ... unworthy. I am not dark enough, i am not light enough. I am not slim enough, I am not fat enough. I am not smart, artistic, unique enough. So I try. I try to be someone that I wish I was but never will be. But when I am who I am I am told to stop. I see who I want to be but I am told: NO!!! Be who I say to be even though I dont say what to be.
I am done.... they say music is the truth, well Linkin Park's Numb is what I am. I am to numb to give a shit when I am in this state. Soo numb that I dont know who I am, want to be, should be. I try to be what I wanna be but I will always be seen as wrong.
I try to let ppl in but they always want to fix me or dont even care. I just want someone to care. Please care. The thoughts of Papa Roach's Last Resort is come to mind but I know there is more. Some more. Some where. But I am not sure if here.
I. Am. Done.
OXXO
Mayeshah
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Travel Insurance
When I went to Ireland for St. Paddy's day with some friends of mine while studying in Leeds, I was advised to purchase Travel Insurance. I admit anything can happen while you are abroad and in a country you have never been before but I didn't see the purpose of my having one. However, just today I was looking at a few hotels in Rhode Island (one of which was being promoted by a hotelier who taught me in JWU) and I checked out their policies. I saw a segment for Travel insurance and they mentioned that you would be able to use your travel insurance to cover your stay or the cancellation fees if anything should happen.
OHHHH.....
Now I understand what else Travel Insurance is used for and I believe that is great cause I have encountered a few persons who had to stay over in the resort that I work in because they developed an ear infection and had to stay longer. Travel Insurance probably would be able to cover the payment for that situation.
The segment on Travel Insurance on the hotel's website directed you to a website called InsureMyTrip. Upon looking at it and testing out to check out what kind of quotes are being offered it seems quite legit and gives you some great options.
So to avoid being stranded, injured or mother nature dealt you a bad hand. Make sure you purchase your Travel Insurance before you travel. Remember Murphy??? He remembers you!!!!
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OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
OHHHH.....
Now I understand what else Travel Insurance is used for and I believe that is great cause I have encountered a few persons who had to stay over in the resort that I work in because they developed an ear infection and had to stay longer. Travel Insurance probably would be able to cover the payment for that situation.
The segment on Travel Insurance on the hotel's website directed you to a website called InsureMyTrip. Upon looking at it and testing out to check out what kind of quotes are being offered it seems quite legit and gives you some great options.
So to avoid being stranded, injured or mother nature dealt you a bad hand. Make sure you purchase your Travel Insurance before you travel. Remember Murphy??? He remembers you!!!!
Photo Source
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
More Music Rock!!
I fell in love with that group and then found out they were a Christian group and I felt quite happy cause you can have Christmas music without saying God, Jesus, Father, Son, or Holy Ghost. Some other favourites are seen below: Ok I gone now lol
Music - Alot of Videos
So I have noticed that some of my best memories have revolved around music. I can transport myself from one place to another just by listening to something. I do believe that is why I am not very into listening to music from the region. I dont get transported far enough.
An example of this is when I went to visit my brother and he had to take me to work with him. I was in primary school and because I never really spent alot of time with my brother alone like that he wasn't too sure of my ability to keep still and so on. SO while he was working I was listening to my music. One song I remember listening to was Yellow by Coldplay:
This song brought me to England and I just loved how it soothed me. I don't even know of I had been to England that much for it to comfort me so. There is also bands like Wheatus, Sum 41, and Blink 182 which made me feel like I was a teenager in America. I know that all Teenagers in America are not the same but this is what I understand about them.
I was really uncomfortable growing up because I always felt that I didnt blend in. While people were listening to Dancehall and Reggae, even Soca I was listening to this:
Then when I noticed alot of persons were listening to Rap, R&B and Hip-Hop and I must admit that it is a genre that I do enjoy. Especially Floetry, Jill Scott, Erykah Badu, and Lauryn Hill:
R&B like this made me feel like I was in Brooklyn, Atlanta or the "ghetto" parts of London. My favourite which always kept me quiet was Heavy Metal which is one of the things which made me stand out from everyone else. I was a lover of Linkin Park, Papa Roach, Limp Bizkit, Disturbed. They were very dark, and that is how I felt while growing up. Evanescence and Seether were good that that and dont even forget Korn.
DID I MENTION I AM A BIG FAN OF MARILYN MANSON!!! One group which I was very skeptical about was System of A Down because in this song they mentioned "...Angels Deserve to Die..." but then when I borrowed the album from a friend I noticed that it said "...I Cry When Angels Deserve to Die...". Songs like this had a message which to everyone means different things. This group is Armanian and some of their songs have hints of their background which I find is very interesting.
I just wanted to get out of here. I then got away and my music kept me safe and alive. But I didnt take my escape to the best advantages that I could have had. I do remember how music has played an awesome part of my being away. When I was in RI I had gone to a few bars which had local bands, and the club scene had great music. I have also done many long walks with music serenading me. When I went to Leeds I would always have on my radio and that just kept me calm and at bay. Sometimes music depicted the type of relationships I wanted where it was alot of hanging out and chilling which occasional M.O.S. Just being comfortable with a guy with no fears of the only reason he may be interested is to get into my knickers (I do prefer this over "panty").
Music videos do play a great deal in my enjoyment of the song. In Drive by Incubus, it is a very simple video but artistic nevertheless.
However in The Reason, Hoobastank was way more dramatic and action based. This is truly one of my favourite videos:
Foo Fighters always did something interesting like this:
Music has played a mega role in who I am today and I dont regret most of that. Some days I dont mind listening to some tunes that blatantly state that they want sex but songs that can make me think and allow me to apply it to my situation is always my preference. Makes me comfortable with who I am. Seriously, If I were to put a song from all the bands that I love you would never leave my page (which I dont mind, I enjoy your company)but I guess you have something productive to be getting done.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
I was really uncomfortable growing up because I always felt that I didnt blend in. While people were listening to Dancehall and Reggae, even Soca I was listening to this:
Then when I noticed alot of persons were listening to Rap, R&B and Hip-Hop and I must admit that it is a genre that I do enjoy. Especially Floetry, Jill Scott, Erykah Badu, and Lauryn Hill:
R&B like this made me feel like I was in Brooklyn, Atlanta or the "ghetto" parts of London. My favourite which always kept me quiet was Heavy Metal which is one of the things which made me stand out from everyone else. I was a lover of Linkin Park, Papa Roach, Limp Bizkit, Disturbed. They were very dark, and that is how I felt while growing up. Evanescence and Seether were good that that and dont even forget Korn.
DID I MENTION I AM A BIG FAN OF MARILYN MANSON!!! One group which I was very skeptical about was System of A Down because in this song they mentioned "...Angels Deserve to Die..." but then when I borrowed the album from a friend I noticed that it said "...I Cry When Angels Deserve to Die...". Songs like this had a message which to everyone means different things. This group is Armanian and some of their songs have hints of their background which I find is very interesting.
I just wanted to get out of here. I then got away and my music kept me safe and alive. But I didnt take my escape to the best advantages that I could have had. I do remember how music has played an awesome part of my being away. When I was in RI I had gone to a few bars which had local bands, and the club scene had great music. I have also done many long walks with music serenading me. When I went to Leeds I would always have on my radio and that just kept me calm and at bay. Sometimes music depicted the type of relationships I wanted where it was alot of hanging out and chilling which occasional M.O.S. Just being comfortable with a guy with no fears of the only reason he may be interested is to get into my knickers (I do prefer this over "panty").
Music videos do play a great deal in my enjoyment of the song. In Drive by Incubus, it is a very simple video but artistic nevertheless.
However in The Reason, Hoobastank was way more dramatic and action based. This is truly one of my favourite videos:
Foo Fighters always did something interesting like this:
Music has played a mega role in who I am today and I dont regret most of that. Some days I dont mind listening to some tunes that blatantly state that they want sex but songs that can make me think and allow me to apply it to my situation is always my preference. Makes me comfortable with who I am. Seriously, If I were to put a song from all the bands that I love you would never leave my page (which I dont mind, I enjoy your company)but I guess you have something productive to be getting done.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Blogathon
So it appears there is a Blogathon going on in which the resort I work for is taking part in along with other resorts on and off island. When I saw that the blogger was coming in yesterday I was like that is cool. But today, I had to find out who this person is. SOOO .. I found out the person's name and then turned to my friend Google, who was of great and immense help to me (being Google and all). I came across his blog, his twitter, Insta-gram, Pinterest, Google+ and LinkedIn. Take about the power of the internet. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA
So I first checked out the blog (Travel With a Mate) and read some of his blog posts and felt that pang of Wander-lust hit me hard. Then Checked out his Twitter and saw that he loves us. The first post I saw was "Best omelettes in Antigua they said. Very tasty! Like a big cheese sandwich made of egg!! " Which had a pic of his omelette. I must admit here has a mean ass omelette, my sister and I came here on a day pass just before I started working here and I fell in love with this place at that moment.
So I clicked the pic and couldnt get through on Insta-gram on my computer so I tried my phone which worked (I started following him of course) and saw his omelette and his room when he first came. His Google+ is quite lacking due to the face that no one ever uses Google+ anyways but all his blog posts can be found there.
He is a travel photographer which makes it real easy for him to be doing this and I think I wouldnt mind doing this one day. But as with everything you have to start somewhere.
Well he and his wife will be leaving the property tomorrow and I will be looking to see if I can see them before they leave. That would be great.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
So I first checked out the blog (Travel With a Mate) and read some of his blog posts and felt that pang of Wander-lust hit me hard. Then Checked out his Twitter and saw that he loves us. The first post I saw was "Best omelettes in Antigua they said. Very tasty! Like a big cheese sandwich made of egg!! " Which had a pic of his omelette. I must admit here has a mean ass omelette, my sister and I came here on a day pass just before I started working here and I fell in love with this place at that moment.
So I clicked the pic and couldnt get through on Insta-gram on my computer so I tried my phone which worked (I started following him of course) and saw his omelette and his room when he first came. His Google+ is quite lacking due to the face that no one ever uses Google+ anyways but all his blog posts can be found there.
He is a travel photographer which makes it real easy for him to be doing this and I think I wouldnt mind doing this one day. But as with everything you have to start somewhere.
Well he and his wife will be leaving the property tomorrow and I will be looking to see if I can see them before they leave. That would be great.
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
Thursday, January 2, 2014
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
It is now the end of the first day of the year 2014! Such a relaxing day and got some work done and sleep in. My goal for the new year is to 1. get back to good standing with everything ( financially, work, and social) and 2. We rang in the new year by going to the Sugar Ridge Resort
I hope everyone's 2014 New Year started on a great note and one the "Right Foot". HAVE A PROSPEROUS AND CRAZY GREAT NEW YEAR!!!
OXXO
Mayeshah!!!
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